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Kira Izuru stood his zanpaktou clenched in his hand. He was panting, sweat covering his face and the bare skin of his chest as he tried to catch his breath. His eyes glared into the distance at something only he could see. Training himself into exhaustion was the only way he could get to sleep now. The disturbing scenes of his captain’s betrayal played over and over in his head. And whenever he closed his eyes he could see himself being used. He had trusted in his captain with blind almost adoring faith and Gin’s treachery had hurt him badly.

His breathing started to even out and began moving again. His muscles screamed in protest as he forced them to move gracefully despite his fatigue. He could see himself facing off with Hinamori one of his closes friends, with Matsumoto a person he dearly admired all on the orders of his beloved captain. Hinamori was now confined because her mind had been broken by Aizen. He visited her every day even though she rarely knew he was there. The look in her blank eyes never left him; his own eyes looked almost identical when he looked in the mirror.

Kira gasped as he tripped. His legs gave out and he barely caught himself from smacking his face into the floor. His zanpaktou dug into his palm and he cursed under his breath. His body was almost to the breaking point. Another few minutes and he would have just enough strength to stumble to his quarters and pass out.

“Are you okay, Vice Captain Kira?”

Izuru’s head jerked up at the voice and blinked in confusion when he found Ukitake Juushiro kneeling in front of him. “I’m fine.” He said pushing himself wearily to his feet.

“Here” Ukitake handed him a cup and Kira nodded gratefully. “I’ve seen you in here every night for weeks now.” Ukitake said watching as the blonde man gulped down the cold liquid. “If you’re not careful you could hurt yourself.”

Kira swallowed the last of the water and wiped his hand across his moist lips. “Thank you for the water.” He said his voice impolite despite his best effort to make it personable. He cleared his throat embarrassed by his attitude. “What brings you down here at this time of night Capitan Ukitake?”

The white haired man smiled taking the cup from Kira’s hand. “I was just wandering around.” He said lightly. “I couldn’t sleep so I thought I would work off some of my nervous energy.”

“I understand that.” Kira ran a hand thought his sweat dampened blonde hair revealing his clear blue eyes. “I was doing the same thing myself.”

“Would you like to take me on?” Ukitake’s smile was still kind but there was an edge to it now. “We might tire more easily if we’re fighting each other.” Izuru thought about it for a minute before nodding. “Good.” Ukitake nodded as he stood. He walked towards the cabinet where the wooden practice swords were kept.

They faced off against each other. They stood poised for a moment each waiting to see who would move first. Ukitake made the first move.

He moved forward almost a blur of motion. But Izuru had practiced with Gin on a regular basis and caught the strike. He’s barely seen it but his instincts were excellent. As they continued taking turns striking, fainting, and parrying moves Izuru found himself feeling annoyed.

Ukitake was of course holding back. Izuru was so close to exhaustion that he knew he should be grateful for the captain’s consideration. But he was in a foul mood and he couldn’t stop the anger that welled up inside him.

Izuru had always tried to be nice. Losing his parents at a young age had given him a deep seeded fear of driving people away. So he trusted in three things kindness, honor, and loyalty. All of those things had been used against him by Gin.

A snarl left Izuru’s slightly parted lips unnoticed and his attacks increased in force. He’d faced off against his friends all in an attempt to be honorable and loyal to a captain that not only didn’t deserve it, he also didn’t take it seriously. The three things that Izuru valued above everything else had turned him caused him ultimate shame.

No one took him seriously.

Rage washed through him like a flash flood, sweeping away all logical thought and action. His attacks became wild and vicious as he tried recklessly to strike out. Izuru found he couldn’t see anything in the room anymore. Gin’s grinning faced filled his vision and he couldn’t stop the scream of fury that forced its way out his throat.

“Izuru…”

Mental images of Gin’s face, his voice, his touch coursed through Izuru’s mind causing another howl from his throat, though this one was tinged with hurt.

“Izuru…”

“Bastard!” Izuru screamed as he continued to attack, ignoring the bruising sting of the white haired Captain’s practice sword against his body. He didn’t know where he was or what he was doing anymore. All he knew is that he wanted to hurt someone. He wanted to find a way to force all this pain he felt onto someone else and watch them suffer as he was.

The blonde haired Vice Captain’s breath left him in a grunt as he found himself flat on his back staring up at the practice room’s cracked plaster ceiling.

“Izuru can you hear me?”

Kira blinked as he found himself looking into Ukitake’s concerned brown eyes. The blonde’s cheeks reddened and he closed his eyes in shame. “For give my Captain Ukitake.” He said unable to look into those kind eyes.” I forgot myself for a moment.”

Ukitake sighed and Kira felt some of the tension leave the body that was pressed against him. He realized belatedly that Ukitake had both his arms pinned over his head. “There is nothing to forgive.” Ukitake’s voice was gentle but his grip on Kira’s arms didn’t waver. “You have been through a lot, its reasonable that you would lose control at some point.

Kira opened his eyes letting the compassion in the brown eyes above him sooth his temper. “I don’t lose control very often.” He said at last. “I’m sorry it was very inconsiderate of me.”

Ukitake managed to shrug without ever loosening his grip on the man beneath him. “The betrayal of those close to you is always painful.” He said his voice soft. He closed his eyes briefly, probably at some remembered pain. He opened his eyes again smiling comfortingly. “It will get easier with time.”

Kira’s stomach fluttered as he realized he was pressed very intimately against the thirteenth squad captain. It hadn’t long since he’d last been intimate with someone. But the memories of whom he’d last let touch him sent a stab of pain through his chest.

Deciding he was tired of playing it safe, Kira leaned forward and pressed his lips against the soft inviting mouth of the man above him.

Ukitake’s body stiffened in shock and his hands tightened their hold on Kira’s arms. When Kira pulled back Ukitake’s face was puzzled. “Izuru…” His eyebrows crinkled slightly. “What…”

“Do you really want to sleep well tonight?” Kira was startled at the husky sound of his own voice. He’d never been so bold in an intimate situation. A thrill ran through his body at going against his usual nature and he felt his body begin to stir. He knew the older man could feel it because of how close their bodies were. “I can think of a much better way than beating each other senseless.”

Ukitake’s face smoothed as he looked into the vulnerable blue eyes of the man starting to tremble beneath him. “I don’t know if that would be a wise idea, Vice Captain Izuru.”

Kira’s smile could only have been called roguish. “Maybe I don’t want to be ‘wise.’” He moved his hips rubbing his erection into the man above him. His smile widened as Ukitake’s eyes closed in pleasure.

“I don’t know…” The white haired captain trailed off as Kira moved up running his tongue along Ukitake’s jaw. He opened his mouth but all that came out was a groan as Kira moved his hips again rubbing himself against Ukitake’s hardening body. He opened eyes he didn’t remember closing to stare down into the serious, lust-filled blue eyes of one of the calmest men he had ever known. “Are you sure?” his voice was breathy and rougher than he meant it to be. “Once this is done there’s no going back.”

Kira looked at him for a moment the haunting images that had kept him awake passed through his head. “I don’t have anything to go back to.” He pulled against Ukitake’s grip and grunted when the pressure on his arms became bruising.

Ukitake smiled playfully. “If we’re doing this, then we’re doing it my way.”

Kira smiled back. “Fair enough; what does that involve?”

The older man shifted making Kira open his legs. The blonde man groaned closing his eyes as Ukitake began to move against him. Even through their clothes it made his toes curl. “You do as I say.” He said his voice soft and firm. “And I won’t hurt you unless you want me to.”

Kira’s eyes slid opened. “I want you to hurt me.” He said his voice just as soft.

Ukitake’s smiled widened. “That’s all I needed to hear.” He kissed Kira roughly bruising his lips until the younger man opened to his demand. The kiss was rough, a harsh dance of tongue and teeth that had both men moaning.

The white haired captain moved from Kira’s mouth down to his throat his teeth leaving a red trail on the blonde vice captain’s pale skin. Relishing the smaller man’s groan’s he continued to move down. He ran his tongue lightly over a nipple grinning at the slight whimper it caused from the man beneath him. He took the small nub gently between his teeth working it relentlessly until Kira’s body grinded against him. He then moved to the other nipple enjoying the increasing volume of the younger man’s moans.

Ukitake moved to straddle Kira’s quivering body. He untied the sash on his hakama, using it to tied Kira’s hands quickly and efficiently. He’s left a piece of the fabric loose and wrapped it securely around his left hand.

He stood then, pulling Kira to his knees in the process. His hakama fell around his ankles and he kicked it carelessly to the side.

Kira paused a moment taking in the white haired captain’s pale toned body a moment before moving forward to run his tongue over the older man’s arousal. The blonde man smiled mischievously as the man above him shuddered in reaction. Pleased with himself he took the captain’s erection into his mouth coating it in wetness.

Ukitake’s buried his right hand in Kira’s smooth blond hair gripping it tightly as he pushed himself deeper into the kneeling man’s mouth. The white haired Capitan groaned when instead of feeling resistance the vice captain relaxed the muscles of his throat and moved forward taking the hard flesh all the way in.

The older man’s grip tightened on the blond hair as he moved smoothly in and out of the other man’s mouth with minute thrusts.

The kneeling man kept his eyes rolled up watching the expressions of pleasure move across the older man’s face. Ukitake’s eyes were closed his flushed lips were parted and his long white hair framed his well muscled upper body.

Unable to resist the temptation to make the captain lose control Kira began moving faster timing his movement’s with Ukitake’s taking the older man completely down his throat with each thrust. He moved until the man stiffened above him and spilled salty sweetness into his waiting mouth.

With a final shudder Ukitake his flesh from Kira’s mouth with a shaky breath. Brown eyes met Blue and the older man smiled at the lust he saw in the heated blue gaze.

Kneeling in front of the younger man Ukitake kissed Kira deeply as if trying to taste the remnants he’d left behind in the other man’s mouth.

Kira pulled away with a gasp as he felt the older man’s warm hands on his heated flesh. He blinked. He had been so consumed by the feeling of the captain’s kiss he hadn’t even noticed that he was being undressed. Kira allowed himself to be pushed gently into a seated position on the cool floor.

Ukitake’s hand glided over his throbbing arousal and Kira gasped again his eyes closing as he felt warm oil gliding over his length. The white haired man’s hand moved skillfully over him making the blonde vice captain thrust involuntarily into his hand.

Kira whimpered when the hand left him. He opened his eyes and only had time blink before Ukitake lowered himself onto Kira’s erection. Kira moaned loudly his body shuddering at the feeling of his flesh being hugged so tightly by the velvety warmth.

When he finally gained some control he blinked his eyes opened feeling slightly disoriented. The white haired captain looked at him for a moment raising a questioning eyebrow. Kira swallowed before he nodded.

Ukitake moved.

Kira groaned his fists tightening and his nails biting deeply into his palms. It had been so long since he’d felt anything like this. He felt the other man’s mouth kiss the sensitive skin of his neck and he moved his head to the side to give the older man better access.

Ukitake’s lips and mouth blazed a hot trail just below his ear before moving further to caress the skin low on his neck. Through it all the captain’s expert movements never faltered.

Kira grunted as the cloth dug into his wrists as they were forced back to an almost awkward angle. The hand that had the extra cloth wrapped around it was now on the floor behind the young blonde’s back. The older man’s other hand gripped Kira’s blonde hair tightly as he moved in for a deep passionate kiss.

His blue eyes squeezed closed as the combination of sensations overwhelmed him and Kira found himself groaning towards orgasm. Ukitake pulled away and began moving faster forcing even louder moans from the man beneath him.

When the grip on his hair fell way Kira opened his eyes to see the older man riding him fiercely while on hand pumped his own arousal. Small moans began coming from the older man’s throat.

The sounds of Ukitake’s pleasure pushed Kira over the edge. He screamed letting the orgasm annihilate his thoughts as his body convulsed uncontrollably. As his orgasm began to subside he heard Ukitake give a loud moan above him and felt wet warmth splatter his chest and stomach.

Kira was still sheathed in Ukitake’s body and the older man pulsed around his already sensitive flesh pushing him to another obliterating orgasm.

Kira awakened with a jolt looking around the darkened room in confusion. He recognized his own bedroom and the soft sheets against his bare skin were familiar. What wasn’t familiar was the warm body wrapped around him and the long soft white hair that lay against his arm.

He turned and saw Ukitake’s peaceful sleeping face behind him. Then it all came rushing back and he felt a blush rise in his cheeks. He’d never been so forward before. The captain at least didn’t seem offended.

Kira was still tired and snuggled back under the sheets relishing the feeling of the strong arms around him. It had been so long since someone had held him he didn’t even want to think about it.

“Thank you, Juuoshiro.” Kira said so softly he didn’t even think the words were spoken out loud.

Knowing Kira was asleep Ukitake kissed the back of the soft blond head in front of him. The older man was sore. It had been a very long time since he’d played the uke during sex. But he knew that dominating the younger man may have broken him. He wondered if Kira would ever figure out how much Ukitake cared about it.

It didn’t matter though. To take that lost hollow look out of those blue eyes Ukitake would have done a lot more. He pulled the blonde man close his arms tightening enough to pull a sigh from the man in front of him.

In time he would tell Kira how he felt. For now just making him happy would be enough.