A/N: I really really like to draw Allen as a girl (influence from kiricoil's fic), and this was like a script for a short doujin. My friend persuaded me to post this up here. She beta-ed it. Thanks mikageceres! Plus I can't get enough of fics where Allen is a girl...so I started typing!! xD

This starts randomly, so let's pretend you know how it gets here. xD

Behind the Sweetness

Chapter 1: You're Okay

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“No.”

“What! But Allen…this…is like suicidal if you walk in there alone!”

Allen sighed softly as she placed the report on the table. “It’s better than loosing a whole bunch of exorcist, Komui.” She bluntly pointed out.

Komui struggled for words, knowing that she had a point. “But regardless, you’re a General!”

“Which is why it’s for the best. They will definitely come after me.”

“We could send backup…”

“No.”

Komui slammed his hand on the table. “Damn it Allen! Stop being so stubborn! If we sent in backup we very well have a chance in completing this mission!”

“And loosing more exorcists.” Allen replied coolly, not flinching. She turned and walked out, grabbing the mission details. “No one is to know. And I mean it Komui.”

After the door clicked, Komui slumped down on his chair, glaring slightly at the mission reports on his desk.

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“Moyashi?”

Allen turned to see Kanda walking into the crowded dining hall. She smiled when she saw him and waved. “Hey Kanda.”

Said samurai nodded in greeting and sat down opposite her with his dinner which consisted of the normal soba and tempura. “I thought you had a mission.”

Allen smiled cheerfully, a little too cheerful for Kanda's liking. “I’ll be heading out in the morning.”

He nodded, just as Lenalee and Lavi came. “Allen! I heard you’re leaving in the morning again?”

Lenalee sat beside the white haired girl. “Mou, Nii-san is sending you off too much! We barely spend any quality time together!” It was true. Ever since Allen became a General, she barely stayed in the tower for more than two days.

Allen giggled. “Yeah, I’m sorry, being General and all…”

Lavi grinned. “We could always stay up all night tonight…” he suggested cheekily, making the group laugh.

“Lavi! Allen has a mission tomorrow!” Lenalee scolded, earning another round of laughter. She hit him lightly on the head with her clipboard. Kanda merely snorted.

“It’s fine actually.”

Three heads turn to see Allen smiling at them. “I’d rather stay up with you guys than miss the time. After all, who knows when I’ll come back?”

Lavi laughed with glee. “Oh yeah! See Lenalee? Allen’s fine!”

And out of the corner of his eyes, Kanda noticed Allen’s cheerful demeanor slipped a knot.

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“And then Yuu-chan almost flung his katana at his General!” Lavi said, retelling a childhood story and earning a death glare from Kanda.

“I didn’t know you were that clumsy, Kanda.” Allen said, taking a sip from her cup. Kanda ‘tch’ed and got back on his task of killing Lavi. Lenalee leaned back against the wall, laughing slightly as the two boys ran around the room.

“Ne Allen, are you enjoying yourself?”

The white haired girl smiled again. “Yes.”

Lenalee nodded. “Good…because we never know what tomorrow will bring.”

“Because we’re exorcists…” Allen mumbled. They didn’t know what she was going to do. They didn’t know she was going on a suicidal mission. They didn’t know this might be their last get-together. They didn’t know anything.

It was at least two hours later that everyone except Allen fell asleep. She smiled softly as she placed a blanket on Lenalee’s petite form. The night was cold and they were all on the floor, too tired to move to their own rooms.

She sat by the window, enjoying the view of the moon which shone on the earth. She shivered slightly, before she felt something drop on her shoulders. She turned and saw deep blue eyes.

“Kanda?”

Kanda merely sat opposite her, and turned to look outside. Allen leaned her head against the glass, thinking about the suicidal mission made her feel worse. Taking a quick glance at the clock and seeing that it was close to 4 o clock, she decided to leave. To her surprise, Kanda stood up with her and looked at her with a questioning glance.

“Mission.”

He nodded. “I’ll come with you to the dock.”

“I’m stopping by Komui’s office first.”

He didn’t reply, but he stepped out of the room as Allen grabbed her suitcase. She patted Lenalee’s head softly and kissed Lavi on his cheek before closing the door, giving a silent goodbye to them. Kanda fell into steps with her as she made her way to Komui’s office.

“Just a sec, I’ll be right back.” Allen gave Kanda her suitcase and went in, not caring if he would glare or kill her for thinking that he would hold her luggage.

Komui looked up just as Allen closed the door. “Allen…”

Allen smiled softly. “I’m leaving.”

The scientist said nothing, but looked down to the floor. “I see…”

The white haired girl surprised the older man when she embraced him. “I’m sorry Komui. I have to go.”

He awkwardly returned the embrace, nodding. “I know…”

“This may be the last time you’re sending me off.” She said, taking a step back. “Thank you for taking care of me.”

Komui nodded again, and closed his eyes. “Have a safe trip…Allen.”

She grinned. “Goodbye.”

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They walked in peaceful silence, only the sounds of their shoes scrapping against the stone floor.

“How long will this mission take?” Kanda asked, still carrying Allen’s luggage. He refused to return it to her when she exited Komui’s office earlier, and she shrugged it off.

“A month perhaps.”

“I see.”

His exorcist coat still hung about her shoulders, and Allen wondered why he was acting so caring. Normally he wouldn’t even care about her well being, or so she thought. When they reached the dock, she automatically reached up to pull down the coat for Kanda, but he stopped her.

“Keep it.”

She was startled. “But…you need it for missions…”

Kanda shook his head. “It’s fine. I’ll get another from Komui.”

She blinked but nodded, since Kanda kept his hand on hers, she couldn’t remove it either way. “Thank you.”

He smiled slightly, which was a rare sight. He handed her her luggage. “Come back soon. Everyone will be waiting.” He said softly.

Allen untied the rope and smiled as the boat drifted off. “I will.”

Kanda watched as the girl took the long stick and pushed away, her gaze lingered a little longer, and she smiled sadly. He didn’t understand.

“Don’t wait for me…Yuu.”

And she was gone.

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Two weeks had gone by since Kanda saw Allen off that night, and now he, Lavi and Lenalee were marching towards Komui’s office. Apparently, they found out that no one knew what Allen’s mission was. The three friends immediately sensed something was wrong and were now headed to the source.

“Komui.”

Said scientist turned to see them looking at him as though looks could kill. He sighed, so the day had come huh?

“What was Allen’s mission?” Lavi asked, his voice lacking the normal humor. “She cleared her room out, it looks vacant, like she's not coming back.” He continued.

The Chinese man wordlessly gave them each a folder and straightened up. “Go to Edo, where the battle was.”

Without another word, the three exorcists left the office, intending to get to their destination as soon as possible. The Earl and Noah clan were still in Edo according to their report, and Allen had been dispatched there.

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Allen opened her eyes and looked up at the grey ceiling like she had been doing for the past week. She tried to sit up, but her whole body protested at the smallest movement and she stopped. She blinked tiredly and turned, seeing her hands in the normal shackle.

“Damn…”

“Now now, no cursing.”

The General didn’t bother turning at the voice, she knew who it was. “Rhode.”

The Noah came in, bearing food. “I heard parasite types can’t go too long without food dear Allen.”

Allen tried to nod, but she couldn’t even move. “What about it…”

“See all the food I brought? It’s for you!”

The white haired girl closed her eyes. “Whatever.”

“Aww you’re no fun when you’re not angry like last time Allen-chan!”

Allen glared at Rhode, but made no move to do anything else. Her Innocence had been trapped, she had no idea how it happened, but it did. She managed to fend off the level 1 Akuma, but the next thing she knew, everything was black. And she had been waking up to the same grey ceiling for the past week.

“Say ‘Ah’…” Rhode teased, holding a spoon in front of Allen. Allen turned her head to the other side, ignoring the Noah.

“Tch.” Rhode said, pouting. “Tyki! Allen won’t eat!” She yelled out, alerting Allen.

“Fuck.” She swore, forcing her body to move as she heard footsteps approaching. She painfully brought herself to another corner, further away from the entrance.

Tyki appeared at the entrance, grinning when he saw that Allen had forced herself to move despite the state she was in. All the more fun.

“Enough Rhode, I’ll take over.”

Rhode smiled. “Alright. I’ll play with you later Allen!”

Having said that, the Noah bounced out of the door, leaving Tyki and Allen alone. Allen felt her heartbeat increased drastically. She didn’t want to be alone with Tyki. He was the one inflicting all the wounds on her, be it physically or emotionally. She wanted to cry in frustration, but being an exorcist and General, she had an image to maintain.

“So…Rhode said you wouldn’t eat.” Tyki said, picking up the plate Rhode had abandoned. Allen glared at him.

“I’m not hungry.” She said stiffly. Tyki chuckled and walked towards her, ignoring her attempts of backing further into the wall. He kneeled down in front of her.

“If you don’t eat…I’ll have to punish you…” Allen’s eyes widened a bit before a spoon of food was in front of her. “Say ah…”

The girl obediently opened her mouth and Tyki fed her. This went on until all the food was gone and Allen felt drowsy. “You…” She tried to spat out.

Tyki grinned. “Nothing serious, don’t worry. Just making sure you’ll be asleep when your friends come.”

Allen bit her lip to keep conscious. “No one will come…” she mumbled, her vision clouding.

“Oh I doubt that.”

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“Tch.”

Kanda glared at the mansion in front of them. It was the only building standing in Edo, after the Earl destroyed everything around it. In front of the door was a message scrawled in blood.

‘Fuck you exorcists!’

Lenalee shivered at the familiar message but the three of them walked on, ignoring it.

As soon as they stepped into the area, a horde of Akuma appeared. “Looks like they were expecting us.” Kanda smirked, pulling out Mugen.

Lavi grinned, pulling out his hammer. “Yep! Now we know for sure Allen’s here!”

Without further ado, they activated their Innocence, jumping in different directions.

“Odzuchi Kodzuchi, ban, ban, ban!” Lavi yelled, slamming his hammer into the Akuma hovering in the sky. They cried out before exploding, leaving ashes scattered in the wind.

“Enbu, Kirikaze!” Lenalee deposited quarter of the Akuma in one shot, landing smoothly on the ground after her attack.

“Kachiu, Ichigen!”

After their short battle, they burst into mansion, expecting more Akuma, but definitely not what met their eyes.

“A-Allen…” Lavi choked, his face changing to anger when he saw his friend’s condition. Lenalee and Kanda stood rooted to the ground, too shocked to say anything.

Allen was sitting on a chair, her hair styled up and dressed in a Japanese kimono. She looked to be asleep, but the three exorcists did not miss the bruises and cuts on her skin. She looked paler than usual which scared them. It made her look dead. “Allen…?” Lenalee said, reaching towards the other girl. Before she could reach her however, something slammed down from the ceiling, startling the three of them.

“O ya O ya, exorcists?” A level three Akuma smirked at them. “Tyki-sama! They’re here!”

Without warning another three or four level three Akuma appeared behind them and grabbed their hands, making Lavi and Kanda drop their weapon. “What the fuck!?”

“Ah exorcists…just in time for a wonderful show.” Tyki sneered, appearing out of nowhere.

They remained silent, waiting for the right moment to strike. Tyki smiled and went towards Allen, ignoring her comrades’ glares. “Allen-chan…wake up.” He snapped his fingers in front of her face, and she lifted her head slowly. She paled and her eyes widened. “You guys…” she coughed out, lifting her hands to her mouth.

“Allen!” Lenalee yelled, kicking the Akuma that held her. “Enbu, Kirikaze!” She cried, forcing the other Akuma to let go of Kanda and Lavi. They hurriedly grabbed their weapons and faced Tyki. “Let Allen go.”

Tyki merely grabbed Allen’s face with his hand, making her eyes water because of the pressure. Kanda growled and angled Mugen’s tip towards the Noah. “.Go.”

The Noah grinned maniacally and waved his free hand, and the Akuma returned. They felt something slam onto their Innocence, and noticed it was the same device on Allen’s wrist.

“Not so tough without your Innocence?” the Noah sneered and turned his attention back to the girl he held. “I’ve tried all kinds of torture Allen-chan…why won’t you talk or respond now?”

Allen merely ignored him, training her eyes on her comrades. They winced when they notice Allen’s eyes lacking the usual warmth, it was almost dead.

“Fuck you Tyki!” Lavi shouted, trying to get out of the Akuma’s hold. “Let her go!”

“Maybe I will…after one more torture…” Tyki smirked. Allen paled even more if possible, trying to push Tyki away from her. Her strength was lacking and her arms fell to her side helplessly. She couldn’t move.

“What…did you do!?” she gritted out through her teeth, aware that the drugs he fed her earlier was the cause.

“Just a little…drug…” Tyki whispered at her ear, making her cringe in disgust. He nipped her ear lightly, making Allen winced. “What the hell do you think you’re doing!?” Lenalee yelled, making the Noah’s smirk to grow.

“Like I said, I never tried this before…” he replied casually, tracing the pattern of the kimono on Allen. His hands went to the back of the cloth, loosening the bow behind her. Allen went stiff when he let the material drop on the floor, and Kanda’s eyes widened.

“What the fuck!?” he yelled. “Don’t you dare!”

“Hmm…? Dare what?” Tyki said, pushing the outer layer of the kimono off Allen’s shoulder. Allen’s breath became rigid, and she tried to squirm out of the Noah’s touches. All she succeeded in was falling of the chair she sat on. Tyki smirked, enjoying himself.

“My, I didn’t know you wanted this as much as I…” he said, earning a glare from the girl that quickly changed to fear when his hands reached up for the second layer of cloth. She gritted her teeth as she forced her legs to move, just like the time she tried to activate her Innocence with Hevaleska.

Her three friends could only watch in horror when Tyki made it to the last layer of clothing, with Allen still trying to back away from him. She finally backed up further until she was against Kanda’s legs, and she turned to see Kanda looking like he was going to blow.

“Kanda…” she said softly.

Before Kanda could say anything, Tyki had grabbed Allen and pinned her down on the floor, right in front of Kanda. Allen cursed as her head hit the hard floor, making her feel dizzy. She didn’t have time to ponder, for Tyki’s hands were slowly traveling up her thighs. She glared at him and lifted her hand to slap him across his face, but his hands quickly stopped her, and he used one hand to pin both of hers on the ground above her.

“Now now…it’ll be over soon…” Tyki said, smirking when he saw fear flickering in her eyes.

Allen glanced up and saw her friends struggling against their bonds, and Kanda was looking furious. Only when Tyki nearly got the last layer off did she let tears fall from her eyes. She tried to turn away from Tyki’s grasp, but the Noah had a tight grip on her hands, making her unable to break away. “Stop! Damn it Noah stop!” she screamed, not caring that she was showing weakness by crying. Lenalee felt tears in her eyes too and she struggled even more while trying to activate her Innocence.

“Innocence, activate!” she cried in frustration. “Damn it, activate! You’re part of the ‘Heart’ aren’t you!? What use is it if I can’t activate it!?”

Her Innocence seem to reply to her as it glowed brightly, shattering the device on it. Lenalee gasp but quickly kicked the Akuma behind her and the others. Tyki seemed startled and quickly stood up, bringing a weak trashing Allen with him. Her clothes slipped off her shoulders, revealing her under garments and more damages. Kanda felt the rage inside him and yanked Mugen from the ground, pulling of the device off by force.

Allen whimpered when she felt Tyki dig his nails into her back in surprise. Lavi extended his hammer to destroy the other Akuma with Lenalee and Kanda faced Tyki. “Let her go.” He said, surprisingly calm even after what Tyki tried to rape Allen.

Tyki sighed in defeat. “Ah well, it was fun while it lasted. The Earl won’t be too happy though.”

With that, he let Allen drop to the floor and disappeared in the mist of tease.

Finished with the deposing of Akuma, Lavi and Lenalee ran to where Kanda and Allen was. The Japanese exorcist was cradling Allen to his chest, whispering comforting words he never thought he knew as the girl cried.

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They took the earliest train they could get back to the Black Order, which was at least an hour away. Allen sat beside Kanda on a bench with her knees drawn to her chest. She had managed to get some of her belongings from the Noah mansion when Lavi and Lenalee searched the house for more suitable clothes. Allen had outright refused to touch the kimono on the floor and would have shed the last layer had Kanda and Lavi not been there.

“Here.” Lavi offered, handing her a cup of hot tea. Allen accepted it mutely and stared at it, not taking a sip. Kanda sat quietly beside her, noticing her lack of reaction. After dressing in her clothes which they found, Allen had stuck to Kanda even after they exited the mansion. He was secretly glad when Allen pulled out his exorcist coat from her tattered suitcase they found and had wrapped it around her, despite that her general coat being among the belongings they found.

In any case, Lenalee had wordlessly took the rest of everything and ushered everyone out of the mansion, realizing that Allen was shaking from the trauma she experienced. After walking for a while, Allen had collapsed, resulting in Kanda carrying the cursed girl in his arms all the way to the station, not that he complained.

Lenalee and Lavi gave them space by occupying another bench, silently observing the white haired girl. Her eyes seemed dead even though they were out of danger. As the train arrived, Kanda carried the girl in his arms without saying anything, and the other two watched as he slid the compartment door close. Lavi lead Lenalee to another compartment, deciding that it was best for now that Allen remained with Kanda.

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“Allen…” Kanda tried again, but the girl would not give a response, even after calling her name so many times.

Allen just stared out the window, ignoring him. Just as he was about to call again, the sounds of rain hitting the window reached his ears. And just as sudden as it started to rain, Allen had buried her head in his chest when the first sound of thunder striked. Kanda was shocked, when he felt his front getting damped. He wrapped his arms around Allen’s tensed shoulders, not knowing what to do.

“Allen…” he coaxed, softly stroking her white hair.

She shook her head, trying to stop the tears from dropping, but she couldn’t, and she cried while Kanda held her.

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Lenalee opened the compartment door quietly, and smiled softly when Kanda raised his head to regard her.

“How is she?”

Kanda shook his head, letting Lenalee see that Allen was currently sitting on Kanda’s lap, her head nestled against his neck. She seemed so peaceful.

“I brought you guys dinner.” She gestured to the food on the tray. “It’s about two or three hours before we reach. She seemed hesitant about entering the compartment.

“It’s fine. Bring Lavi in too.” Kanda said.

Lenalee nodded, and dragged a sleep deprived Lavi into the compartment, smiling softly at the sight.

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“I see…” Komui said, sitting back down in relief.

Lenalee and Lavi sat in front of him. They had reported the mission while Kanda brought Allen to the infirmary to get a check up on her body.

“So Allen’s back…” Komui repeated. “I’ll not send her on another mission.”

“Forever?” Lavi asked, raising an eyebrow.

Komui shook his head. “The higher ups won’t allow that. At least for until she feels better.”

Lenalee nodded. “If you do send her, could you at least pair her up with one of us? Or just someone...Don’t make her go out alone again.”

Komui nodded in understanding. “I will. Now off, I’m sure you’re dying to see Allen.”

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Allen sat in the bed, glancing around the room. She had just woken up and found herself not staring at grey walls this time. She was glad, but she still felt vulnerable. She noticed a different device on her left hand, and she still couldn’t invocate her Innocence. She flexed her fingers and was startled when a hand grabbed hers lightly.

“Komui put it on so you wouldn’t invocate it unnecessarily.”

Allen glanced up and saw Kanda looking at her and forced a small smile. Kanda sighed and sat down on a wooden chair beside her bed. “Don’t smile if you don’t feel like it.”

She immediately dropped it, since she knew Kanda could see right through her. “I’m sorry.”

The Japanese merely shrugged and took her hand, making her look at him. “It’s okay. You’re fine now.”

And Allen smiled, reaching out to hug the dark haired exorcist, who once again, awkwardly returned it. Lavi and Lenalee could only smile their friend's antics while they waited outside the infirmary.

Allen: For making me a girl?!

dark: ...Maybe.

Allen: ...I can't believe you did that. I mean, I am a BOY!!

dark: Aww...you can't deny you make a cute girl!

Allen: ... ...

dark: Anyway, some stories are connected, so let's pretend you all know how it goes there etc etc! xD Review please!