heyy everyone (: this is my first songfic ever, and my first Ouran High School Host Club fanfiction too

plz dont be too harsh. but flames are accepted i dont mind toasting marshmallows for my usa-chan (bunny) who is called... MARSHMALLOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sorry plz dont mind my hyperness.

Kaoru might be kinda OOC here. and warning- OOC ness and angst. i think

disclaimer- blhblhblh you know all that stuff i dont bother doing it here, heheh

song- My Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne (one of my favourite songs)

Let’s talk this over, it’s not like we’re dead

Was it something I did? was it something you said

Don’t leave me hanging, in a city so dead

Held up so high, on such a breakable thread

Hikaru. That name, those memories.

We haven’t talked for so long. We’re not dead, we just... separated. Just like that.

America made me forget all about you. Nearly. Sometimes, if you share the same blood, the same looks, the same birthday, you just can’t forget about that special someone so easily.

And sometimes... I just miss you so much, my fragile thread of life might just snap off. And all because of you.

You were all the things I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

We were twins. We knew everything about each other.

We were identical, apart from those slight differences that nobody could work out.

You were everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

Can’t you remember those days in the host club?

When we performed our brotherly love act, when you said those words so lovingly.

I realized too late that it really was just an act. That’s all.

My heart ripped in two pieces.

You were everything I wanted, but we just lost everything in one moment.

All the memories so close to me just fade away

All this time you were pretending, so much for my happy ending

Memories.

You never believed in that word.

You hated it. Was our past that bad?

And then she came.

The girl who ruined my life.

Why did she have to come in anyways? What was so special about her, that you would just ditch me, leave me behind in this twisted world of pretense?

You’ve got your dumb friends, I know what they say

They tell you I’m difficult, but so are they

But they don’t know me, do they even know you?

All the things you hide from me, all the shit that you do

Fujioka Haruhi.

It was all because of her, all because she joined the Host Club.

I wanted you to become independent, I wanted you to make more friends.

To step out of our world into the outside world, the other dimension.

But you weren’t cautious. You just ran out of the gates without waiting for me.

You never turned back. You forgot I was there.

It’s nice to know that you were there

Thanks for acting like you cared

And making me feel like I was the only one

It’s nice to know we had it all

Thanks for watching as I fall

And letting me know we were done

Thanks a lot, Hikaru.

Thanks for pretending to care when we did our acts.

Thanks for making me feel like your special little brother.

Thanks for ripping my heart just like that.

Thanks for torturing me for the rest of my life.

Thanks for everything you’ve ever done to hurt me.

He was everything, everything that I wanted

We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

All the memories so close to me just fade away

All this time you were pretending, so much for my happy ending

You were everything that I wanted. But slowly, gradually, I learnt to forget what you did to me. And all because.

I met a new girl. At first, I couldn’t believe how happy I felt when I met her.

Then I realized I had badly needed someone to fill in your space.

And she fit exactly into everything I needed.

And then I learnt to be happy without you.

I learnt to be happy for you. You and Haruhi.

The End

Plzzzzzzzzzz R&R I know how everyone says that but seriously. WITHOUT COMMENTS I MIGHT NEVER WRITE ANOTHER FANFICTION !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMg. i KNOW.

anyways yeah, my first songfic. plz be nice. flames are for marshmallow

hope you liked this, PinkberrySodaa aka Crissi xx