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My eyes widened when I saw a bouncing pixie dance over to me with her hand outstretched for me to come join her on the dance floor. I barely had formed the word 'no' when a silken voice whispered into my ear making my voice catch in my throat.

“Humor me just for tonight, please.” he whispered sending his cool breath across my cheek making my body tense with the longing it stirred in me. I nodded involuntary to the thoughts that bubbled to the surface of my mind as he whisked me into his arms making me dance the rest of the night away without one fall from me, thanks to him, my husband, who never let me go from his strong embrace.

Chapter 10:

Burning Bliss

It was nearly midnight when we finally bid farewell for the last time to our remaining wedding guests leaving only my side of the family behind which consisted of my father, Charlie, whose date had left early to go to work the night shift at the diner, and Renee, my hair brained, crazy idea, random thoughts mother and her baseball coaching husband Phil. Just three people made up my family, though they were tiny in number, they were my last human link to this world.

This was the hardest part of this day knowing that when this magical day of celebration came to an end, so would chime the end of my human life with them. I would never see my mother's face light up with laughter again or hear her ramblings about the new activity she enrolled in this time. I will never see my father's eyes crinkle up at the corners when he smiled at me whenever I entered the room. My heart broke as I kissed them goodbye for the final time telling them I loved them and that I would miss them when I'm gone. To them though, I was only set to go on my honeymoon and would be back in a few weeks time from our so called “trip” to Europe. As their headlights traveled away from me, my thoughts raced and tears tore through me bringing me to my knees in the driveway as the reality finally sunk in that the life I had chosen was one which did not have them in it.

“Bella” my sweet voice of salvation whispered from behind me, taking me in his marble arms as my body shook with sobs. I turned to him nestling my head under his chin breathing in his intoxicating scent that eased my senses the more I breathed it in. This is why I made this choice, I needed him like my lungs needed air. Edward pulled me to his lap from the damp earth cradling me in his arms as he whispered soothing words into my ear, rocking us slowly back and forth with the warm summer wind that had started to pick up.

He leaned down and pressed his chilled lips to my cheek stopping the salty tears in their path. “I love you” he whispered against them leaving light kisses in their wake.

There was so many things that I didn't know at the moment like whether time really did heal all wounds and with time being endless for me now then how long would this grief like heartache take to overcome? My mind pondered before I gave him my reply.

“I know.” I sighed, that I did know, but I couldn't help the next words from spilling out as my mind strayed to one of the main thoughts that had been plaguing me for a very long time.

“Tell me you want me to be a vampire Edward, please, I need to hear you say it out loud.” I said softly wrapping my arms around his neck, hugging him to me. He lifted my chin to his face, placing his forehead to mine and took in a jagged breath, closing his eyes. When he released his held breath it sent a shiver through me making my head swoon slightly with its effect. He opened his eyes slowly and looked at me profoundly from under his long lashes. His eyes burned with love and want, and I had my answer even without him having to say it, but I needed it, I needed him to say the words to make it final.

“I want nothing more in this world then for you to walk the earth by my side as my equal, a vampire. I have fought with that thought, with my selfishness, with the inevitable truth that you are meant to be in this world here with me like this. I can't fight it anymore not when in the end choice was made in the stars. The Volturi's demand gave me everything that I needed to push me to follow what I truly wanted all along.”

“Edward”

“No matter how hard I tried to deny it, I...”

“Edward!” I said a little louder making him stop in his words.

“Thank you” I said in relief causing him to raise an eyebrow at me “Now that you've stopped what I'm sure was a well prepared speech, I would really, really like for you to kiss me now.” With that he let his crooked grin slide into place as he bent his head down to kiss me. I felt the ground slowly disappear below me and knew right away where he was taking me.

Our kisses grew more passionate with every step he took. When my lips were free for a breath I managed to mumble out the fact that he was a vampire and right away I felt the whoosh of air as he chuckled against my lips. Within a flash of a second I felt the warmth of his room as he placed me down on my feet. “It's warm in here” I mentioned as he gave me a chaste kiss before stepping back to let me take in his golden, our golden bedroom. I gasped as my gaze fell upon all the flowers, some in vases, some scattered about everywhere. The bed was covered in petals and there were candles adorning every open surface making the room glow even brighter with their golden light. “Edward it's...” I blushed completely at a loss for words as my mind thought back to the night of the bubble bath. “I love it” I said as I took it all in as he came up behind me and wrapped his arms around me.

“Alice thought that a heating blanket would help” he said softly caressing my ear with his smooth lips. My knees went slightly weak at his teasing gesture and I couldn't help the smile that crept up onto my now crimson cheeks.

“Remind me to thank her.” I said turning in his arms to look into his now smoldering topaz eyes.

“Oh she knows” he said in a playful tone has he crashed his lips back to mine. We both pulled back breathing heavily as I pulled at his tux jacket dropping it to the floor. He laughed at my eagerness as he instructed me to turn around so I could get out of this trap of a wedding gown. I loved my dress, but the corset I could have done without.

A few minutes later I was still standing there with my back to him, doing something that should have taken him seconds.

“Why did Alice have to make this dress so complicated to get you out of?” Edward growled followed by cursing her under his breath.

“To make sure we take it slow apparently.” I said fighting to take off the ruffled underskirt.

“Can I just rip it off you?” Edward hissed through his clenched jaw now fighting with the binding corset strings once he had won the battle with the small buttons that ran down my back.

“And have to deal with Alice's wrath for the rest of eternity, no thank you.” I almost screamed with panic at his idea. An angry little pixie can sure start a hell fire when provoked if need be and I for one did not want to be even half the cause of it.

I could feel his fingers trembling as he slowly began to set my body free from it's binding. As I shook out my hair from its pinnings letting the loose curls fall down my nearly bare back. A shiver went up my spine as Edward's icy lips began kissing the newly exposed skin that he unveiled with each tug of the corset's ribbon. My body was full of nerves which was already making it very hard to breathe, never mind the aching feeling that each touch of his lips sprung upon me. I soon felt the dress loosen from my body as one of his cold hands slid its way along my bare rib cage, while the other pulled the gown off my arms.

My heart was pounding so loud that it made Eward chuckle against my skin when his kisses found the pulse in my neck. I was finding it harder and harder to breathe as I felt the passion in his touch. I needed air or I was sure I was going to faint at any moment.

“Edward”

“Yes, love” he whispered into my ear with his cool breath.

“Nothing” I panted before I turned to capture his lips in mine.

His lips never left my skin as he slowly carried me over to our bed, laying me down on the already warm blankets. He cupped my face between his marble hands bring his eyes to mine instantly taking my breath away with the full force of the fiery passion glowing within them.

I felt my head fog over then quickly reminded myself to breathe before he could get the words out, making him let out a choked back laugh as he leaned in brushing his lips softly against mine. I sighed when he pulled them away taking them on their favorite path along my jaw to the hollow behind my ear then straight on down my neck. I ran my fingers through his hair as my body tingled in the wake of his lips.

Edward's hands gently caressed my sides as I slid my hands to his chest quickly pulling the buttons out of the holes of his shirt, finally setting his chiseled torso free from its cover. I let my hands glide along the contours of his skin making him take in more and more haggard breaths as my nervous fingers brushed under the waistband of his pants.

“You're driving me crazy, Bella” he purred into my ear making me smile with a triumphant smirk.

He brought his golden pools to mine once again cradling my cheek in one hand while the other stroked back my hair. “I love you my wife, my forever, Love, please...please promise me now that if I hurt you in any way you will tell me at once.” Edward's voice was soft with breathless pleading as his eyes bore into mine. I raised my hand to his own pale cheek brushing my thumb across his cool jawline and gave him a reassuring smile before giving him a lingering kiss to the lips.

“Promise me” he whispered as I pulled away looking back up at him. He took up my hand in his bringing my wrist to his nose inhaling it deeply, closing his eyes briefly as he did so. I waited until his eyes fluttered back open locking back on to my own. “Promise” I whispered back, making my favorite crooked smile light up his face, the anticipation dancing in his eyes mirrored my own.

Edward crushed his lips to mine parting them slightly causing me fight to keep my own control to not fill the small space with my tongue. He seemed to sense what I was thinking and quickly darted his own out tasting my bottom lip before pulling away.

It wasn't long before we had removed every bit of clothing from our longing bodies letting our lips and eyes take in the uncharted areas of them. We took things as slowly as we could without rushing the moment until we couldn't bear the space between us anymore. He let out his intoxicating breath making my head dizzy as he gave me one last cautious look while murmuring words of love between small kisses. My heart skipped erratically in place sending burning passion pulsating through out my body as he slowly and gently lowered himself to me. Our eyes were like magnets lost in a spellbound trance as I felt his cold firmness push through my heated gates combining our very beings into one. I winced a little biting my lip and his eyes went wide with fear as he froze his movement.

“I'm fine” I mumbled pulling his lips back to mine before he could protest. I felt the muscles in his back relax at once as he picked up a slow rhythmic pace, my body naturally molded to his matching his every move .

I let him lead the way, which was something we had talked about to help prevent me from getting hurt in any way, leaving me helpless beneath his stone carved body hovering just inches from my own. I could tell he was straining to control himself as I slid my leg around him hoping he wouldn't pull away from my actions but instead he leaned into me more making me gasp his name bringing a smile to his lips. “You will be the death of me yet” he moaned into my ear making me suppress the giggles that bubbled to my lips into his neck as I kissed it.

Our moans of satisfaction echoed off the walls as hot sweat began to glisten across my over heated skin making it turn into a misty steam against his chilled body that twisted our overpowering scents into a dizzying haze around us. My mind felt like I was detached from my body swimming around in the intensified essence of our combined bodies. I pulled away gasping from his smooth lips and looked up watching his angelic face. His eyebrows knitted together as he pulled his eyes closed tighter biting at his lip so hard that I was waiting for him to break the skin. He let out jagged breaths through his noses as rumbles of deep pleasured growls escaped from his lips clearly fighting with himself internally. I ran my fingers though his already untidy hair feeling the dampness from the moisture in the air that gave his body the sheen of moisture that it could no long naturally produce as a vampire.

Edward's eyes slowly opened at my touch and a coy smile spread across his lips as his gaze read mine realizing that I was watching him. Even with all the heat rushing through my body I could feel my cheeks blush in embarrassment at being caught. He chuckled softly as his lips pressed to my forehead trailing down to place a playful kiss to the tip of my nose. “You, my wife, are undeniably the most glorious beauty that I have laid eyes on” he purred out between each kiss of my lips.

“So are you” was all my mind could form as he lips lightly feathered down my neck, moving lower to encompass my soft breast between them. My breathing caught as I rolled my eyes to the ceiling feeling my body quiver from the feeling of his frosted tongue dancing along my heaving plains. That's when I saw it, a blue spark jumped quickly through the air like lighting in the sky. I closed my eyes not believing what I had just seen, but I could feel it building in the air. I was afraid of what that could bring, as the words “chemically combust” rang through my mind.

I swallowed hard trying to find my voice which he was rendering impossible at the moment

“Edward” I panted out in half a breath, causing him to respond by answering with our bodies instead.

His hands slide down my sides grabbing my hips and pulling them fully into his, quickening the pace. My thoughts went blank as his lips slammed urgently into mine leaving me to fight for air as I tried not to deepen the kisses more. I wound one hand into his hair welding him to me while my left hand rested on his heaving upper chest.

“Bella” Edward's silky voice purred through trembling lips. Our bodies were completely in sync with each other, we were one as our bodies began to shudder with building passion and our moans sang together in the crackling air. Our breathing become more shallow and harder to grasp as our eyes stayed locked together lost in the emotions of them. I could feel an electric current start surging throughout my body of pure and utter bliss as our muscles began to tighten begging for release. Edward's hand shot out clutching the bed frame for support as the ecstasy rose to its breaking point stopping just before its peak.

Edward's lips found mine and I heard a snap from overhead followed by a clanking noise across the room as our bodies began to quake finally giving into the burning passion within us. I felt the electric charge jolt between us tingling the hairs on my body as a white flash shot across my eyelids just as we fell over the edge of fulfillment. Edward gasped in a mixture of pleasurable pain and my eyes shot open at once. The lingering passion I felt quickly transformed into fear as I took in Edward gripping at his chest where my hand had just been.

“Edward are you okay?” I could hear the panic even in my own voice. He gently rolled off of me on to his side still clutching his chest with a pained look on his face. His breathing was still heavy as he groaned in agony. His face looked feverish with the built up mist dewing on his cool skin. I reached out my hand to touch him but he moved out of my reach before I made contact.

I opened my mouth to speak but his raspy voice stopped me “Don't touch me” he winced rubbing his chest now “just yet, love” I fought with my traitor tears confused by his words, not knowing if I should be hurt by them or not so I just stared at him letting my heart rate slow back to its regular beat.

“Are you hurt?” I finally whispered tentatively after several long seconds which felt more like hours in the silence.

“You...we...my heart” He stuttered out, making no sense to me with his mumble of words.

“Your heart...” I said trying to get him to elaborate more.

“It jumped” Edward said in pure amazement in his voice with the shock of it all written on his flawless face.

“What!” I screamed out in my own shock mixed with utter disbelief.

Edward nodded cuddling himself to me like a child, nuzzling my neck for comfort.

“I don't know how to explain it.” his voice was calmer now as he spook “That flash it was like a shock wave through me”

We sat quietly holding each other for a few minutes, both pondering for an explanation for the phenomenon that just occurred until an idea hit me.

“Like...like the revival paddles at the hospital” I blurted out, that being the only thing I could compare this to.

He looked at me with curious eyes thinking over my conclusion “That sounds right to me. The energy built up released at the peak of it all causing a highly overpowered jolt of electricity to jump from your hot hand to my cold chest, hence making my heart jump with the voltage.” He shrugged as he sat up to look at me. “That was the best and worst feeling in the world all mixed into one.” He smiled as his lips kissed my chest above my own beating heart making it falter in its pace as he did so.

Edward brought his face to mine searching my eyes with a bright smile forming on his face “You're glowing” he said in awe, tucking my sweaty hair behind my ear, causing me to blush. He lightly brushed his lips to mine and rolled me on top of him. I noticed then that his skin didn't feel nearly as cold as it did normally due to the fact that like real stone his skin absorbed the heat around it making it so I could stay like this with him all night, our naked forms tangled together in the heated sheets.

I sighed basking in the feel of our bare bodies pressed closely against each other completely content in our own little heaven. A heaven that never had to end.

His hand rubbed my back absentmindedly as I rested against his chest listening to his breath come and go from his lungs enjoying the silent moment of the afterglow of our lovemaking letting my eyes wander around the dimly lit room not really taking in anything they saw until suddenly they fell upon something that wasn't there before.

“Mr. Cullen” I said in mock shock.

“Yes Mrs. Cullen” he replied with a laugh pulling at the corners of his mouth.

“Are my eyes deceiving me or does that happen to be a part of our lovely headboard in the corner.” I giggled pointing it out “Which must mean that a certain someone is going to be in trouble for breaking it.” I teased now looking up at him with my eyebrows raised and a grin on my face.

His musical laugh spilled out from his pursed lips turning into a wicked smirk “And I will do it again in a heartbeat” he joked making my resolve melt as I joined his laughter.

“Come here you” he said between breaths pulling me up to met his lips effectively stopping both our giddiness. The kiss was all too short for my liking as we pulled away from each other resting our foreheads together with our noses touching.

He lovingly ran his long fingers through my knotted hair making me close my eyes in pleasure at the feel of them. I felt his cold breath tickle my lips before he lightly touched them with his own making me smile beneath them. The small gestures such as these simple as they are let's me know how deeply and truly he loved me and reminded me of how lucky I am to have found my soul mate in him.

“Now it's time for you to sleep my heart awakening angel” he whispered kissing me lightly again.

“I'm not tired.” I protested fighting with the sudden urge to yawn.

“But I am” he said letting out a deep sombre breath, turning his face from mine to reach for the blanket that had been discarded.

“Oh no you don't.” I said pushing myself up with my arm showing my objective “You can't play that man card on me. It only works when the man can actually sleep.”

He rolled his eyes at me and sighed pulling me back to him. “Bella right now I would give anything to fall asleep with you just this once when it is your last night of sleep. But like you pointed out that is not a possibility. So please my love sleep and dream one last dream for me tonight. Just two hours at least. I promise that we will make love one last time before...before the time comes for me to turn you at dawn and you become no longer human.” With that said he kissed the top of my head.

His words were a double edged sword at first his voice was lovingly pleading then at the end it lowered with a twinge of sorrow. I didn't want to let his mind talk itself out of it with his over thinking so I tried to shift his mood. “But just think then we wouldn't have to stop the lovemaking after it is complete and I am finally your equal. We could go for hours...” I said in what I hoped to be a seductive tone slowly trailing kisses along his chest as I spoke. “days...” I added as I slid my hand down along him feeling his cold granite stiffen under my warm touch. My cheeks burned crimson from not only my own actions but the reaction I was getting from him. “weeks...” I murmured into his ear as I nibbled it then blew my breath against it making him tremble from head to toe as a whimper tore from his pale lips.

“Bella...”

“Yes” I answered trying not to burst into embarrassed giggles while I continued to kiss his neck stopping to suck on it as hard as I could against his marble skin.

“You have to...stop” he swallowed hard trying to get the words out between his jagged breaths “...It's taking every ounce that I have left of myself control to not give in right now. You're being far to dangerously tempting at the moment” he purred swiftly flipping our positions so that he was the one on top of me somehow intertwining my wandering hand with his so that both my arms were now locked in his free hand above my head while his other danced lightly over my stomach making me let out my giggles.

“I almost had you.” I playfully pouted giving him the face Alice uses to get her way. His eyebrow arched up at my puppy dog face “You're not allowed to play that card” he challenged using what I said before against me now.

“But I almost had you” I repeated still pouting.

“Yes, but almost doesn't count.” he retorted inches from my lips before taking them fully. I pulled against his grip wanting more than anything to tangle my fingers in his hair, but his hold stayed firm as we kissed. He pulled away seconds later letting my body take in much needed air with a sly smirk on his face “and I'll make it count once you have rested. Now please behave.”

I nodded my silent agreement and he released me from his iron grip. I couldn't help the yawn from escaping this time as he repositioned us to our earlier position of me resting on his cooling chest which felt prickly now against my still warm skin. It wasn't long before the soft hum of my lullaby sang me off to a peaceful sleep.

I was awoken a little while later by the feel of cold lips kissing and ever so lightly suckling at my bare chest making a soft moan of pleasure fall from my groggy lips. I felt his mouth smile as he placed one last kiss upon my soft skin before bringing his smoldering gaze to mine.

“What time is it?” I mumbled out in my haze.

“Shhhh...” he hushed placing his pale finger against my lips. I looked up into his eyes and realised they were full of savage lust, they seemed more animistic than loving and made my stomach clench with unease. But before I could even take a breath to question what was going on, his lips were on mine kissing me feverishly in an uncontrolled frenzy of lust, driving all rational thought out of my head. I was lost in his touch as his hands roamed over my body like my own were doing to him. Edward pulled his lips from mine allowing me to take in air as my heart rate sky rocketed from the sudden overdrive of blood flow.

His nose glided along my neck and I could feel him taking in deep breaths of my skin “Hmmmmm” he purred.

“Bella...” his voice was barely above a whisper as he spoke out my name “I'm sorry...I...I have to stop”

Then he was gone, leaving me lying in our bed bewildered by his actions and hurt by them as well. I felt the tears build up in my eyes as I slowly sat up reaching for the silk sheet to cover myself and got out of bed. I picked up the shirt he had been wearing and noted that he had taken his pants with him when he left. I walked about the room picking up some of the scattered clothes to try and keep my mind in check. He wasn't leaving me. He just needed some space that's all. I repeated to myself as I put everything into the hamper in the bathroom.

I decided that I might as well take a shower while I was in there since I wouldn't be in any shape to take one for the next three days. I let my thoughts think back over the last hours that passed and pushed the nagging thoughts of rejection away. We were married now he would never leave me like he did before. I knew it even though there was that lingering doubt the crept out in times like this. I was so lost in thought that I let out a echoing scream when I felt two arms wrap around me from behind.

“Sorry” he cringed as I spun around to face him.

“You almost gave me a heart attack!” I seethed letting my anger boil up within me.

“You almost made me deaf with your scream so I think we are even.” He fired back sticking his finger in his ear like it was clogged. I couldn't help but burst out in laugher at his face, I could never be fully mad at him.

“Why did you run away?” I asked meekly looking up at him as the hot water beat on my back.

“I'm sorry love, I truly am. I couldn't trust myself in that moment. I wanted you far too much and I didn't want to hurt you because of it. So I needed to clear my senses so I went outside to get some fresh air.”

He lifted my chin up to his and brushed his lips along mine and stepped away from me turning us so he was now under the steaming water.

“Isn't it funny how not to long ago we were both hiding ourselves from seeing each other this way and now here we are completely at ease with being naked standing in a shower together.” Edward said offhandedly as I washed his back which I was glad was facing me because I was blushing uncontrollably the whole time.

I didn't know what to say to that exactly so I just mumbled out a sound of agreement.

He kept talking which is something that I think he was doing to distract himself from letting his body take over this thoughts. “I have to admit that it was you who subconsciously got me all worked up before.”

My eyes widened at his words as flickers of my half-remembered dream flashed before my eyes.

“You kept moaning my name and you wouldn't keep still.”

I gulped as the warmth rose turning my already blushing face even deeper in color.

“It was a really good dream I take it.” He said as he turned to face me and ran his fingers along my blazing cheeks. I nodded again not able to look him square in the eye at that moment. The sight of Edward's bright smile made me smile. “I'm happy that the last dream you had was of the both us... let's just say enjoying ourselves. After all I did ask you to dream for me and I am sure that that was what I would have dreamed about also.” He snickered dipping his head down to kiss me tenderly.

We finished our shower and snuggled up on the couch watching the lighting dance across the water in the distance as the rain made trails down the large window waiting for our family to return. Edward played with my hair as I twirled my wedding ring around my finger admiring it for the millionth time that night.

“Edward”

“Hmmm”

“I've been thinking for a while now about what will take place and how my change into a vampire will happen and as you know I want you to be the one to do it.” He nodded while his eyes studied my features trying to read where my thoughts were going to take me as I gazed back at him lifting my chin to rest on his chest.

I cleared my throat in an attempt to get my voice to stop shaking with the nerves I was feeling at what his reaction would be to what I was about to ask. “Well I was wondering seeing as you are just as qualified as Carlisle in the medical field and all that, maybe you could be the one who gives me the morphine instead.” I bit at my lip as I watched his face take in my words then a small smile came across his flawless face. “You want us to be alone don't you” he said, clear amusement coloring his words.

“If...if that's possible” I stuttered out but quickly added “The rest of the family can stay just not in the room with us unless there is going to be a problem.”

He chuckled softly and pulled me up so I was even with his face and kissed me lightly on the lips making me relax. “To be honest I have been thinking the same thing.” His eyes sparkled in the dim light and I could tell he wanted it to be a private moment between us as well.

“I also had time to think while you slumbered that I wanted the bite to be in a place that only my lips have caressed, a lover's kiss if you will.” Edward lithely stood up with me in his arms and walked over to the bed lying me down and began trailing kisses along my stomach.

“A lover's kiss?” I questioned playfully squirming around from his cold lips dancing along my skin.

His breath tickled has he let out an impish laugh running his hands up my sides pulling down the strap to the white tank top Rosalie gave me to sleep in with the word bride in pink lettering across it with matching shorts. Edward had just started kissing along my collarbone following the course the strap had exposed when the door burst open making the both of us jump in surprise.

“HEY SPARKY!” Emmett yelled followed by a hiss from Rose as she smacked him in the back of the head scolding him as she pulled him out of the room mouthing sorry to me over his shoulder. Edward let out a deep growl of frustration as my face turned deep scarlet.

As soon as the door clicked shut I burst out laughing causing Edward to give in and laugh along with me. “Yes it's safe to come in Alice.” Edward said his laugher subsiding as he rolled off me and let me sit up. Alice stuck her head in the room with her eyes covered making the three of us laugh at her actions. She dropped her hand and ran at human speed jumping onto the bed next to me with a bright smile still on her face.

“See I told you it would all work out” she winked patting my leg.

“If you two would excuse me I must talk to Carlisle” Edward sighed kissing the top of my head before leaving me alone in the room with a pixie who looked like she was ready to burst with questions.

“Sooo...” she began bopping her thin brows up and down with a knowing grin on her face.

“Sooo... you can see the future so there is nothing to tell because you know it already which is embarrassing enough knowing you...oh you know what I'm getting at.” I blushed.

Alice giggled at my comment “Well just bits of it, thank goddess, but it was enough to see the sparks fly. After I saw what happened I was shocked.” She emphasized the last word letting her wind chime laugh fill the air as I buried my face in the pillow to hide my bashfulness, groaning with humiliation.

Edward's velvety voice coming up the stairs coxed me out of hiding as he entered the room with Carlisle who had his medical bag in hand saving me from anymore questions that I'm sure she was screaming at Edward to answer. The glare he shot her as he sat beside me only proved my point as she made a pout face at him. He chuckled at her and playfully messed her spiky hair making her shriek and run to the bathroom to fix it.

“Kids” Carlisle muttered under his breath shaking his head at them. I giggled behind my hand but stopped the moment I saw the needle my sudden gulp didn't go unnoticed as Edward's eyes flickered to mine with concern instantly taking my hand in his to comfort me.

“Are you ready for this Bella?” Carlisle asked also concerned.

My stomach was flipping wildly with nervousness and I suddenly had the urge to run in fear. I looked deep into Edward's eyes and saw my own feelings reflected in them.

“They're scared.” Came a soft voice from the doorway making Edward and I look up to Jasper leaning against it with his arms crossed over his chest. “Maybe we should give them some space to talk” Carlisle stated as he ushered Jasper out into the hall closing the bedroom door behind them.

Edward's gaze fell back to mine as I bit at my lip with worry of what he was about to say.

“Have you changed your mind?” He asked unsure.

I shook my head “Have...have you?” I questioned back.

“If this is what must be done for us to be together then what choice is left?” He said softly stroking my cheek with the back of his cool fingers. “I can't bear the thought of not having you by my side again not after making you my wife.” He leaned forward gently kissing my forehead.

“But will you still want me...” I blurted out my biggest fear “...when I'm not all blushing and falling all the time?”

Edward took my face in his hands and let out a light laugh “Haven't I proven and said time and time again that I love you and that my love for you runs deeper than anything else in the world?”

“Yes but it's still nice to hear it all the same.” I said sheepishly with a small smile now on my lips.

“Again you never fail to amaze me, love, of all the things to worry about at this moment it is that. Not the fact that I could lose complete control with my blood lust for you and...and end your life completely.” He turned his face from me looking distraught.

“I trust you and I have faith in you because we love each other.” I said as I grabbed his chin to make him look at me. “You and I did what was supposed to be impossible tonight.” I smirked pulling his lips to mine for a quick kiss “You can't doubt yourself control now.”

“No I guess I can't.” He chuckled kissing me again except this time letting it linger before he pulled back with his crooked smile dazzling his face.

“I love you Isabella”

“I know. Are we ready?” I asked.

He nodded as Alice came dancing into the room followed by the rest of the family.

“Alice” Edward said in a questionable tone looking up to her as she took on the far away look I knew all too well was a vision. After a few moments her eyes slowly blinked bringing the beautiful statue to life as she smiled brightly at the both of us and I knew from her expression that everything will work out okay.

Edward looked like a weight had been lifted from his shoulders as he kissed my cheek and stood up with me so I could talk to the family. Emmett was the first to approach wrapping me up in his big bear hug. “Emmett air.” I choked out making his booming laugh fill the air as he set me down on the floor. I felt a little light headed but laughed all the same. “I'm not going to miss that part of your hugs.” I said playfully looking up at him. “I hope you'll still be just has funny after.” He joked.

“Don't worry with my luck being a super klutz will be my special power. OH look out enemies of the world beware I might fall flat on my face and make you laugh your head off.” I giggled with sarcasm as Rose rolled her eyes at him because his expression looked like a kid in a candy store.

“That would be awesome.” He said clearly picturing it all in his head.

“Jazz a little help here.” Rosalie said gesturing to her big kid of a husband as Jasper stepped towards him. “Bella..” Jasper nodded to me sending an air of calm through out the room. I mouthed thank you to him as he led a protesting Emmett out of the room.

Esme hugged me next and assured me that they will do everything they can to make the process go as comfortably as possible and that she was so happy to have me a part of their family as one of her daughters. She gave Edward a disapproving look when she noticed the broken head board and shook her finger at him making him look away from her in embarrassment as a grin played on her motherly features before she enveloped him in a hug as well. I tore my eyes from them and scanned the room looking for the one person I knew this was going to be the hardest on.

“Rose” I said softly walking over to her form that was silhouetted in the window as she looked out into the vast backyard. She didn't turn to look at me keeping her arms crossed across her chest but nodded slightly in response. I stood silent next to her following her gaze out the window.

“You really are going through with this aren't you?” She said now looking at me with a calculated gaze.

Now it was my turn to nod. “Well then I guess there is nothing left to say.” She sighed in defeat. I felt the tears burn the back of my eyes and I fought to keep them in but her sudden hug opened the flood gates. I knew that she had been silently expecting my decision in her own way. It was too hard for her to say the words to me even though she has opened up to me since Edward and I got engaged and was happy to have me as a part of her family but all the same she had her own demons so to speak to deal with when it came to my change.

I was surprised even more when she wiped my tears away giving me a rare warm smile before she too

left the room.

Alice bounced over to me with her excitement clearly radiating off her making a smile appear on my tear stained face at seeing her own bright smile. “Oh Bella I told you this day would come and it's astonishing to see it all play out for real for a change” she beamed hugging me. “I will be by your side as soon as Edward gives the all clear.” She added quickly kissing my cheek and hugging Edward before she followed everyone else out of the room leaving just Carlisle and Edward behind staring at me.

“Bella” Carlisle began as I took my place on the bed leaning against the non broken half of the head broad. “You remember everything we went over the other night.”

“Yes” I said playing it over in my head. He had told me that the morphine wouldn't take away all the pain but it would dull it but how much or for how long he wasn't sure. He also spoke about the idea of more than one bite place that it may help the process and the venom spread faster to my heart so hopefully it would help with the change time table. But nothing was for sure and it was a wait and see game we were playing.

I took in a jagged breath feeling the uneasiness wash over me as I remember the fire I had once felt engulf my body in the ballet studio. 'I can get through this as long as Edward's with me.' My mind reassured itself. I kept my hands in my lap trying to keep them from shaking but it was no use it was now or never. I took a deep breath and gave Carlisle a small smile as he exited the room after patting Edward on the back.

Edward crawled onto the bed and laid next to me with his head resting on my chest listening to my fluttering heartbeat beneath his ear. He pulled me to him and hugged me as tightly as he could without breaking me and just stayed there without making a sound for an immeasurable amount of time. I felt myself relax in his arms, not wanting to speak in the thick silence while my eyes started to feel heavy with sleep. It took me a few moments to realize that Edward had injected the morphine into my arm when he sat up to place the used needle on the nightstand.

“Ouch” I said playfully rubbing my arm making him chuckle lightly as he brushed a stray hair behind my ear that fell out from my lose ponytail.

“God I love you my wife.” He whispered leaning in so his intoxicating breath fanned across my face adding to the fog that was pulling at my mind. “Forgive me please.” He pleaded searching my eyes with his golden orbs. I knew what he wanted forgiveness for, it was to put his mind at ease for taking my soul away and just in the chance that he couldn't stop the feeding frenzy which would completely take away my life .

“You are forgiven my husband.” I whispered before his lips found mine. He kissed me until my lungs were begging for air and rested his head against mine with his eyes closed. “I love you.” I said brushing my fingers along his jawline.

He swallowed hard and licked his lips and I knew that he was internally crying and this moment was tearing him up inside. “I...I...don't know if I can stand seeing you in that much pain.” Edward's broken voice said softly now opening his eyes. “But I promise not to leave your side.” I smiled up at him and pulled him to my lips once again kissing him hard on the lips making a moan escape from deep within his throat. The morphine was making it harder to function as it raced faster through my blood stream thanks to his kisses raising my heart rate and I knew it was time.

Edward's lips left mine and trailed along my neck and stopped just above my bust line. My hands felt heavy as I tried to run them through his silken hair but he pulled away only to start his trail of cold kisses along my abdomen. I felt his chilled tongue dance along my skin as his lips moved closer to their destination and I couldn't help the moans from leaving my own lips as my desire to be one with him grew again with his every touch. I knew he felt the same and was fighting it like I was. It was not the time for that now but we would have all the time in the world soon enough.

He hitched my tank top up revealing my heaving breasts as he took the one above my heart into his mouth and kissed it deeply. I moaned out his name and then fought back the scream of pain, tears sliding down my cheeks as his razor sharp teeth pierced my skin. He lifted me up more so I was cradled in his arms as he drank from me, my heartbeat pounded in my ears and I felt myself get even weaker within them.

It felt like forever until his lips broke free from their hold on me and he gently laid me back down as the fire began to burn beneath my skin and throughout my veins. He pulled back down my shirt and refused to look at me and even in my drowsy state I could tell he was disgusted with himself. I tried not to give in to the urge to scream out in pain or to cry but my body over took my mind as I clutched the bedspread. Edward didn't say a word as he nuzzled my neck kissing it tenderly before he bit down once again but this time he didn't linger long as my screams broke through the air.

I was in an out of consciousness in a feverish state as my body burned with internal fire, not sure of what time it was or what day it was into this torture. Edward kept his word and never left my side holding me close to his cold body sometimes he would lay naked beside me in hopes that his icy skin would ease some of my discomfort whenever we were alone for long periods at a time. I remember Alice fighting with him begging him to go hunting but he refused not wanting to break his promise. They told me it was the second day when I was able to find my voice to ask. By then my tears had long run dry as had the effect of the morphine injections that were given to me every so many hours. Edward told me in one of my calmer hours that it was because my body was less human now and that my transformation was almost complete.

On the eve of the third day I was awoken from my feverish sleep as a scream tore from my burning lungs as they tried to take in air beneath the crushing feeling that was swallowing me whole. My heartbeat picked up pace beating faster than it had through out the previous days banging into my ribcage as I grabbed at my chest in pain. Edward didn't move as he stayed frozen in place near the bedside where he was keeping watch holding my hand as my life slipped away forever, waiting for the moment when my heart would no longer beat and the sound of it would be lost to him forever along with my warmth that he had been holding on to and soaking in as much as he could during this time.

My tears burned my skin with their coolness as the fire smothered me and I laid gasping for air from the pressure constricting my chest. My heart fighting to live but it was too weak to go on and just like that the room went silent. The pounding in my ears was gone, my tears no longer falling as I laid there with my eyes closed as my lungs kicked back in to take in a deep breath.

My nostrils took in the sweetest smell that I had only known in its fainter form and I knew without having to open my eyes that it belonged to Edward. I could smell the scent of flowers in the room and my ears picked up every breath that was being taken at that moment in the house. I heard the light sound of the chair being pushed back as Edward laid beside me still holding my hand firmly in his. I gave it a tight squeeze as a smile slid across my face as he touched my now cool cheek with his fingertips. His touch if possible felt even softer and no longer held the chill I had become accustomed to but instead it had a slight warmth to it that I wasn't sure was from touching me before or not.

I slowly let my eyes flutter open and let them fall upon the most beautiful angel I had ever seen. His features were even more defined now and I wanted to touch him, to feel him. Edward's face had a dazzling smile as he looked down at me with his loving eyes that I could now see know had specks of maroon mixed into the swirl of black and faint topaz in them. His hair was now showing blond highlights mixed into the vibrant bronze and brown that I hadn't noticed before with my human eyes. I lifted my hand to his face taking his smooth and now soft cheek into my palm as he nuzzled it affectionately before I trailed it over the plains of his features memorizing them once again. He closed his lavender lids as my fingertips glided along them finally finding their way to his pale parted lips.

He smiled against them opening his eyes looking longingly into mine as I smiled up at him.

“Hi” I said in a voice I knew to be my own but sounded smoother, lighter.

“Hi” He replied his voice still like sweet honey.

“Thank you.” I whispered out as I let my hand run through his hair that felt even more like real silk.

He didn't reply to my thanks but instead took me up in his arms and hugged me tightly to his body. As I hugged him back he chuckled and said “Easy love”. His voice sounded even more like beautiful music and I quickly loosened my grip on him with a shy smile on my face as I pulled away. It felt weird to not feel the heat of the blush on my cheeks which I would normally have had at a moment like this, but I knew it was one of those things that I would get used to with time and soon forget all together.

“Sorry” I apologized.

“Don't be.” He murmured now running his hands up and down my arms.

“Edward” I said biting at my lip.

“Yes love?” He said in an alluring tone with my favorite smile gracing his face.

“Kiss me.” I asked and before I could blink an eye his lips were on mine kissing me without caution for the first time as his sugary tongue found mine with unrestrained passion. Our hungry kisses grew stronger as he laid me down on our bed and made blissful love to me once again.

Now before anyone thinks to ask I do not know if this is the end or not so please don't ask. I really hope you all enjoyed this chapter seeing as it was a really hard one to write. My editor and I fought with making this perfect for you all and let me tell you she was a life saver when my mind fought for the right way to word things. SO thank you so much to her. With that being said please REVEIW!! I also have missed you all as well (smiles). If you have any questions feel free to P.M. me at anytime. Thank you all for reading!