Rated Mature:Language, Certain Situations, Abuse and Drugs

Author’s Notes:During the summer I get into a gloomy mood and love to write more serious stuff. It rains a lot where I live and this is based a little bit on my life, so it's more personal than my other Rin and Haru fics. But hope you love this fic. Enjoy chapter one.

Disclaimer: Obviously I don’t own Fruits Basket nor do I own any of the characters. Just using them for a little twist of my own. Just so you all know, this fic doesn’t follow the original storyline of Furuba. The characters are all OOC, just to warn you. The opening song is "Insomnia", insert song is "Over" and ending song is "Change", all three are by HIGH and MIGHTY COLOR.

Chapter Preview:I kept thinking about how I even got into this situation anyways. It was his fault. It was always his damn fault I was in situations like this. Always having to take his blows from him. Always being harrassed by his gross hands and sickening touches. Being hurt night after night.

Fruits Basket

:XxInsomniaXx:

By Kaiya

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::I::

“To Be Loved Again”

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Burning into mind, burned into...
Days burn out, scenes burn out

Burning memory, no more burned
We are burned into sadness
I hope no more

Burning into mind, burned into...
Days burn out, scenes burn out

Burning memory, no more burned
We are burned into cry

I certainly won’t sleep tonight, I’ll remember what happened that day
My world disappears, leaving my heart aching

Burning into mind, burned into...
Days burn out, scenes burn out

Burning memory, no more burned
We are burned into sadness
I hope no more

Burning into mind, burned into...Burn

Burning memory, no more burned
We are burned into cry

How many times will I have to see that you’re not there, as the winter nights come along
Even if the memories fade, my heart will still be left aching

We go Burning history now, we are stopping now
Burning for...

I certainly won’t sleep tonight, I’ll remember what happened that day
My world disappears, leaving my heart aching

How many times will I have to see that you’re not there, as the winter nights come along
Even if the memories fade, my heart will still be left aching

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"Stay the hell out of our teritory you fucking bitch. You don't belong here, so go die somewhere in an alley you whore," they all started to laugh. About seven or eight surrounded me. I couldn't run anywhere, though they told me to do so. I felt tears coming. My throat began to ache and my heart raced faster and faster by the moment.

One guy about five inches taller than me pushed me. Two more even fondled my breasts. I pushed their filthy hands away and held my arms tight to my chest. My face started to burn and I felt embarrassed. Two girls started to giggle and mock me, like I was the ugliest girl in the school.

"Let's lock her in the shed! That'll teach her not to come around here again. Teach her to never ever step foot in our turf ever again. Right gang?!" a tall boy everybody called Eiji clapped as more gang members walked out from the bushes and trees.

I kept thinking about how I even got into this situation anyways. It was his fault. It was always his damn fault I was in situations like this. Always having to take his blows from him. Always being harrassed by his gross hands and sickening touches. Being hurt night after night.

Running away for the night because his nastiness and abuse. This night was different from the other nights though. I had walked into some gangs turf just passing by the park. Living in this stupid big city was tough. I can't even walk around without being yelled at by random people on the streets calling me Japanese trash.

Four guys to be about eighteen grabbed my arms and legs and forced me into a small shed just around an abandoned building's corner. They opened the door and violently shoved me in. I was soaking wet from the pouring and freezing rain, my arms ached and my legs were covered in bruises.

"Heh, if you dare try and escape, you'll have to face the consequences," the Eiji guy kicked my leg and slammed the shed's door shut, leaving nothing but an echo behind. The laughter of the gang members calmed down and I felt a little bit more at ease.

But his threat scared me. What if I did try to escape? What would they do to me? It's night and there's hardly any cops our because the cops are worthless pigs who can't protect anybody even if they tried. They aren't out at night because of all these damn gang members. The cops are all scared of them. Scared they'll all be shot and killed.

That made me wonder too...If I did escape, soon I'd be on the news. The headline would be "Local Unknown Girl Shot and Killed By Gang Members". Not that anybody would care though. Especially him. He would laugh and I'd finally be out of his life. And he'd be out of mine.

It'd be better to die a horrid death. I'd rather be killed by a gang than have to be abused by his ugly ass. His fucking fondling me every night. His fucking hitting me every night.

I slowly laid down in the cold shed and cried freely. I removed my wet brown and black jacket and used it as a pillow. I couldn't sleep though. I looked at my bare legs with only my black shorts to keep my legs warm. My long brown lace boots were starting to wear out, wetting my feet inside the boots.

There were several holes in my brown tank top and lace vest. My arm warmers were also wet and holy. I sobbed silently, remembering what had just happened.

"No wonder I'm called a whore," I whispered. Yet it wasn't my fault. These were basically my only clothes I had. The only other clothes I had were a black pair of jeans and my black tennis shoes. I cried harder, thinking about my stupid and fucked up life.

I sat up and hugged my knees. The memory came back to me about what happened earlier today. Basically what happens every day. Ever since my mother killed herself. Ever since my sister left us. Ever since my friends betrayed me. Ever since I lost all hope in finding a new life.

Nine Hours Earlier

1:29 p.m.

"Wake the hell up, damn Isuzu!" he slammed my door closed the second he finished. I sat up and rubbed my tired eyes. I looked at my alarm clock. It didn't go off again. I could have sworn that I set it the night before. I missed school again. There were only three more hours of school left. Yet those three hours would be better than being in hell all day.

I threw off the thin sheet I used for a "blanket" and popped my aching back. Ever since my mother commited suicide a few months back, I was alone. My step father was all I had now. Just him and I. My older sister, Kagura left me without a word a month after mother killed herself. She was all I had. The only support I had. The only protection from my step dad.

Now she's gone and it's just me and Satan's helper living with me. Ha...He doesn't even deserve to be called Satan's helper. He's lower than that. He's Satan himself. I looked at my mat of a bed and stood up to brush my hair. What was in store for me today? Hopefully I'd be able to sneak away to school. On good days he'd let me go to school if I was late.

Hopefully today was a good day.

"Get the hell in here!" his scratchy voice yelled from behind my closet of a room door.

Nope...Today was definently going to be a bad day...

"Coming!" I called back.

"No, NOW!" his voice was louder than before. I rolled my eyes and quickly got dressed, in my black shorts...my tank top and lace vest...my only outfit. I opened the door and slowly walked into the kitchen.

My step dad stood up from the dining room table and walked closer to me. I slightly backed away.

"What took you so long to get up?! Your damn principal's been calling all day. I kept having to tell her you were sick. Damn, how many times have you missed school?! I've been getting letters in the mail saying you've been skipping school too, aside from your damn laziness. You can't even get out of bed! What've you been doing anyway?! You've probably been fucking prostituting behind my back! Haven't you!? Damn whore!" with my step dad's words, he grabbed my long, dark tresses and pulled them hard.

"Ugh..." I cried out trying to pull my hair back.

"Don't make this any harder than it is you bitch, your mommy's not here to help you anymore. She left because of you! She's never coming back so quit trying to fight back!" he yelled and pushed me down. I landed on my back and felt the tears coming to my eyes.

"Might as well not go to school since you're too lazy to anyway. Go downstairs or something. I'm already tired of looking at your ugly face," the veins in his forehead slightly went down from their bulge. His whole face was red and his eyes were blood shot from yelling at me so hard.

He walked outside to smoke a ciggarette for a while. Those few moments he smoked were almost an escape for me. I at least got some time to myself in this stupid house. This was my chance to run out of the front door and run to school.

I grabbed my bag and jacket and ran outside as fast as I could. I quickly made sure I had my subway card and some money. Once I got to the subway station, I pushed my way through the crowd and felt much more safer. I gave a sigh of relief and sat down in an empty seat on the train. People didn't stare at me here, considering there were either too many or they were all in a hurry.

When I got to school, I made my way in the halls and into my class that I was having now. My sixth period algebra class. People stared at me and sometimes the girls would make fun of me. The boy that sat behind me pulled my hair a lot. A blond girl would even call me a Japanese whore, she sat next to me and sometimes would pass notes to me. I learned to just throw them away, but later on they'd end up in my locker later in the day.

Yet today was different. I was left alone for some reason. Everybody actually payed attention to their work instead of mocking me. That gave me a change to do my own work. During my break hour I sat alone in a classroom and read or wrote about my feelings. On bad days I'd cry in the bathroom. The classroom I'd sit alone in was always empty and no teachers would go in there. I called it my "Alone Room".

I sat there and a guy walked by and saw me. He was kind of a pimply and ugly dude. He grinned at me and came into the class room.

"Hey hun, what's up?" his nasty voice asked as he sat next to me in a desk.

"What the hell do you want?" I glared at him.

"Oh, a little frisky today, are we Isuzu?" he laughed and stroked my hair.

"Get away," I took my hand and pushed his greasy hand away. My heart started to speed up from the adrenaline rush of wanting to punch him.

"I love a girl who is frisky. Why don't we hook up sometime. Go drink in an alley and then I'll take you back to my place and we'll get it on," he took his hand and touched my breast. I quickly stood up, knocking the chair I was sitting on to fall backwards.

"I get this shit enough day after day, night after night. I don't want any filthy, rotton men to touch me in any way whatsoever. There's no way in hell I'll go out with you, scum bag, drug addict. So why don't you go die in an alley somewhere, do us all a favor and drop out already. You look too old," I yelled and glared at him. He was taken aback by my yelling, considering I hardly talk.

I grabbed my bag and walked out of the class room. I had half an hour left of free time. What would I do now? Walk the halls? No, too dangerous, considering teachers lurked around every corner, asking constantly "where's your hall pass?". That made me sick. My only other option was the bathroom.

Quickly, I ran into the nearest rest room and into the stall. I locked the door and sat on the floor next to the gross toilet. Two minutes later, two girls came into the bathroom. Their voices so familiar, I just knew what they'd be talking about. It was my two ex-best friends. Keiko and Chai. The first to speak was Keiko.

"God damn it, I hate her. She's so annoying and she skips school just to make us do our stupid project on our own. Then she comes to school way later so she won't have to see us anymore," Keiko sighed hard. Chai spoke up next.

"I know, what a bitch. She's probably a prostitute, at least that's what all the guys in our grade say. God she's so retarded. Did you see her walk into her math class earlier? She looks like trash!" Chai laughed. I wouldn't dare move.

"Isuzu's retarded, she should die. Remember when she tried to commit suicide by overdosing on pills last year? How pathetic! She even wrote us goodbye notes and called it her last day on earth! Ha! She's so dumb!" Keiko turned on the water, possibly to wipe away her over make-uped face for the day. They walked out a few minutes later, thank goodness. I hugged my knees and felt tears coming on.

Damn, why the hell did I have to be so sensitive? Why the hell did I ever look at Keiko and Chai as friends? They betrayed me because they became popular. I had nobody left. Nobody left to love me anymore. Not my mother. Not my sister, Kagura. Nobody...Not anybody...

After school was out, I had no choice but to go hom because my step dad came to pick me up outside of the school yard. I got into his beat up car and he sped off.

"Why the hell didn't you tell me you were going to school? I was looking for you so you could wash all those damned dishes today. This is the real world, you think I'd let you off easy today, Isuzu?!" he yelled. Fifteen minutes later we were home. He slammed the door shut and pulled me out of the car. He locked me in my room.

"I'll call you when dinner's ready. It's your room so you can do whatever you want," he yelled from behind the door. I silently cried on my bed and drifted into a deep sleep.

I awoke to thunder roaring across the skies. Suddenly, my step dad slammed the door open.

"Damn you, you stupid whore! You shouldn't have gone to school today!" his voice was slurred. That could only mean one thing. He was drunk. I stood up and was about to run behind him out of my door, but I was too late. He grabbed me by the hair and pushed me down hard. Tears instantly sprung from my eyes.

"Damn you...you've been with a boy haven't you?!" he yelled. He'd accuse me of being with a boy when he was drunk. His false accusations were usually the ones that led to my bruises. He kicked my legs and slapped me across the face as he pulled me to my feet.

He grabbed my arms and pushed me onto the bed.

"I'll show you what it's like to be with a man again," he glared and started to unzip his pants. This was my chance to escape. I looked out the window and then at the open door behind him. I looked at the lamp by my bedside and acted fast. I grabbed it and hit it across his head. He yelled in pain.

I will kick door
I will crash wall
Stop!? Go!?
Cut a way, yourself

I fell off my bed and stood up and ran out the door.

"Get back here!" he yelled feeling his head. I quickly unlocked the door and slammed it, running into the freezing rain. Lightning shot across the skies. I started to blindly run.

I go without knowing my destination
Without stopping, I keep running

As I ran, memories flashed through my mind. Of my mother's voice. Of my sister's voice. They both always told me to never give up and to always stand up for what I believed in. Yet when my step father came along, my mother changed. She began to look at things like he did and started to ignore me and my sister. Yet my mother was convinced that I was a mistake. She left us without a word.

Kick door and crash wall
The existing tension surges to a climax
Headway jump over it
Make a Natural Mind with my hands
Kick door and crash wall
Much more I want more
Just now!! Go!! I over border line

She killed herself and left us all. My sister left a while after that and left me here all alone...All alone...With nobody to love me again...

Entangled by countless weights
Without an inclination, I keep running...

And now here I am...Sitting in this shed after running into some gang's property. Wanting out. Wanting to be like it was before my stupid step dad came along. Ten minutes later, I wanted out even more than ever.

I pounded on the shed door and finally, it opened. Yet there the gang stood, probably just waiting for me to escape.

"Ah, so you decide to be a bad girl today eh? Boys?" the Eiji dude laughed and two guys came over to me and pushed me down. My head hit the shed and the two guys ripped off my lace vest, with nothing but my tank top to cover me.

The girls began to laugh hard and the boys cheered. The rain fell harder and the lightning raced across the sky.

One guy held my arms down as I struggled to get away. The other was about to rape me. I screamed, yet they held my mouth to try and drown my screams. I was cold and soaking wet. Before I was about to feel the pain, a voice ripped into the night and interrupted the gang's laughter.

"Let her go..." his voice was soothing and it made me feel a little relieved that someone was standing up for me. The question was...Who was it?

"Who the hell are you?!" Eiji yelled. The two guys backed away from me. Out of the darkness came a tall guy with silver and black hair. His grey eyes burned into me, making me feel so calm for some reason.

"The name's Hatsuharu, and I suggest you leave her alone," his hands were in his long white coat and he wore goggles.

"Oh, that's a name to be scared of! And what will you do if we don't let this whore girl go?!" Eiji yelled again.

"There just might be one less idiot in the world," that Hatsuharu guy yelled as he punched Eiji in the nose. Eiji fell to the ground. The guys looked surprised and all started to charge at the Hatusharu guy. Yet he blocked each and every one of their moves. He kicked them, punched them, flipped them over and elbowed them. He was quick. Quicker than anybody I had ever seen. When he was done, he had laid out each and every one of the guys.

The girls had already ran off screaming.

"You okay?" he asked holding out his hand. I was barely able to nod...Did he just save me?

To be continued...

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You can change your self, I can change my self
You and I can change each other
You can change your self, I can change my self
You and I can change each other

I’m used to always seeing you smile, but what are you staring at today?
“Did something happen?” I search your face for that smile

The darkness is deep within you, and you can’t fix it right away
I’ll be here by your side, so go ahead and cry if you want
We’ll wait untill the light shines through, together

“I can’t go because I’m alone” that’s how you thought up untill now
Whenever you’re hurting, I’ll be by your side

I tell you that you’re kind in an istant, hoping that it could lift your heart
Whatever obstacles we encounter, we can overcome them
Thank you for being here with me

Take my hand, do your best
Let’s make your greatest days
Take my hand, do your best
Let’s make your greatest days
Yes, we won’t let you sink
Well, we’ll always see your smile yo my friend
It’s you that I’m here here for!
Naked eyes, naked mind
I don’t wanna see your tears more
Let me know, ya let you go
Now spit out the feelings you’ve been keeping inside

Wherever you are, when you look up at the heavens, you’ll hear our promise
in a loud voice “Forever and always, you can become stronger!”

The clouds in the sky will seem to be running, as the sunlight pours down on you
What do you think will happen when we see you smile again?
Surely, we’ll all be smiling when that happens

You can change your self, I can change my self
You and I can change each other
You can change your self, I can change my self
You and I can change each other

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