Minerva's PoV

Guilty Am I

I can't sleep at night.

I fear that when I close my eyes all my haunting memories will come back. I lay on my cold bed staring at the ceiling - seeing nothing. Motionless and frozen all I do is breathe. These four walls separate me from the living and the noise. The silence is deafening and that's what I want. I don't want to hear a thing.

My eyes have done crying, they can't anymore. But my heart still weeps with pain. Numb, I'm so numb to everything now, so hollow. You left me like this. I have no will to fight, the fire of rage died out. I'm just the shell of a woman… Why did you leave?

Why did I let you go?

I should have been with you, stayed with you till the end. Did you scream my name as you fell? Did you wish that you could of changed things? I know I do. I would change it so you would be lying by my side. You would still be in my life. I hope you can see me now, because I'll forever be guilty for letting you just slip away…

A/N Please review! Its about darling Severus and his death – I don't believe that he is – but yeah.

I know I'm denial but I like it.

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