A/N: Set in an A/U with one massive difference which will become obvious.

Disclaimer: Don't own a thing.

Pain. Searing, burning, white hot pain. It was all he could remember now. All he could focus on. All he could feel.

And then suddenly it stopped. He looked up in to his torturers' oncefamiliar eyes and saw the war that was being waged internally. She could win. She would win. She had to win.

ONE WEEK EARLIER

"Carter!" Jack said as he strolled into the SGC's briefing room. "What in the hell was so imprortant you couldn't tell me over the phone?" He asked, pretending to be irrated but secretly grateful for the excuse to visit his old team mates.

"Sir, you better sit down." Sam replied in a grave tone.

Jack immediately knew that he was not going to like what she had to say. He sat down as Daniel, Mitchell, Vala and Landry entered the room.

Once they were all seated, Sam stood up and began to explain why she had insisted the Colonel fly in from Washington immediately.

"Two days ago, SG-14 were sent on a mission to P47-992, it's a backwater planet, out of the way of much of anything which is why it's so far escaped any Ori contact. On arrival, SG-14 found the planet to be under the control of a Goa'uld named Kheperu."

"Carter, can you just cut to the chase." Jack grumped.

"I'm getting there sir." Sam answered calmly, used to dealing with his impatience, "Yesterday they finally got a look at the Goa'uld in question..." She paused, unsure of how exactly to break the news.

"And...?" Jack asked, "What, it's not another Ba'al clone is it?"

"No sir." Sam replied, still with the same grave tone.

"Spit it out Carter." Jack ordered, clearly growing more impatient.

"Sir, it's Janet." She finally said, pushing a button on the remote control to reveal a surveillance picture.

Jack was on his feet in an instant, stalking angrily towards the screen to inspect it more closely.

"She's dead." He said in a whisper. "She's dead." He repeated, louder, angrily. "We saw her die! Daniel you saw her die!"

"Jack, we didn't bring back her body..." Daniel replied, clearly already having resigned himself to the truth of the matter, another member of his 'family' taken as a host.

"No!" Jack shook his head. "Not all this time. No!" He slammed his fist on the briefing table.

"Jack, we couldn't have known..." Daniel tried to comfort his friend.

"I'm going to get her." Jack said, a determined look on his face.

"I can't authorize a mission, SG-14 barely escaped with their lives, Captain Williams and Major Munroe are in the infirmary." Landry told him calmly.

"I don't care if I have to go through every single person on this base. We left her behind once already, I won't do it again. I'm going to get my wife!"