|Always and Forever
Author: CuzEdwardLikesBrunettes PM
I lay there, just thinking. About how much I love my angel, what I would do if I ever lost her. I was also awaiting the arrival of my enemy, the one who wanted to take her away from me. As always, morning couldn’t come soon enough... Pre-EclipseRated: Fiction T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 19 - Words: 20,792 - Reviews: 66 - Favs: 28 - Follows: 36 - Updated: 07-16-10 - Published: 07-25-07 - id: 3681066
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A/N: So, this story takes place after the first chapter of Eclipse. My first fanfic so any comments are welcome (I'm one of those people who actually likes critisism, so tell me what you really think). Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I don't own any of it. Everything Twilight belongs to Stephenie Meyer.
"Bella, we've already had this discussion a thousand times!" My angel's velvet voice sounded pained. Naturally, I was the one who was causing it. Again. This happened every time I brought up the subject of my change. I really had to learn to keep my mouth shut.
Of course, just the thought of Edward in any kind of pain -let alone pain that I caused -was enough to make me want to forget immortality and the entire life I'd chosen for myself. However, I decided to stay persistent. It was my only chance, and I hated it.
"I know," I sighed. "But you need to understand how badly I want this." I couldn't help but pout a little. He was just being so hard headed, and it was driving me insane.
This changed his mood yet again –much like anything I said. Now, Edward was furious. "How anyone could be so eager to be a horrific monster," he roared, "is beyond me, and…"
I cut him off. I just couldn't handle hearing him talk like that; the pain it caused me was unbearable. "You're not a monster," I told him. I'm sure that the heartache I felt at his words was evident in my eyes because his tone softened.
"Bella," he whispered, and then proceeded to kiss my forehead. "I love you and I promise to never leave you again. Isn't that enough?" I sighed and looked into his beautiful eyes. No, it's not, but I won't tell you that, I thought.
"But this is what I want," I whined. I knew for a fact I was starting to sound like a two-year-old, but it didn't really matter to me anymore. He was going to change me one way or another.
My angel's reply was simple but harsh. "I don't really care anymore." I narrowed my eyes at him in a glare that could compete with Rosalie, if the look on his face was any indication.
Then, an idea began to form. I got up from my place next to him on my bed and stormed across the room toward the door. His face softened slightly. Well, at least it had the desired effect.
"Bella, where are you going?"
"You remember what Carlisle said, right?" Edward nodded, but looked slightly confused. Of course, he remembered. Stupid perfect vampire memory.
"Well, graduation was a week ago, and if you won't change me I'm going to find someone who will. And to be honest with you, I'd prefer it was a Cullen," I explained, a little smugly. His angel's face turned thoughtful. What I wouldn't give to be able to read hismind.
"But what if I would do it?" He was starting to get excited. I could tell by the way his topaz eyes lit up.
"What?!" I couldn't believe it. Just minutes ago Edward was arguing with me about why I shouldn't want to be a vampire, and now he was willing to change me himself. Did he hit his head when I wasn't watching?
"I'll change you," he stated. "That is, it you do something for me first."
"Anything," I answered automatically, and I immediately regretted answering without thought. Though, I suppose it didn't matter either way; I always did what ever he asked.
He smiled my favorite crooked smile, and was in front of me, down on one knee, before I could blink. "Isabella Swan," he said, looking in to my eyes –all the while his own smoldering, "I love you with all my heart and want to spend eternity with you. I know I've asked you this before and that your answer wasn't what I'd hoped it would be. I'm trying again. Bella, will you marry me?"
I had tears streaming down my face –both from happiness and frustration. By then, all traces of a smile had vanished from Edward's face and were replaced by worry and concern."Bella, honey, what is it?" He stood, wrapped his arms around me, and held me to him. "It's okay. Just tell me what's wrong."
"When I said no last time, it wasn't because I didn't want to marry you," I mumbled against his chest. "It was because I know what it would do to Charlie and Renee. I just couldn't do that to them. Especially, since I'll have to stay away from them for so long after I'm a vampire. I mean, I'm going to go to college in Alaska for heaven's sake. I don't need them mad at me on top of all of that."
"Believe me, Charlie and Renee will be more than happy about this," my angel reassured me. He gently lifted my chin with a cool finger so I was looking at him.
"How do you know?" I was still crying and tried to brush away my tears only to have them be replaced by more.
Edward smiled slightly. "You seem to be forgetting that I have a sister with the ability to see the future," he reminded me.
"You're sure?" I knew I could trust him even after all we had been through. I think I always will, too, not matter what we have to face in the future. However, when it's one o'clock in the morning –and the love of you life just proposed to you- you tend to forget things like that.
"Yes, Bella, I'm sure," he told me and kissed the tip of my nose. "So what do you say, love? Do you wan to spend the rest of your life –and non-life for that matter –with me?"
"More than anything."
"Good." With that he slipped the most beautiful ring I've ever seen on my finger; a heart-cut diamond with a small topaz and onyx on either side of it, all set in white gold. That's about when the tear started again.
"What is it now?" Edward was worried again.
"No, these are happy tears," I explained. At that, he laughed and rushed the tears away with his thumbs. Then, he carefully lifted me into his arms bridal-style. He placed me in my bed under the quilt and then lay down next to me. I snuggled close to him.
"Good night, Bella. We have to tell everyone that you're no longer Miss Swan tomorrow, and you'll need energy to do it."
I realized then that I was very tired. "'Kay," I replied, already half-unconscious. "Love you."
"I love you, too, Mrs. Cullen." I smiled at that and soon drifted to sleep in my angel's arms.