Author’s notes: I’m such a damn procrastinator! Seriously I left you guys at a bad part and for that I’m terribly sorry. A LOT has happened in my life since the last time I updated and I have to say that I’m very happy with myself. I am completely over my ex boyfriend Mr. Ass hat after 4 months of breaking up. I realized how bad he treated me and how much he thought he was better than me, honestly guys I’m a lot happier. So you will see me updating less because my flaw is I write when I’m depressed. But any ways in other news I have a new boyfriend…who is a lot better to me so you are probably going to see me write more lovey stuffs. I’ve been getting a lot of interesting comments from people. Like how Jade is a little young…I agree actually. I made up Jade when I was very bored one day in school and that’s just how I pictured him to be…he’s kind of like my young self a little confused about the world and about his attractions. That’s what this whole story is about, realizing who you are and what your role is. I’m not a sick pervert I’m just portraying a story of a boy who’s just figuring his new body and passions out…growing up is one thing we all need to do in life you know? If you have any other questions about the story…feel free to ask.

Disclaimer: Do not own Cirque du freak

Warnings: Guy on guy romance

Brotherly bond

Rainbowness

The blinding light made my vision impaired, the aroused crowd made my heart beat faster than it ever has, and my nervousness caused me to shake and sweat like a pig. I have never been in front of these many people in my life. The feeling inside me was new to me and I felt extremely overwhelmed.

I awoke in Darren’s arms with a damp cloth on my forehead. My head hurt badly and I felt like I just got hit by a truck. I remembered nothing from the performance. Did I do well? Did something just randomly knock me out? Did I pass out from heat exhaustion? So many questions ran through my head.

“Hmph…I knew you couldn’t handle being in front of a crowd…are you ok?” he questioned.

“Yah, I’m fine but what happened exactly?”

“Well, you got up on stage, froze for like two minutes, and just passed out. The audience didn’t mind. They just wanted to see the next act. Although, Mr. Tall isn’t happy with you.”

“Am I in trouble?!” I shouted, worried.

“No, you’re fine….he just wants you to stay away from everything,” he replied, biting on his thumbnail.

“Hmm. . . .I really wanted to have my moment o-"“OUCH DAMN!” I was interrupted by Darren screeching in pain.

“You know better than to bite yourself when you’re a vampire,” I scolded, grabbing his thumb to examine it.

The blood on his thumb looked oddly delicious to me. I stared at it for a few moments, holding myself back from licking his thumb. But it was just so tempting. My senses and hormones where going wacky. I thought I was going to pass out again from all the excitement my body was feeling.

“Jade….are you ok? You’re starting to scare me.” Darren tried to pull his thumb back. I kept it in a tight grip so he wouldn’t be able to pull away.

I slowly licked his thumb, tasting the salty goodness pouring from his veins. My whole body started to shake. I could no longer control myself….I was turning into a monster. A monster I didn’t recognize.

“Jade?” I heard Darren gasp as I pushed him onto the bed pulling him into a forceful lock.

“Look, buddy, I’ve been pushed and shoved all my life and I will not be pushed and shoved by the likes of you! It’s my turn to take control and you better cooperate or else things could get ugly,” I seethed threw my teeth.
Darren didn’t say a word as he bit his lower lip and nodded. I could feel him shaking underneath me in fear. It felt good to be in charge for once. It felt awesome to have him cower before me underneath my dirty, sweaty body.

“You wouldn’t” he whispered.

“Wouldn’t what?”

“Sure, you want power, but you're too nice to do this to me.”

I paused and pondered what he said. The truth was he was absolutely right. I had no idea what was coming over me at this moment. I heaved myself off of him and sat with my knees to my stomach.

“Hm….what was it you trying to prove before you passed out?” he questioned.

“I’d rather not talk about it….”

“Perhaps I can make you a deal. You show me and I will let you be on top,” he poked me in the side.

I jumped up with blush on my face, “You mean you will let me be seme?” I coughed.

“Yup! My body will be sold to you. It’s an unfair trade on my part but my curiosity is getting the better of me.”

“Well…I don’t know if I could be seme,” I stated nervously

“Yah, and that’s why you nearly tore of my clothes.”

“You don’t understand. I don’t know what came over me, it was like some sort of monster.”

“Yup, that’s natural. Growing from a child into a half-vampire is just messing with your hormones. I went threw the same thing a few months ago, except I didn’t have anyone to take it out on. Since you do, I’m here for you…I will do anything for you and you will do whatever for me. After all, our relationship is different from master and servant.” He explained, picking me up into his strong arms and placing in-between his legs.

“Then what would you call it?” I gasped as he touched my bare torso with his cold hands.

“Brotherly bond,” he replied, nibbling my ear.

“Brothers don’t do what we do.”

“Well then, I guess we are different. I say we are brothers because you and I are a lot alike. The only thing I would say we don’t have in common is that I’ve been loved all my life and you haven’t. I can give you that love like a brother and a lover.”

I kneeled in between his legs so we were face to face “Are you in love with me, or with my body?” I questioned.

“Can’t I love both?” he pouted “You’re very cute” he pulled me into a very warm kiss, leaving bewildered in his arms.

“Darren?” I pushed him away

“What is it?”

“I’m only twelve and I’m just afraid that I’m growing up to fast. Growing up scares me to tell you the truth and I feel like you are just pushing it. I never had much of a childhood. With my real parents I had to take care of my mom when she was drunk. At the orphanage I took care of the other kids like they were my own and I don’t know I just want to be a kid…..”

“There is no room for that in the vampire world I’m afraid…” he replied with a long sigh.

I got up and gave him the dirtiest look I could think of “Cant you just except me the way I am?!” I yelled and ran out of the tent.

I sat in the weeds and just punched the ground angrily. I was overreacting I knew it but this whole situation just made me want to run away from my problems. If I could I would definitely go back to that orphanage .

“Jade?” I hear a male angelic voice from behind me.

I looked up and oddly the figure looked familiar. He helped me up and when I looked into his face I gasped.

“Oh my god…Jimmy?!”

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Sorry for the shortness and the long wait. To tell you the truth the reason why he didn’t reveal his secret is because I’m stalling. I’m not quite sure what to do with it…so you’re just going to have to be patient with this writer. Jimmy was actually a temporary character I made up….that is why he has such a lame name. But than he came in more and more in the story so I decided to add a little twist. Someone actually gave me the idea.

seme- Dominant in the relationship and on top during sex. In other words he sticks his dinker in the hole or he gives the blow job. Yah!

Alright another thing this is a story I wrote for English and I want to know what you all think (you don’t have to read if you absolutely don’t want to but it will be appreciated).