What Once Was Lost

Summary: It's been two years. All Rose wants is to be at the Doctor's side once more. She works for Torchwood and one day she finds something that gives her hope. This will have Jack Harkness' Torchwood Team in later chapters. Martha will come in as well. Reunion Fic. 10DoctorRose.

A.N: "What Once Was Lost" is the first in a Trilogy, maybe only Two. The second one will be "The Three Immortals." Featuring the adventures of The Doctor, Jack, and Rose. I'm currently working on the third chapter. It should be done tonight. Anyways, Please Review!

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The Doctor is In!

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It had been a hard two years for Rose. Although surrounded by her family and the few friends she had made, she felt alone. Always alone. She missed him so much. Her thoughts were almost constantly on him, and the time where they said goodbye always replaying in her head. Most of the time, when she wasn't at her job at Torchwood, she was alone. She took walks along the river, or sat in her room in remembrance. The Tardis key hung around her neck as it always did. Never, in the time of their separation had Rose taken it off. She was often seen clutching it in her hand and staring off into space, completely oblivious to her surroundings. Her family was worried; Mickey was worried, everyone who knew her was worried as she slowly sank deeper into depression. Not since that day in Bad Wolf Bay had she cried over her loss, although the pain of losing the only one she could ever love was still as fierce as it had been in the beginning. To this day she cursed the sudden weakness she had felt in her hands. She should've held on tighter…she could have.

She was a secretarial assistant to a theoretical Astrophysicist in Torchwood. Along with taking his calls, getting him his coffees, and doing the usual secretarial work, Rose also checked his data against the computer. She enjoyed the work, although she would have rather been examining alien artifacts. Unfortunately, she had been deemed too inexperienced. She was at her desk now, taking her break. Many others passed her, most giving her looks of sympathy, and shaking their heads. Sipping her cold coffee absently, Rose stared into space. Suddenly, a document in her in stack caught her eye. Void Research was clearly written across the top. Nothing of this sort had ever come across her desk. She had rightly assumed that it was because her history with the void. Someone trying to save her pain. She was grateful, but she would have rather seen all documents concerning the Void. Most of the page was filled with many equations that made no sense to her. Then she saw the conclusion of her employer at the bottom. Her heart quickened. Could it be? Surely not, surely there wasn't any way she could once again go into the other world, the one where her Doctor was. When she finished the reading it she felt like jumping up and shouting with joy. "…It is my firm belief that this rip in time and space has once again begun to reopen…." In her excitement, Rose failed to see the last observation. All but that one sentence blurred as tears seeped from her eyes, a mixture of joy and shock. "…however safe travel through it will not be safe for some time. "

As soon as the workday came to a close, Rose hurried home hoping that her mother and Pete had not returned from their own jobs. They hadn't. She went straight to her room and flung herself on her bed hugging her pillow to her chest. A picture of her and the Doctor held her eyes for several minutes. All her thoughts contained the Doctor. Then her excitement crashed around her. How would she ever get through! She sighed, rolling over on to her back and stared at the ceiling. How indeed.

The rest of the day, Rose formulated a plan. The next morning, she would make up an excuse to enter the walk in safe which held alien artifacts. She would steal a world hopping device, the same thing that had saved her from going into the rift. If all went well, she would leave no later than lunchtime. Even though she now had the hope that she could get through the rift, it only lifted her spirits slightly. She had lost all hope that she would ever see her Doctor again. When that had happened, she had stopped smiling, and barely ate and slept. No one truly understood her she thought, not the therapist her mother had insisted on her seeing, not her family, and not Mickey. Many of these people had lost someone, and maybe they did understand. But Rose was too stubborn to admit it. The only person who she wanted to talk to was the Doctor. Finally, her mother gave up trying with an exasperated sigh and left the room huffily. After that, no one ever bothered to try, and her spirits sank lower. She had laid her messenger bag on her bed, ready to be filled with some essentials. Money, a change of clothes and a few granola bars. She didn't expect to be on her own for long. Surely the rift opening would draw him near.

At dinner that night, Rose sat without speaking, thinking about her plan. It must be completely thought through she knew. She must not go blundering into it, like she had been originally. It wouldn't be too difficult she realized to steal the device; as she wasn't considered a threat to anyone. No one at the dinner table paid much attention to her, they were used to her hardly speaking anyway. She glanced up and looked around the table. It finally occurred to her that if she left she'd never see her family again. For of course she meant to never come back, she'd stay with the Doctor forever. But What if he didn't want her? What if he had found someone else? The taunting voice filled her mind. Try as she might to shove these thoughts away, they had come again for the millionth time. Always when her morale rose, those questions sent them crashing back down again.

Unseen but not unheard by Rose, Jackie gave Pete a pointed look and whispered, "You try to talk to her, she won't to me."

Pete nodded, and cleared his throat uncomfortably. "Rose," he began.

"Yes?" Rose looked up from her plate, feigning unawareness.

"I…uh…" Jackie poked his arm. "I mean, your mother and I are worried…about you." His gaze shifted to Jackie, in hopes that she would pick up. She glared and shook her head. He continued in a serious tone, "I know I really haven't gotten the chance to really get to know you all that much, but I care about you and want to see you happy. But it seems that the only thing that will is…the…uh…Doctor."

"I'm fine." Rose replied, rather angrily. Even with her small hope, she still hated when anyone tried to talk to her.

"No, no you're not."

"Pete, leave it alone," Rose said forcefully, staring hard at her plate, "Thank you for your concern, but just...leave it alone. What I want I can never have. I can never get back to him."

Jackie watched on and her eyes got misty. Before this she had thought that it was no big deal, Rose would eventually get over the Doctor. She had figured it was just a childish crush, and because she couldn't quite stomach her daughter falling in love with an alien, she had ignored her daughter's grief. She had wrongly assumed that Rose was just hanging on for drama's sake, and because of the stubbornness she had inherited from Jackie herself. And for that she felt terrible. She stood up and went to Rose, putting her arms around her. Rose instantly responded, laying her head on her mother's shoulder and ruptured into tears for the first time in the two years. "Oh honey, I'm sorry so so sorry. I feel terrible the way I've treated you. I suppose I was blinded by my prejudice for Martians." As Jackie said this, she laughed bitterly, while holding her daughter closer.

Pete had become silent, not sure what to say next and feeling uncomfortable. At last he couldn't stand it anymore and left mother and daughter to their moment.

"He's not from Mars mum." Rose protested, wiping her eyes and laughing a little.

"Doesn't matter anyway, if I ever get my hands on him for what he did…"

"It's ok mum, It's done and over with." As much as she would have liked to, Rose didn't tell her mother her plan. She knew that Jackie would protest and try her hardest to prevent her from going. Although she now accepted Rose going off with the Doctor, it had to be on her turf. Which was impossible.

"How about you and I go have some ice-cream., it always made you feel better when you were little. And anyway we haven't done that in a long while." Jackie said, putting her arm through Rose's.

"Yes I'd like that. Can Pete come too?" She wanted to spend as much time as possible with her family before she left.

"Sure, although I don't see why you'd want him to come."

Then, seeing Pete come back through the door, obviously hearing the whole thing, Jackie quickly went up to him and kissed him on the cheek before slipping her other through his. "I'm kidding dear."

As the threesome walked out of the flat, with Pete awkwardly trying to lock it behind them, Rose smiled broadly and fought down the pangs of homesickness that were already assailing her. She was determined to enjoy the last evening with her parents.

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AN: and that's all for now! Hope you enjoyed it. Please review! The Next chapter should be up by early next week. Just to let everyone know...there won't be a lot of dialogue until the fourth chapter. Also after that you'll see less Emo-ness. -cringes-.

Allons-y!