Chap 5

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Edwards POV

Just like that. I walked away. Bella doesn’t know how much I resisted punching out Jacob then and there. I started to concentrate, trying to read Jake’s mind.

“Thank god he fell for it. At least he’ll be dead soon. Sam? Oh good your there. Can you see him? Brilliant. On my mark, attack. Ready? ATTACK!”

At that moment as he said, Sam emerged from the bush as a large black wolf, his hair short as always.

“SAM!” I yelled. He kept sprinting towards me. As he closed in, I ran. That was the easy part, running away from him, but calming him down is pretty hard.

“SAM! Stop! Think about what you’re doing! Calm down, I don’t deserve to die! Bella needs me so don’t kill me!” How was he going to kill me anyway? There was no light that I could see… That I could see. He was right on my tail. I tried running a little bit faster but he just sped up. When ever I kept talking to him he seemed to be the same even when I insulted him, it was like he couldn’t hear me. I kept swerving, even going in circles but it he was like a missile lock, not letting go until finally, their target is reached. I gulped, a bit worried of how this would play out.

Once more I concentrated on Sam’s mind.

“Edward, Edward, I know your listening, Edward, please, Jacob wants me to kill you or he’ll kill my sister. Please, I need this.”

“Sam! I heard you and I need this too, He’s turned Bella into a werewolf and I need to save her! I have a plan. Stop running for a second, I won’t kill you, I swear, I’m not that type of person.”

Sam stopped. Under my breath I muttered, “thank god”.

“Edward, hurry up, Jacob will check in on me.”

“Can’t you lie to him?”

“No, he knows when I’m lying.”

‘How?”

“My voice, it turns.”

“OK, well how about you just say that ‘he’s long gone’. That will be true, I’ll be long gone away from you. You won’t be lying.”

“I’d love to help you but what happens when he sees you not dead, and when you turn up alive?”

“Don’t worry, Sam, Jake won’t hurt you or your sister ever.”

“YOU’RE GOING TO KILL HIM?”

“Not technically. but he will learn.”

Bella’s POV

All I could do was wait. Wait for what? Edward to come back? Sam to kill Edward? To become a werewolf? For this bite to spread? Jacob to give up on me? Not likely. Grr this was annoying. The worst part was that I couldn’t do anything to prevent or change the future. Oh but I could. I could commit suicide…? Ha. No way, there is still a possibility that I’ll end up with Edward. All that had to be done was that Edward had to talk Sam out of killing him, come back, stop this bite, talk to Jake and… and what? Fight to the death? Kill him? I really didn’t know. I didn’t even know what to pray for to happen, the best case scenario I guess if there is such a thing. For Jake to fall in love with… not me and for him to magically leave so Edward can come back, save me and take me to our new cottage house. I wish. But there are never happy endings. People are murdered, they die in car crashes. People lose limbs, people lose family members. They have to save their friend by choosing whether to sacrifice their own life so their friend can live on. They have to say ‘sorry’, they have to break relationships, they have to make hard decisions, they have to say ‘no’ to something wrong like drugs or pressure. I know this as a true fact that nothing ever has a happy ending, sometimes, but there is always a catch. At least when there are happy endings it’s in movies and books, in other peoples lives, not mine.

“Bella?”

I didn’t respond. He sickened me.

“Bella talk to me.”

I glared at Jake.

“I know what’s best for you.”

No you don’t I thought to myself. How could he? He thought what was best for me but didn’t know. I knew what was best, Edward Cullen. A cottage house. Being a vampire. But that all went down the drain. Now I’ll be a werewolf. I won’t be happy, but that’d who I’ll be. Still Bella Cullen forever.

“Jacob.”

“Yes, Bella?”

“Why?”

“I already told you, because it’s what’s best.”

“No. Stop saying it’s what’s best.”

“But it is Bella! Don’t you see!” He stood up emphasizing with his hands. “It’s so simple, you love me! That’s why you let my voice inside your head when you were in that dream!”

“JUST SHUT IT!”

I needed to think. Did I really let his voice in my head? I didn’t know I was letting his voice in… I was just… I don’t know what I as doing. I was just hovering. Hoping to come out alive to Edward’s arms waiting. Happy endings again.

“Bella. You only have a couple of hours until you become a werewolf. I want your last moments being human to be special. So what can we do to make it special…”

“Just end all this Jake. I’m begging you. PLEASE!”

“What are you going to do? Sam’s already told me that Edward’s long gone so don’t worry about him. You may as well be happy with me now that he’s gone. Long gone.”

No. He couldn’t be, not just like that. He couldn’t be. It was impossible, my indestructible Edward! How could he be killed without sunlight? I’m sure Jake and Sam had thought that through. Edward. Edward. Edward was gone, “long gone”. How could he be dead, just like that? But it didn’t feel that way to me… It felt as though he was still alive, still looking for me. Still out there somewhere. Searching. Edward couldn’t be gone. I know that if he was there would be a large hole in my heart where Edward’s heart would have been, next to mine only empty and dead. But no, it was alive, pumping, rushing and happy. It was content, next to mine, closer. They went together well, as well as fish and chips. Edward was not gone, not dead. He was alive! Searching for me, to save me! He was my knight. Not in shining armour, but in all his glory.

“Bella…? Are you OK? You look like you’re about to faint…”

“Well you just fucking killed my husband…” I murmured.

He didn’t say anything after that. By this time Jake was slumped against a tree standing up looking out into the forest. I was facing the opposite direction sitting down holding my arm. I faced the beach. It must have been late afternoon, the sun was close to setting. My arm didn’t hurt much, at all in fact. I didn’t know why, perhaps because it has just been aching for so long my system has developed a natural morphine to ease the pain. My arm looked the same, green and black to my finger tips then my shoulder. Mindless minutes past as the ‘venom’ spread. I couldn’t feel anything. I kept reminding myself that Edward was coming. Coming for me, to save me, and this time I would get my happily ever after.

“Jake? Why aren’t we moving somewhere?”

“Because we’re waiting.”

“Waiting for what?”

“Sam and Edward’s dead body.”

Edwards POV

Now with Sam out of the picture, I started running back. It was easy to follow, I just tracked my own scent which was so strange. It was like I was following my lost arm or something. I could smell my own blood which was so weird. When I got closer all I had to do was focus on Bella’s scent. What was the plan? I think I am going to kill Jake when I see him… That would be easiest, but I can’t. I can’t do that, it’s not me. I would have to talk to him first. And say what? “Hey Jake, can you let Bella go and leave her life? Oh Gee thanks!” I don’t think so. Maybe I could try tricking him… Or just talking, or making Bella decide who she wants. Bella deciding would be easiest, but… but she might be tricked again and have to pick Jake… Tricked over what? I was alive, I could protect her. Well whatever I was going to do I had to decide fast. I guess I had to talk to Jake and make Bella decide. This was not going to be good. I could feel it.

Bella’s POV

When was Edward going to get here? He had probably run away to Vegas and forgotten about me. No, he was coming. I could feel it, call me crazy but I could feel it. His presence was always warm, but the he was always cold. Edward knew when I needed him, luckily this time he would save me from the clutches of ‘evil’. I think he was really angry at Jacob, close to killing him.

“He’s coming,” Jake said standing straight.

“I know.”

“Look away, love.” He could NOT call me love, I was love to Edward, not Jake!

“Don’t EVER call me that.”

“But you are my love,” Jacob said in his puppy dog voice. In this situation, nothing worked on me.

“Just don’t go there Jake.” Jake turned into the werewolf he was at heart. He was in the same stance (only on four legs) defensive and protective. I tried moving but my arm just went limp. There was no use Edward sucking out this venom, it was too much, the venom cells had probably reproduced too many times.

Soon enough, as Jake said, Edward emerged from the bush.

“Jake, why can’t you just let Bella choose what she wants.” Edward was talking and then reading Jacob’s mind in response. “She deserves to decide! …She still has a chance to be a vampire… Bella doesn’t want that!” Jacob changed into human form.

“Bella, do you want to be able to be free, fast at running and happy?” Jake asked.

“Yes,” I replied. “With Edward.”

“No, with me.”

“Jake! No! Not you! Definitely not after this!” I showed him my arm which was now just a swollen lump.

“Bella. It’s OK to admit you want me.”

“I DON’T!”

“Bella,” Edward said, his voice was calm as always. He walked over to me, past Jake. “Bella, trust me on this one OK?”

“OK.”

“Jacob.”

“Yes?”

“Do you want Bella to be happy?”

“Yes.”

“Do you want Bella to make her own choices?”

“Yes.”

“Do you want Bella to be comfortable?”

“Yes.”

“OK then, here we go. Bella?” Edward asked obviously thought this through.

“Mm?” I said.

“Who will you be happiest with?”

“You.”

“Who is your own choice?”

“You.”

“Who will you be most comfortable with?”

“You.”

“And where does that leave me, Edward?” Jacob asked in a growling voice.

“You tell me. Are you going to bother Bella?”

Avoiding that question, Jake said, “Bella, are you sure this is what you want?”

“Yes Jake, please, just go.”

“I CAN’T BELLA! I LOVE YOU!”

“Jake! Please! I want Edward, you don’t mean anything that way to me!”

“NO!”

“Yes! Leave me be, I’ll live happily with Edward, you don’t make me feel happy as Edward does!”

“BELLA! YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND, I CAN’T LEAVE, IT’S NOT POSSIBLE!”

“You’re going to have to! I’m not in love with you, and I don’t think I love you either! Not after this!”

“BELLA! LISTEN TO YOUSELF! HE’S GOTTEN INTO YOUR BRAIN!”

“NO JAKE! This is me talking. I want Edward not you, there is no point you trying to make me love you. I will never. Not before and not NOW! There’s no point Jake! Find your soul mate, marry them, I know I found mine and married them! It’s not you!”

“BELLA! SHUT UP! YOU WILL LOVE ME, AND I’M NOT LETTING HIM TAKE YOU AWAY!”

“You can’t take me away!” Edward crouched down beside me and gripped my waist.

“Edward! Don’t you DARE take her!” Jake said. His anger was growing, I could see he was holding back turning into a werewolf.

“Jacob, give it up!” Edward said lifting me about to run off when Jake…

“AHH!” Jake screamed and ran towards Edward and punched him. When Jake punched from the left, I was on the side that he was following through on, I got part of the punch too. It didn’t hurt Edward since he was a vampire but to me it was like the full force of a bus on my cheek. I fell to the side stretching my cheek to make sure it was OK.

Edward was staring at me, I felt the blood going down my cheek. He looked away a bit, then all that I could see was anger. He was glaring at Jacob.

“Edward. It’s OK, I’m fine.” I tried calming him down a bit but it wasn’t working, his fists were still clenched so tightly that his nail were digging hard into his skin. Edward let me go a bit, loosely putting me against a tree. He didn’t take his eyes off Jacobs.

“Edward! Come on, let’s just leave!” He wasn’t listening. “Please! I don’t want anyone hurt! Come on!” I lied a bit, I told him I didn’t want anyone hurt when really I wanted Jacob to be hurt… But I wanted to hurt him myself, not get Edward to. I didn’t want them to fight, Edward needed to take me to Carlisle.

“EDWARD!” Finally he snapped his head back. “Please. I need to get this poison out of my body.”

“Sorry.” Edward walked away with me. Jake stood there. Staring at Edward.

Jacob’s POV

How could I be letting this happen? This was unacceptable. I had to do something. If I wanted to kill Edward, now was the time. I could easily just jump on him now. Oh brilliant, Edward’s listening, hi fucker. Ha. I love Bella, surely you remember when she was lying in the mud, curled up, pale, unconscious and muttering your name.

“SHUT UP JAKE!” Edward yelled at me.

“She was so upset then when I made her happy, it was perfect, it was love. Then you had to come back and ruin everything.”

“I didn’t come back, Bella came to get me.”

“Sure. But not out of free will, Alice was pushing her to.”

“No Jake, I went to get Edward because I still loved him!” Bella said. I wish she would just be quiet so I could talk to Edward, piss him off a bit then when he finally leaves Bella alone, I could snatch her. No, that was too low like Bella said. I couldn’t do that, I couldn’t steal her.

“Edward you are just a stupid vampire. She wants more, she wants a werewolf.”

“She wants a husband.”

“I can be her husband. I’m perfect for her.”

“No, you aren’t.”

“Just stop it you two!” Bella yelled over us.

“Bella, stay OUT of this!” I yelled. No, no, no, I can’t get angry. I can’t turn into a werewolf. I can’t do that to them. It was starting… I was changing. I could feel it. Before I knew it I was a werewolf.

Edward, give me a break, stop this, let me get Bella so I can live with her, we’re thinking what’s best for her here.

“NO JACOB! STOP THIS! THIS IS STUPID! I CAN’T BELIEVE IT!” Sam yelled. He was in the werewolf state too.

Sam, trust me, Bella needs me!

“NO SHE DOESN’T! You’ve already broken the rules by far, you’re an outcast to our pack, you’re no longer a member.”

What for?

“For taking Bella, turning her against her will, and attempting to kill Edward! You also threatened me, and threatened Bella. You have no right to stay in our pack!”

I said nothing. I changed back, as if to stop the conversation. I was done. All I could do now was be a lone wolf. I’d heard of them before, roaming around, sprinting for no reason. Sounds like a life I could get used to. Bella’s out of my life, I have no pack, Billy can live without me, sure enough he will hear of my actions from Sam. Lone Wolf. I looked down at my feet. It suited me. No more charades. No more dramas. No more wanting something that isn’t yours. Bella belongs to Edward. I can’t have her. Soon she will be back to normal. I have to let her go.

“Goodbye Bella, bye Edward,” I said. I was never any good at farewells. I walked the opposite direction. Alone as a Lone Wolf. There was no way I could return to Forks. I had to leave, go some place far away. Like I said before, no more charades. I had to leave Bella and Edward alone for a while, let them settle. Maybe I could come back in years to come, visit them. If they would accept me.

Bella’s POV

When we got to Carlisle, he immediately put me on morphine and under the knife. I was so groggy that I couldn’t even work out where I was when I woke up after the venom was removed. I was safe now. When I woke, Edward was sitting next to my bed his hand was holding mine, his head was resting on his arm on the bed. It looked like he was asleep.

“Edward?”

“Yes? Oh! You’re awake!” He replied getting up.

“What were you doing?”

“I was dreaming.”

“What do you mean?”

“Thinking, dreaming. About us.” He smiled. I attempted to smile back, my head was spinning.

“Did Carlisle get all the venom out?”

“Yes, it all worked fine, you’re able to be a vampire soon.”

“Good, I can’t wait.” I yawned. “I think I need to go back to sleep.”

“OK, I need to tell Carlisle that you’re OK. I love you and I’m sorry about Jake.”

“That’s OK.”

“He’s gone now, Sam rejected him from the pack, he’s leaving town. Do you want to go say goodbye…?”

“No. I’m sure he’ll live.” Edward smiled.

“I love you, I’ll be right back-”

“No.”

“…?”

“Don’t leave… please…?”

“OK. I’m here.” Edward kissed my hand and put his chin on his arm. He was looking in my eyes. I fell asleep, I could feel his eyes on mine, his warmth once more. I was safe, finally, I was warm, a bit tired but safe. There was no chance of seeing Jacob again. I drifted off in a dreamless sleep, only of Edward. Edward’s smile, his lips, his muscles, his laugh, his protecting glare, his nice warmth, his cool touch. Edward Cullen.