Author’s Notes:I wrote the poem "Does She" a while back and made up a One Shot for it. I changed things up a bit and made this One Shot a bittersweet and sad fic. Tell me if it brings tears to your eyes or not, tell me if you like it or love it. It's and Alternate Reality fic that's written in a journal form.

Disclaimer: Obviously I don’t own Fruits Basket nor do I own any of the characters. Just using them for a little twist of my own. Just so you all know, this fic doesn’t follow the original storyline of Furuba. The characters are all OOC, just to warn you. The songs in here are called "Who's That Girl" by Hilary Duff, and "Missing" by Gackt.

Fruits Basket

:xXDoes She?Xx:

By Kaiya

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June 30

It's been a year since we broke up...Haru...I miss you a lot. I know I said that I hated you and hurt you probably more than I know. But I hope someday we'll be able to talk again. You've ignored me as I see you, walking around town with your friends. I feel so...hurt...to know that we can never be like we used to be. I know what we did in the past was wrong. Our relationship was too deep to handle.

July 2

I saw you again today as I was shopping for clothes. You were walking around town with...some girl that I've never seen in my life. Is she with you more than a friend? Or is she just a friend? I cry myself to sleep at night, knowing you and I will never be. Why did I make you a big part of my life? I feel so alone now.

July 6

Loneliness...I stopped taking my depression pills, wondering why you and I broke up in the first place. It's official, you and that girl are together. I saw you and her kissing in the park by the river where you and I used to always talk. "I love you, Rin," is what you would always say. It made me angry to know you can just move on like this. How dare you...but can I blame you? At night I cut my arms up, trying to forget the pain you've caused me.

July 17

I had to see a counselor. But I ran away. Remember Haru? We always used to run away together in the falling rain. Splashing. Now I realize why we broke up. Why did we? Because I wasn't worth it, right? Now that girl you're with, I'm still wondering who she is...Who is she? She stole my world from me in such a short time. She stole you. She stole your heart. How? Why her? Remeber the places we would go after midnight? When we would sneak out? I do...You always used to give me those small kisses on my neck. The secrets we shared were for nobody but the two of us. Now they're gone.

There were places we would go at midnight
There were secrets that nobody else would know
There's a reason but I don't know why
I don't know why
I don't know why
I thought they all belonged to me

July 19

Who is she? Where's she from? Do you really, truly want her Haru? This can't be right. I have to be dreaming. But when I look back at my previous entries...I see now, that this isn't a dream. It's a nightmare come true. That girl is living the life I used to live with you.

Who's that girl?
Where's she from?
No she can't be the one
That you want
That has stolen my world
It's not real, it's not right
It's my day, it's my night
By the way
Who's that girl living my life?
Oh no, living my life

July 23

Everything's changed now...My arms are hurt, my heart sombers day by day. My skin is pale. Without you, Haru, I am nothing. Though I'll never admit that, I am nothing to you and openly I admit you are nothing to me. But that's not true. You're my everything. You're everything to me Haru. That girl is everywhere I should be.

Seems like everything's the same around me
Then I look again and everything has changed
I'm not dreaming so I don't know why
I don't know why
I don't know why
She's everywhere I wanna be

Who's that girl?
Where's she from?
No she can't be the one
That you want
That has stolen my world
It's not real, it's not right
It's my day, it's my night
By the way
Who's that girl living my life?

July 28

It's been a while since I've gone about the town. Now each day I fear I'll see you with her again. But I wonder...Can she make you laugh the way I did? No...Haru...I'm not sorry for what we did...For who we were. Those two outcasts. How could you? I thought I was your only one. If you were to ask me now, Haru...I wouldn't say I was sorry...Because I'm not her, whoever she is...And I never will be...

I'm the one who made you laugh
Who made you feel
And made you sad
I'm not sorry
For what we did
For who we were
I'm not sorry
I'm not her

Who's that girl?
Where's she from?
No she can't be the one
That you want
That has stolen my world
It's not real, it's not right
It's my day, it's my night
By the way
Who's that girl living my life?
Oh no, living my life

August 4

My life definently isn't the same without you...This is why I will write this poem for you and give you this journal, my love, Hatsuharu. Does that girl you are with love you the way I do? I love you...Always Haru...

She doesn't smile at you the way I do

Does she?

Because true passion is the smile I give you

She doesn't give you her whole heart?

Does she?

If it was me with you, together, we'd never part

For you she'd cry...

Wouldn't she?

But you've gotta know, for you I'd die

She doesn't watch you from afar

Does she?

Because for you, I'd be your star

Her love for you may be pure

Right?

But dearest, give me your love, and for you, I'm your cure

You're like a shadow for her, her protection

But dearest, if I was yours, you'd be my full reflection

She doesn't ask much of you

Does she?

Because what I'd ask of you, is to be true

Look deep in your heart, and maybe some day you'll look my way

Won't you?

For you, I'll always stay

First tell me one thing...

Tell me, is she always true?

Because she doesn't love you the way I do...

Does she?

Goodbye...Forever...Haru...

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October 1

I never meant to hurt you Rin...Now you're gone...I wanted to thank you for this journal that you have given me. But it pains me too much to keep it forever. I yearn for you, Rin. I'm sorry I hurt you. I was just trying to make you jealous and because you're so courageous and determined, I thought you would come back for me and try and win me back. But you've changed and that's my fault. Now I can never see you again. I wrote a song for you...To tell you of why I didn't go back to you.

On a street corner I found someone who, from behind,

resembled you from those days

I chased them quickly out through the crowded street

In those days when I just assumed you would always be with me,

I still hurt you, even though you had loved me, as flawed as I am

"I won't you let you go... I don't want to"

Does it still reach you?

This feeling that remains the same as back then...?

What a fool I was,

unable to feel my own existence without hurting someone else

I won't forget that that you held my body which feared the darkness

I still remember the day we first met,

you looked only at me, your hair being blown about by a quiet wind

I thought surely I could smile, if I was with you,

who I believed I could be with more than anyone else

I've been running until today, pretending that not being with you

wasn't as painful as it is...

Since I've gone I've been worried about you, still crying but

I found you walking closeby someone I don't know and having grown up a little, you were laughing more wonderfully than ever,

don't cry ever again, don't cry and show me your smile

And no, Rin, she doesn't love me the way you do...

I love you more than you'll ever know...

In memory of Isuzu "Rin" Sohma, my first and true love...

I'll miss you dearly...

Why did you have to go?

-Love Hatsuharu Sohma