Chapter 11

Brennan paced back in forth in the waiting room. She promised herself she wasn’t going to cry because she knew he was going to be ok. He had to be ok. Booth is strong and she knew he would pull through. He always did. However, the voice inside her head told her other wise. She had seen Booth get hit by the car and she knew that his injuries were more serious then what she wanted to believe.

Tears were threatening to fall and she cursed. It should have been me! It should have been her, but Booth had saved her. She felt horrible. The last words she spoke to him were ‘I’ll call you.’ She should have told him she loved him, instead she ran. Ran from her feelings and look what happened.

“Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!” she said to herself.

“Excuse me, miss. Are you here for Agent Booth?”

Brennan turned around to see who had interrupted her thoughts. It was Booth’s Doctor, so she quickly ran over to him. “Yes. Please, is he ok?”

The Doctor hesitated and Brennan couldn’t help but notice the sadness in his eyes. After a few minutes of silence the Doctor finally spoke. “I’m afraid I have some very bad news.”

“How bad? Is he ok? When can I see him?” Brennan asked just above a whisper. Normally, her voice was strong and full of confidence, but now it was weak and unsure.

The Doctor took a deep breath. “I’m so sorry. He lost a lot of blood, and we had some of are top surgeons working on him, but I’m afraid –”

Brennan cut the Doctor off, “No! No! No! Where is he? I want to see him!”

“No! I want to see him now!” Brennan screamed with tears running down her face, “I don’t believe you. You don’t know Booth! He is strong and he wouldn’t leave me! He won’t… he can’t…” Brennan trailed off; unable to continue.

“I’m sorry for your lost. If you would like to see him, you can,” The Doctor told her.

Brennan closed her eyes and took a deep breath. “Yes. Please… I want to see him.

Brennan quickly followed the Doctor into the room, and winced when she saw him.

“I’ll give you sometime alone,” The Doctor said softly, and quickly left.

Brennan buried her hands in her face, and cried loudly into them. “Oh God!” seeing her partner broken was just too much for her to bear. Bruises, cuts, and blood covered his face and body. The only thing that wasn’t bloody was the white sheet that covered his motionless body. His hair was messy and his eyes were shut, so she couldn’t see his chocolate brown eyes. She silently walked up to him and gently squeezed his hand with hers.

“Booth,” her voice cracking, “What were you thinking? It should have been me. It should have been me.”

She took a deep breath before she continued, “Why? Why Booth? Why did u have to push me out of the way?” She was sobbing uncontrollably now and she was having trouble breathing.

No words could describe how Brennan felt. It was as if her world had suddenly caved in around her, and she couldn’t breathe. He had always protected her, but why couldn't she do the same for him?

“Seeley,” she said using his real name. “I’m sorry,” she told him, “I’m sorry I ran away. Do you hear me?” He didn’t reply, so she shouted at him, “I’m sorry!”

She sobbed loudly when he didn’t answer her. He couldn’t be dead. He just couldn’t. She needed him to stay. She loved him. They had been through so much in the past three years. She gave a weak smile as she remembered how he use to call her Bones. She would never tell him, but she had always loved that stupid nickname. At first she had thought it was stupid and annoying. Now, she would give anything to hear him call her it again.

“You can’t leave me. I… I… love you,” there she admitted it, but it was too late. “Do you hear me?” she cried, “I love you.”

Brennan quickly got up and pressed her lips against his and cried loudly when he didn’t wake up. She slowly pulled away, but still held onto his hand. She gently kissed the back of his hand, and slowly put his hand back down.

“Goodbye, Booth. I will always love you,” she cried. Brennan new she had to get out of this place. She couldn’t take it anymore. Everyone she had every loved had left her in someway or another. First her parents, then her brother, now Booth. She had to get away and start over.

She quickly rubbed her eyes and silently walked towards the door. She was about to open it when she heard the vague sound of a beep. She slowly turned around and stared in shock. Booth’s monitor had suddenly sprung to life and was beginning to beep loudly with the green line jumping up in down. For a moment, Brennan thought it was just her imagination, but when she saw Booth’s hand twitch she quickly ran over to him.

“Booth?” she asked in disbelief. She saw Booth blink a few times before fully opening his eyes. Now she could see his beautiful chocolate brown eyes which brought a smile to her face. He is alive! She slowly brought her lips down to his and kissed him full force. When she pulled away Booth was still gazing up with her, but with an expression of shock on his face.

“Bones?” he whispered.

“I’m so sorry, Booth. I shouldn’t have run. I don’t regret the kiss. I’m sorry. It should have been me. I thought you were dead,” She sobbed loudly.

Booth quickly sat up in the bed. Oddly, for just being hit by a car he felt very little pain. “Hey, Shhhh,” he soothed and quickly pulled her into a hug. “I’m ok Bones, shhh. I’m not dead.” He gently rocked her back and forth trying to calm her down. Brennan clung onto him for dear life because she was afraid if she him let go he would disappear.

As Booth tried to calm the sobbing Brennan he noticed a person standing in the corner. No, not a person. An angel. Booth locked eyes with Lionel who smiled at him.

“Merry Christmas, Booth.”

Booth nodded his head and silently thanked Lionel for what he did.

"Booth, I love you," Brennan told him bluntly, "I have always loved you. I was afraid that I missed my chance and -"

"Bones, Sh..." he soothed, "I love you too."

Brennan smiled and after a few minutes she finally pulled away from Booth's embrace, and looked him in the eye. “Booth… what happened?”

He laughed and leaned his forehead against hers. “A Miracle, Bones. A Christmas Miracle.”

Brennan smiled and Booth leaned in for a passionate kiss.

Lionel watched the happy couple from a distance. He knew he did the right thing. One of them was suppose to the die tonight, but he couldn't do it. They loved each other too much and they deserved more then just three days to be together. They deserved a life time together.

After all, they would be lost without each other.

THE END