Story: Feelings

Show: Avatar: The Last Airbender

Pairing: Toph/Sokka

Word Count: 1142

Disclaimed: I still don't own Avatar!

Author's Note: This is the side story of Thoughts, but in Sokka's POV.

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So this is it. The night before one of the most important days of our lives.

But I'm not scared! What gave you that idea?

Well, to tell you the truth, I am. I'm terrified. Not just about the fighting part, but like, before that. I am after all, the plan guy, but what if my plan fails? What if everything falls apart because of what I said?

I pulled at my hair. These feelings weren't helping me sleep. I turned over in my sleeping bag and stared at the moon.

The moon was full. I found myself glazing at it, studying it's every crater and absorbing it's light. Then, my eyes started to swell. No...not again. Every time I look at the moon, a wave of depression hits me. She died because of me. I didn't save her. I didn't protect her.

After that day, that horrible day, my perspective on death had totally changed. I knew people who have died. Death wasn't that uncommon in my life. That's not to say I didn't like it. At first, when my mother was murdered, I had so much hate in me. For the firebenders that did that to her, that did that to me. Then when Yue died, I was filled with guilt. It was my fault. And I don't think I'm ever going to change my mind on that. Not for a long time. First my mother. Then Yue. What about Suki? What if Azula killed her?

I hate girls. I hate emotions. I hate hormones. Why do girls have to be so complicated? I mean, even when Yue was...alive...I still didn't feel that...click. And with Suki, it seems like all she wants to do is make out. I mean, what happened to just talking?

Did I really just say that? HA!

Anyways...

And then there's Toph. I don't know what's up with her lately, but all she does is stare at me (even though she can't even SEE me). She's always clinging to me, smiling and laughing at all of my jokes, and blushing at even the littlest compliment I give her. What's her deal? Not that I don't like the attention. It's kind of nice, I feel so macho when she clings to me or holds my hand when we are on water or in the air. Wait, she does that when we are on the ground too. Hm. But she's so young. Defiantly not naive though. Or weak. Or immature. Well, sometimes. She can hold her own weight, but sometimes it gets to her too much. She doesn't want ANY help from ANYONE. I guess that's why I'm here. Because she needs me. But I think, I need her more.

After Yue died, and after I found out Azula had ambushed Suki, I was just a mess. But she was there for me. I mean, so was Katara and Aang, but she was...different. She listened. She understood. She's such a good friend, and I'm so happy she's with us. Not just because she is an awesome earth and metal bender. Even though that is a plus.

But seriously? (When am I EVER serious?) I don't know how I feel about her. Part of me loves her, for being the best friend she is. Part of me is confused. Just about...everything. Of course I still have feelings for Suki, and forever Yue. But that's the problem. So many girls, and a tiny brain to figure who to choose 'the one' with.

My chest hurt from all of the emotions swirling inside of me. I shifted again, hoping that I would feel better. Of course, it didn't work. Thud. I heard a noise behind me. I jolted up, with my boomerang in hand, being prepared for the worst.

Oh. It was just Toph. She was throwing rocks into the now dimmed campfire. Was she crying?

Okay Sokka, time to be supportive friend.

I shuffled out of my sleeping back, and tiptoed to sit next to Toph. I know she could tell I was coming, but I didn't want to wake my sister. Especially Aang. I glanced towards the bed of fluff with the Avatar sleeping on it and smiled. He's so young, but has the world's weight on his shoulders. Poor guy.

I finally spoke up, "Hey, what are you doing up?" I then plopped myself next to her.

"Couldn't sleep. You?"

"Yeah, same."

There was an awkward silence. She picked up another rock and chucked it into the flames.

She broke the silence, "Hey listen, I've been meaning to tell you something..." I could see her blush a little.

"Oh, yeah, me to." Oops. Why did I say that? Great. Time to improvise...crap.

"You first." Great.

"Okay." I nervously picked up a stick and threw it into the fire. Oh no, should she pick up my rapid heartbeat? Wait, why IS my heart rapidly beating? "Listen, I just wanted to wish you luck for tomorrow. It's not going to be an easy fight, that's for sure, and I'm just worried."

What the...that was the biggest load of Appa dung I think I've ever said to someone before. To a girl before.

She wrinkled her nose, "Why are you worried? I can take care of myself."

Nice going genius. You just upset a blind girl. Let's put that in the most memorable things you've ever done. Along with getting Yue killed. My heart skipped a beat, "Oh, I know, I'm just saying. I'm worried for you, for my sister, and for Aang. Poor kid. At least he's sleeping though." I said, pointing to the bed he was sleeping in. Not that she could see it. Wow. I'm just on a role.

"Oh."

Some more awkward silence.

My turn to break it, "So, you were saying..."

"Oh, right." She said quickly. She started drawing shapes in the sand next to the fire, as almost if she was trying to remember what she was going to say. "I just wanted to say, that I hope you..." she blushed again. What is wrong with this girl? Does she have an abnormal blood flow to her face? "...stay safe tomorrow. Because, I don't know what I'd do it you weren't here...because..."

Where was she going at? I stared at her pale green eyes, that lit up by the fire. She stared right into mine, like she knew that I was staring at her.

"I would miss your stupid jokes."

What? My eyebrow raised as I kept myself from laughing, "Okay...thanks, I guess."

"Anytime." She said quickly again.

She stood up fast, wobbled a little bit, then went over to Appa and laid on the ground next to him, with her head on one of his furry paws. I too got up and dove back into my warm sleeping bag.

"Night Snoozles." I heard her whisper loudly to me.

I smiled, "Goodnight Toph." I whispered back.

The last thing I saw before drifting off into sleep, was her legendary smirk. Wait, was she blushing again?!

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A/N: I know I added a little to the end, but I couldn't just stop it at where Toph's POV did. It just didn't make sense :) Anyways, review please! If you don't, Ozai will kill a baby koala-sheep. That's right. You heard me.

Just kidding... :)