Chapter 8

Chapter 8

Fighting pose

She wished she hadn’t run away. She had ran so far and so fast that she had suddenly found herself in the middle of an empty, cold street that she didn’t even know it existed. That was something to be alarmed since, after living so many years in the same village, she thought she knew every street, every dark alley, and every secret passage that existed. She was now walking in the middle of the street to practically nowhere; there was no one to be seen, no car that could suddenly peek out from there putting her life in danger: she was walking in the middle of the street after all. “What a stupid thing to do” she thought “running away like that. After all, they should be the ones running away from me…” she kept walking, and she was getting cold, but she endured it and remembered how it had happened…

Sarah ran away. She didn’t really know why, the only thing she could feel was agitation and a strong wish that demanded to be left alone. “SARAH!” she could hear Yoh calling. She kept running. Now she heard footsteps and someone shouted her name again. She just quickened her pace, until she could not hear them any longer…

Maybe, they were chasing after her right this minute…right this second, running through every alley shouting her name. She could hear them right now screaming it… no, it was just her imagination. She stopped on her steps and turned around to see the empty street she had just walked over with a finger on her lower lip. “no… I don’t think so because I…” she lowered her hand “…I scared them away didn’t I?” She turned left and sat on a abandoned box that seemed just to be waiting for her. She sighed. What in the world was she supposed to do now? It would be really simple, it would be the right thing to do after all… if she could just go back to that bridge or… she looked at the floor were was a shattered glass bottle. But, what was holding her back now? She could do it right that same moment, with those sharp glass pieces or… that piece of dirty rope, it would be easy to hang herself… but why wouldn’t she do it? when she was standing at that edge of the bridge, she had no fear to death, she was even a bit happy of her decision, she would be able to finally rest in piece, but… it seemed something was holding her back, it was something so wonderful, but so out of place, it was weird. Was it really…hope? Hope to find happiness? Happiness that had been taken away from her so brutally? Happiness that she, herself, had taken away, in that cold night, when she came back home and she…

She sighed. How could she be thinking so stupidly? How could she possibly find happiness as she was now? People say they want to stay young forever and ever… but, she that was forced to stay as she is, seemed not to want it. how could she want it, how could she like it, when in exchange she had to do something so terrible? She, in her personal opinion, hated the idea of sucking out blood from others in order to live, and even after that, condemn them to live as miserable as she did… but, when she remembered that man’s face, the one that had bitten her, he seemed…happy. He was enjoying himself. He was deliberately laughing… how could someone be so cruel? She couldn’t understand. What she did that same night, when returning home, made her entire family hate her, ‘murderer’, they called her, they cursed her, drove her away, pretended she never existed… yet, she couldn’t blame them. She was about to pay for it, happily that night on the bridge, but that boy stopped her. He gave her hope, he gave her strength to carry on… she had been alone for all those years. She had gotten used to loneliness since quite some time now. She thought she had lost any interest on living, she thought she had lost any common sense that made people want to stay in group, rather than to be alone. But when Yoh entered her life, and offered a hand, when he spoke to her just like an old friend, a light had turned on in her heart, not minding how little it was, it was still very powerful, remaining over the darkness, it gave her hope that maybe, just maybe there was still a side of her that wasn’t s demon, a side that made her laugh, that made her cry, the side she could still recognize, even after so long, her human side, in other words. He had made her find out that she hadn’t been completely devoured by the dark. But, how could it be that after so much time living in the dark, that only by the slightest touch, the slightest hint of friendship, of closeness, of that feeling that whispers to your ear that not everything is lost, that gives you strength, even in the end of all hope… how could she miss it that much when she had hardly tasted it? How could her decision be shattered so easily?

Sarah stood up “well, I’m doomed.” She said with a slight smile on her face “cuz I’m sure that now there is no way I will jump off that bridge as easily as before. Doomed to survive” she said, with a huge emphasis in the last word, contemplating how ironical that heard. She chuckled for a bit, then suddenly, with a horrified expression on her face covered her mouth ‘what the hell’s going on with me!?’ she thought ‘this isn’t a situation to be laughing about!’ she looked down, but suddenly, something made her go pale, and her eyes widen. She could feel Yoh’s presence nearby. And… Len’s and Horo’s too. “They found me” she said with a sigh “well, I was going back to the hotel anyway… she stretched a bit, but when she looked at the ground, she saw something really curious. It was a necklace… it had a red plastic jewel that was pretty sharp clinging. suddenly a flashback of a pretty young woman, brown hair, white simple dress, and blue eyes, came up, she was putting some fruit over a brown table. Then, a little, 4 year old girl went running to her, she had silver colored hair that reached her shoulders. The woman crouched, and hugged the girl. She lifted her as she stood up with her. They were both laughing, and a necklace with a red jewel on shape of a hexagon clanged on her chest. “I GOTCHA!” suddenly, someone pushed her forwards bringing her down, mouth-down. She was pretty confused so the only thing that escaped her lips was “huh?” “DAMN RIGHT ‘HUH’!!” yelled someone, as it kicked the little ugly necklace out of her reach. She looked up. It was Yoh. He was frowning, and suddenly pointed at her with an accusing finger. “I TOLD YA WE WOULDN’T LET ANYTHING HAPPEN AND THAT WE WOULD PRETECT YOU! AND THAT MANS WE WILL PROTECT YOU EVEN FROM YOURSELF, SO JUST TRY TO REACH THAT SHARP THING AGAIN AND YOU WILL FORCE ME TO HIT YOU!” “But I…” “YAAAAAA!” he exclaimed while he made a probably invented and kind of ridiculous fighting pose. She sat better on the floor. “I wasn’t going to suicide! Seriously! Thanks to you! You have twisted my mind!” she stood up, and couldn’t help smile a bit for his foolishness and weird pose.