Gabpay: The Series

Written by: BeneathTheSurface

Chapter 19: All About Us

Summary: They say don’t trust you, me, we, us so we’ll fall if we must cause it’s you me and it’s all about us.

Rated: T

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I’m told not to trust you, but there is something about you that draws me to you. You make me feel so crazy, something I’ve never felt a day in my life. I didn’t think it was possible for me to feel the things I feel for you, but I do.

As I sit here, in this playground I’ve been with you before, I can’t stop thinking about the kiss we shared. It was so soft and gentle, something I’ve never had before with anyone in my life. I loved it, I miss it and I ruined it all.

They told me you couldn’t be trusted. They got to me and I screwed up what we had because of it. I’m crazy to believe my friends’ knew me better than I knew myself. I trusted you and you trusted me and I broke it. Never once did you break mine. I feel stupid and I feel lost. Oh, how lost I feel without you. Sharpay, I miss you so much, please just come back to me. I’m sorry for everything I’ve done.

I pass you in the halls and you take one look at me and back down, avoiding me the rest of the day. Each time I get you to look up at me, I see this sad glint in your eyes and I feel even more terrible then before. I need you in my life. I just need to speak to you again and feel you. I miss being in your arms. I need that feeling again.

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I’m suppose to be in AP Physics and your in Drama. I skip it, just to see you perform and it makes me sad because of the scene you’re doing. I see the sadness you’re portraying and how your tears begin to spill over your eyes. I wish I could run up there and wipe them away, but I know I can’t. I can’t be that person that’ll take care of you anymore. You told me not to touch you anymore and for you, I’ll stick to your wish, no matter how much it kills me.

The auditorium is now empty and I’m sitting at the piano, running my fingers over the keys. No wonder why you love it up here so much. I feel so out of my element up here; that no one can catch me, not even you.

I begin to play a tune on it and I close my eyes listening to the sounds band together.

“They say don’t trust you, me, we, us, so we’ll fall if we must ’cause it’s you me and it’s all about it’s about it’s all about us, all about us, it’s all about, all about us, all about us that’s the thing that they can’t touch ‘cause you know ohhhh,” I begin to sing with my tune. It describes how I’m feeling and how lost and lonely I feel. God Sharpay, I need you so bad, it hurts.

I feel tears stinging at my eyes, threatening to spill as I continue to sing my heart out. As I continue, they begin to spill over causing my voice to crack slightly, which I imagine sounded terrible, but I didn’t care. I don’t care about anything much anymore, now that I don’t have you.

As I stop, I place my head on the piano and begin to cry; sob. I feel like I’m pouring my heart out and I’m falling apart each day without you. I don’t know how long I sat there crying, but I got up and went into the back of the stage, where the dressing rooms are located. We had memories in those dressing rooms. When you’d pull me in there and we’d share passionate kisses. I hold onto those forever; I will hold onto them forever.

As I continue to pass down the hall. It got darker; it always did. I remember every time we’d go back here, I’d always get scared because it was so dark, but you always protected me. You’re not afraid of anything, but me, I’m afraid of everything. But today, today I could careless about the dark or what happened to me because I know I’d deserve it.

Now it’s pitch black and I miss your touch when you’d guide me through it. Suddenly I hear a loud crash and I jump, scared out of my mind. I feel my tears coming again and I just want you.

“Shar,” I plead through my tears. I coward down to the floor in a fettle position, holding my legs close to my chest. I hear footsteps as they get closer to me.

“Shar please help me!” I start to yell in fear. I know it probably didn’t help that I yelled because the person’s footsteps got louder and very close as I begin to sob harder into my hands.

Then suddenly the footsteps stop and the person leans down in front of me, but I don’t dare look up. I suddenly feel them stroke my hair and pull my legs out from under my arms. They lean me back, but it’s still too dark for me to see anything. I suddenly feel weight on top of me and that’s when I realize I can’t let this happen. I try to struggle against them, but they’re way too strong.

They force their lips upon mine and that’s when I stop. Those soft lips. How gentle they feel on top of mine.

“Sharpay?” I whisper into their mouth. You run your hands through my hair as you continue to kiss me. I place my hands up on your cheeks. Your soft skin against my fingertips. Your cheeks were slightly wet and that’s when I realize you’ve been crying as well.

“I miss you so much,” you whispers into my mouth. Your voice cracks from your crying as we continue to kiss passionately on the floor.

“Me too,” I tell you, flipping you so I was on top. I placed my hands under your shirt, grazing my fingertips on your stomach. I begin to kiss you down your neck as I feel your hands go under my shirt, feeling up and down my back. Your breathing picks up as I continue this and just as we’re about to get further the bell sounds.

I pull away breathing heavy, knowing we have to get up because Darbus will be here any moment. We get up off the floor and you hold my hand as we make our way out of the back. I finally am able to see you clearly in the light and your eyes are red from the crying, which I imagine my are as well.

“I’m sorry for everything Shar. I ruined everything, but I promise if you give me another chance, I’ll be the best person for you,” I tell you. I’m a wreck without you and I just need you.

“I don’t know Gabs. I trusted you with everything I had. Yes, I didn’t lie about what I said back there. I miss you so much, but I don’t want to get hurt again when you decide your friends are the ones who define who you are,” you explain. I understand where you’re coming from which is why I’m not mad at you. I never could be, but I just wish you’d forgive me and we could get back to the way we were.

“I won’t let them again. I lost you once, I’m not gonna make that mistake again. You have to believe me Shar, please,” I beg you. You look at me with sad eyes and that’s when I realize. What just happened between us was the last time.

With that you drop my hand sadly and begin to stalk away from me, leaving me almost numb. I can’t feel my legs and they most certainly won’t budge for me to walk, so I just stand there, watching you leave me again.

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I’m back at the playground where we shared our first kiss. This time, I’m here thinking and thinking, but nothing is ever going to make it better, except for you. God I hate this so much, I just want you back, like what happened when we were backstage last week. I know you still love me, you wouldn’t have done what you did if you didn’t.

I turn my head and I see someone walking towards me. Their tiny frame and long flowing hair moves with the wind. As they get closer, I see it’s you. I run up to you and get ready to kiss you, but you hold your hands up, making me stop. You give me those sad pleading eyes, but I can’t seem to figure out what you are pleading me to do.

“I want this,” you whisper, somewhat confusing me. “I want you again, but it won’t be the same and sure it may not last, but at least I know we tried,” you add, making happy tears fill up my eyes and I lean in and kiss you passionately, yet gently.

I missed those soft lips of yours; I can’t get enough of them and now your kisses are unlimited.

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Our clothes cover the floor of your car and all that keeps us warm are our body heat. You feel up and down my arms with your fingertips, causing chills down my spine. I continue to kiss you lightly on your lips as I run my fingers through your blonde locks.

You flip us over the best way possible and straddle my waist, kissing me down my neck causing me to moan out your name; only your name will I ever moan.

As I feel your right hand generate circles on my stomach, it lowers down and immediately I feel them deep inside me. I missed you inside me. I just needed all of you and now everything seems to make sense.

As I lay with you in the backseat of your car, you hold me in your arms and kiss my shoulder lightly, making me smile slightly against you. I look up and you’re looking at me, with your loving smile. Oh how I missed your smile and just the way you would look at me with those eyes.

“I promise you, nothing will break us apart again,” I whisper to you and you just nod, kissing me lightly, holding me tight against you.

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“Gabriella Montez, you must me out of your mind if you think I’m gonna let you trust her!” Taylor tells me the next day at school. I told her about us. The late night talks, the hidden kisses, the affair behind close doors.

“First off, Taylor you’re my best friend and I love that you like to look after me, but I can take care of myself and you don’t have a say in what I do. You’re my friend not my mother. I love her and you can’t prevent me from seeing her,” I tell her. No one is going to ruin us again.

I see you at your locker and everyone is roaming the halls. There’s something I have to do. I walk over to you and stand there patiently and you finally turn and look at me. Your eyes are telling me you’re happy to see me, but what comes out of your mouth is totally different.

“What do you want Montez?” you ask me, hiding your deep love and affection for me.

I smile at you and you look at me confused. “I’m done pretending,” I whisper to you and pull you into me, kissing you passionately in front of every passer.

Everyone is surprised at the sight, but all I see and feel is you as you return my kiss with just as much passion. We pull away and we smile at each other and I turn to see everyone staring in utter shock.

“That’s right! I’m in love with Sharpay Evans and no one is going to tell me anything about how wrong it is or how I shouldn’t trust her. I won’t let you or anyone else dictate my life with her anymore. I’m done pretending I hate her. I’m gonna stay true to myself and to her, so I’m done pretending and if you all have a problem, then turn the other way,” I tell them and I turn back to you and you’re smiling at me in that determined little smirk.

“There, I did it,” I breath out to you and you nod at me, laughing slightly. You grab my hand and stroke it gently with your thumb and you pull me to you.

“Yes you did, it’s just a shame I didn’t do it first,” you whisper into my lips before kissing me, making me smile into the kiss. You pull away and smile “I’m glad we’re not pretending anymore and always remember it isn’t all about everyone else, it’s all about us and nothing they say or do can touch us,” she tells me and I lean in and kiss her again.

“I couldn’t agree more,” I tell her, hugging her tightly laying my head against her chest, finally happy again.

Yeah just a random idea I had; no idea where it came from and that's probably why it's so bad. But I'm almost done with the new chapter for The Music In Me, so that should be posted soon. Schools ending for me too, but I still don't know how much I'll be writing with how busy summer is going to be and plus it's going to be my senior year, so it's a big deal. But yeah, review on this and let me know what you think. Also if you seriously have any ideas for any one shots you want me to take up, then let me know and I'll see what I can whirl up. Anyway, thanks again and review. :)