It may seem awkward, but if you open your heart and read the rest. You'll see a miracle in your life.

ENGLISH IS NOT CHETTE'S FIRST LANGUAGE
THEY DON'T OWN CCS

CHANGES IN MY LIFE
Chapter 10: Nadeshiko Kinomoto
by: Chette (ChanChan) and Mosasi

"Onisan.. What if.. What if I tell you right now.. that I have accepted the Christian God... what will be your reaction?"

Touya looked puzzled at her; He didn't get it the first time. He thought Sakura was just joking. But when Sakura said the second time, He could only ask...

"Why?"

"Onisan..."

Touya was speechless; but Sakura could read her brother.

"Onisan... I am tired of this life. I wanted the peace-"

Touya smirked, "Peace? Do you want peace Sakura?" he asked, Sakura nodded. "Well don't become a Christian!" he yelled, Sakura frowned. "When you become a Christian... People will despise you.. will hate you. People will mock at you, people will laugh at you and call you a freak. So why become a Christian to gain peace?" he asked,

"Onisan..."

"You can change your life Sakura, even you don't become a Christian" he said, sitting on the couch. "I have a peace but I am not a Christian. And I saw many people... Christians who are having a hard time in their lives because of other people." he added,

"But Mom is a Christian" Sakura said, looking at her lap.

"Yeah and you don't know how much she suffered before," Touya said, gritting his teeth. "I don't buy her smiles. I know that every time she say 'I am fine Touya' she isn't. She kept crying and crying because she was despise by many people." he narrowed his eyes. "I hate mom for being humble; I hate mom for being like that" he said, then he turned to Sakura. "So I am telling you... that being a Christian sucks. You shouldn't. YOU SHOULDN'T become like MOM!"

"Demo.. Onisan..."

Touya grabbed Sakura arms, "You're a SORCERESS! That is so cool! Sakura! You're a sorceress like your friend the brat-"

"He is a Christian now..."

Touya let go of his sister, and stood up. "Then he is total freak. He chose this God who he can't see... than his magic?" he asked, then he looked meanly at Sakura. "And I don't want you go hanging on him, from now on" he said,

"Onisan"

Touya growled, "I am the brother here. This time I am in charge. I am through with the 'good brother thing'. I am too tired on that. This time I am in control of this house. So you and Cerberus will have to obey me" he said,

"O-Onisan.."

"And one more thing," Touya said, looking back at Sakura. "Cerberus said that the cards flew away. So it's up to you to take them back. As a Sorceress you can do it. Cards Mistress" he said,

"But-"

"No buts.. the world needs you Sakura, are you going to sacrifice the world because of your God?" he asked, Sakura tried to control her tears but she couldn't. "I am going to prepare dinner now" he said, frowning.

Li's Apartment...

Wei opened the door for his master; and bowed down. Syaoran entered and saw Meiling in her still.. sorceress clothes; smirking at him. "Xiaolang... what a good drama you've put earlier" she said,

"It is not my job" Syaoran said, then he tried to ignore Meiling as he was going upstairs. But he stopped and looked at her when she mention something about Sakura. He run towards her, and stood in front of her. "What do you mean? Did you hurt Sakura as well?" he asked,

"The Cards.. escaped the book... The Era of Cards Masters and Mistress is here; what are you going to do?" she asked, smirking.

"Yo-You.. This is impossible!" Syaoran growled, "You're not even a sorceress!" he yelled,

"Your Mother already saw the future; she knows you'll become like this Xiaolang..." she said, standing up and patted Syaoran's back. "That's why she gave me a little gift... a little magic to perform when you became like this"

Syaoran trembled, his mother knew...

"Yes... Aunt Yelan knew the future! So what are you going to do Xiaolang?" she asked,

If there's someone Syaoran is most afraid of... it is his mother. The Elder leader of the Li Clan. At first, he felt something terrible... unexplainable fear. Like someone is putting the world on his back, but as he closed his eyes and felt God's spirit. He relaxed. "Meiling... you can do that work for me, You're a LI.. and you can become the cards mistress" he said, smiling then he left Meiling, while she was bursting in anger.

School...

"SAKURA!! OHAYOU!" Syaoran said, smiling at her. He was so happy when he saw Sakura not using her motorbike. She was just walking slowly towards School; but still with her usual outfit minus those black accessories she used before.

Sakura blinked and saw Syaoran waving madly at her, She blushed and manage to wave back. Although she was still lost in thoughts; one look at Syaoran smiling at her like that, made her day.

"How are you?" Syaoran asked, now in front of Sakura.

"I am fine..." Sakura said, looking down.

Syaoran sense she wasn't okay. "Are you sure?" he asked, Sakura nodded. "Sakura... have you heard about the cards?" he whispered. Sakura nodded. "Well-"

"WELL! WELL! If it's the newly x-tian Syaoran Li!"

Syaoran and Sakura looked at the voice, it was one of the bullies of the school; Although Sakura's gang were not present. These gang were the second frightful gang in the school, and they are anti-Christians. There were rumors about how they tortures them and some backslided because of their insults and mocking.

"Yes I became one; do you have a problem with that?" he asked, blinking.

"And the Flower of the Sakura gang became one too?" asked the bully smirking.

"As a matter of fact-" (Syaoran)

"No." Sakura said, as fast as she could. Syaoran looked at Sakura. "I am not a Christian, why would I become one?" she asked, smiling. The people laughed for no reason at all. "But I have decided to change. Because I am just wasting my time as a bully" she said, smirking as she passed by the bully.

"Now that's Our flower!" said the bully, then he turned to Syaoran. "What about you? Do you denounce your relationship with your God?" he asked, holding a knife.

Syaoran felt as if his heart broke into pieces, his eyes didn't left Sakura.

"I am talking to you Midget!"

Syaoran looked at the Bully, "Why would I denounce my Relationship with my God? I am not a Coward just like the others" he said,

Sakura stop walking when she heard him; she clenched her fist.

"So I am telling you... that being a Christian sucks. You shouldn't. YOU SHOULDN'T become like MOM!"

Sakura bit her lower lip too, and resume her walk.

"Then you'll die!" said the bully. But before the Bully can attack Syaoran. Syaoran flew into the air. Everyone gasped; The bully blinked.

Syaoran didn't know why he floated. He looked down to see who was responsible for the thing. How boldly of him or her to do that.

"What's going on?" asked the Bully, frightened.

Syaoran gritted his teeth. He didn't felt God's presence but a black presence. "Whoever you are! Put me down! This isn't funny!" he yelled, then slowly he was being put down. The bullies got scared and left him. While the other people clapped their hands.

Syaoran didn't like this.

People started to walk towards the school; talking about Syaoran floating and the bully got scared of him.

Meiling appeared and smiled, "Ohayou Xiaolang" she said, singing.

"No thanks to you" Syaoran growled, Meiling!

Meiling smirked, "You don't like what I did?" she asked, "Because of me, they won't bother you anymore. Our Li Black Magic saved you. not your X-tian God."

"because you intervene!" Syaoran yelled, "Next time Meiling... don't ever ever used magic on me, you got it?"

Meiling frowned, "Even it will save your life?" she asked,

"Even it will save my life" Syaoran said, resuming his walk.

Classroom...

"Sakura-chan?"

Sakura looked at the voice, it was Tomoyo... her ex-best friend. She force herself to smile. "How are you doing?" she asked,

"No... I should be the one asking you that... How are you?" she asked, while her voice trembled.

"Recovering" Sakura said, putting her hands on her chin. "Recovering..." she murmured.

"Are you?" Tomoyo asked,

"28 percent" Sakura said, smiling again.

The door opened; it was Syaoran. But his face was tired.

"What happen to him?" Sakura asked, as Syaoran ignored her and went directly to his seat.

"He's been insulted, mock and laughed... because he is a Christian" Tomoyo said, frowning. "I don't get it... why people make a big deal when you're a Christian. I mean... when you're Buddhist.. catholic... Muslim... it's not a big deal for us... but when you're a Christian-"

Sakura saw something in her eyes; as she was talking. "I never ask you this, but what are you Tomoyo?" Sakura asked, "Are you a Buddhist?"

Tomoyo blushed, then she sighed. "I am a Christian... but I don't tell anyone." she said, sighing. "Because I am a coward... just like what Li-kun said earlier"

Sakura slowly nodded, "Oh yeah.. my mom is a Christian... as well... and so your mom is a Christian too?" Sakura asked, Tomoyo nodded. "Well-"

"LI-KUN!"

Sakura and Tomoyo saw the clown of the class "Takashi Yamazaki"

"CHEER UP LI-KUN! I am with you!" he yelled, Syaoran blinked. "I admire your bravery in Christianity even I am not a Christian." he said, smiling. Syaoran smiled. "Did you know that Christianity came from the word Christ followers? It was also use in Christ-mas. Because it is the Birth of Jesus Christ." he said, "and Christmas is almost approaching!"

"More Lies Yamazaki?" Chiharu asked, sighing.

Tomoyo smiled, "No Chiharu-chan.. its the truth" she said, smiling.

All of them looked at Tomoyo, while Syaoran blinked at her.

"How did you know?" Chiharu asked,

"I am a book reader remember?" Tomoyo said, nervously. Syaoran narrowed his eyes at her.

"And then Jesus and Santa Claus became friends; Santa Claus loves to give gifts to Jesus Christ every Christmas. But Jesus Christ told Santa Claus that the best gift he can received every Christmas is when Santa Claus give gifts to the small children all around the world! and so Rudolf-"

"Oh and that's a lie" Tomoyo giggled,

All of them sighed, as Yamazaki continued his story.

It maybe a lie but he eased the pain in my heart... Syaoran thought looking at him. "arigato..." he whispered,

Canteen...

When Syaoran entered the canteen; everyone avoided him. He felt so out of place. But it didn't matter to him. He knew that being a Christian will get you emotionally tired and it's in the process. But he didn't know that it will be hard like this. Although he endured thousands of pain in training; this isn't anything but that.

But His mind was set. If he can endure that training; then he can endure this.

"Li-kun?"

Syaoran was to eat his lunch, when he saw Tomoyo smiling at him; pointing at the seat in front of him. Syaoran blushed for no reason but nodded.

"How are you?" Tomoyo asked,

"I am fine" Syaoran said, resuming eating.

"You have to endure a lot of pain. I admire your bravery." she said, looking at her lap. Syaoran just ignored her; Tomoyo smiled, "Don't worry Li-kun... I understand you. I am not like them" she said, "as a matter of fact.. I want to give you this" she said, putting an old white notebook at the desk. Syaoran eyes widened when he saw the name 'Nadeshiko Kinomoto'. He grabbed it quickly and looked at her. "I know you're wondering why give it to you, and not Sakura-chan... but you need it more than Sakura, even it was her mom's notebook." she said, sighing. "And then when you are through... give it to Sakura and she'll learn more from it" she said, smiling.

Syaoran quickly ate his lunch to spear time to read the old notebook. Now he has 30 minutes to scanned the notebook; after he finished his lunch, he run towards the school garden and read the notebook. It is truly Sakura Mom's book, He remembered Little Sakura showing him her mom's handwriting and how she said she wanted to be just like her mother. As he flipped the notebook, he found out it was Nadeshiko's scratch book and Diary at the same time.

A friend of God
You are called to be My Child.
Called out of the world to
know and to Love me.
Commit yourself to me and
I shall set my love on you,
Together with all the blessings
and Favor you desire.
Then will our Love and friendship
grow deeper and you shall surely know
What it is to be loved by me.
- Father God

Then Syaoran turned on the next page and read the verses. "Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If anyone love the world, the love of the Father is not in him. (1 John 2:15)" Syaoran then looked at the next verse and read, "friendship with the world is enmity with God (James 4:4)"

So Sakura's Mother is a Christian...

After a week...

Syaoran did his best to look for a Christian Church to grow. It was impossible at first but he found one. It was overwhelming. The people were so hospitable and only after two days; he became a part of the Christian church. That week also, he's been observing Sakura who changed so fast. From a Flower Gang to a Cheerful High school girl. But still... denying that she is a Christian. While Meiling kept her distance from him; but he is still on guard with her because he knew that she was planning something. As for the Clow cards that escaped the book; It's been days... searching one of them. Cerberus and Sakura kept looking for them. But the cards aren't active so they just wait for the cards to attack and put them back in the book.

Syaoran as usual, was eating alone in the canteen reading his Bible. While receiving many murmurs and smirked. His popularity went down and became a laughingstock at school. But he didn't care. Sakura Mom's Notebook gave him strength to face them. As he was about to flipped another page. He heard Sakura's voice laughing again at the other table. He looked at her and frowned. God... how can I make her come to You? Then he resume reading the Bible and blinked at the words. Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching.

Syaoran blinked at the word again and looked at Sakura; God had spoken so he had to do something about this.

"Hi!"

Sakura almost jumped when someone touched her shoulder during P.E. Class. She turned around and saw Syaoran smiling at her. What does he want? She force herself and greeted him back.

"How are you?" he asked, sitting beside her. "We're you ok?" he added,

"My Life is getting better," she corrected. "But I guess I should thank you for changing my life" she added, giving him a polite smile. Syaoran shakes his head, as she expected. The worst is yet to come. She knew that he'll soon ask her about Christianity or even invite her to church. She saw Syaoran been running around; inviting people to attend his church.

"Why not thank Him by coming on our Bible study later?" he asked, smiling.

Shoot... She knows. She knows... he'll say that. She bit her lip, not sure what to say. She felt so uncomfortable. "Um.. I am not interested..." she said, looking down. An awkward moment passed between them. She remembered Touya saying something like

They'll Invite you because they want to make Church members. Bring them into the folds and make you suffer. Aren't Church people all the same?

When Syaoran opened his mouth, she braced herself; and started to think of a way to talk back or any excuse or reasons if he pressed on the topic. Also she felt a twinge of frustration. Why couldn't church people mind their own business? Wasn't it enough that I have accepted Jesus and just go on with my life? Yeah right I do deny that I am a Christian. But I AM a Christian. I am saved. So God should just love me the way I am right? without doing these stuff and stuff and stuff- Her thought interrupted when Syaoran begun to speak.

"Okay. Well.. I'll see you around." he said, standing up and giving her a friendly side. "If you need a friend... I'll just be around" he said, and left her. There's something in his voice. Sadness? A twinge of regret? Pity? She doesn't know but she sure doesn't like it and if she could take back her words and come with him... She'll sure do it.

... and My God! God is really a very Persistent God. Because as the Last bell rang; and everyone exits the school grounds. She received a letter with an address from a running Syaoran.

"Sakura! I hope you can catch up on our Bible Meeting! It will be so much fun!" he said, waving on her.

"I told you I am not interested!" Sakura growled,

Syaoran stopped, he isn't far away from her. "Well I didn't mean to offend you... but I hope... I really hope you can come. That's the Church address" he said, smiling. Then he left the school.

"You should go"

Sakura blinked and saw Tomoyo, walking up behind her. "So that you won't feel empty anymore" she said, smiling at her.

"So that you won't feel empty anymore"

Sakura stared at the Church entrance. She looked at the address once more at the paper and sighed; Why did I came here? What made me come here?

"So that you won't feel empty anymore"

"Because of Tomoyo's words..." she sighed, "I better go back. I don't belong here." she said, but she jumped a little when she turned around because she felt someone's presence.

"HI! I am so glad you made it!" Syaoran smiled at her, his eyes were shinning.

Sakura blushed, Syaoran smile always make her heart beat fast. "Um.. I can't stay" she said, trembling.

Syaoran gave her a puzzled look. "Why is that?" he asked,

"Because I-" Sakura had to think of an excuse.. fast. "B-Because.." she saw Syaoran's bible. "I don't have a Bible!" she said, then she laughed nervously.

Syaoran chuckled and grabbed her hand; making Sakura blushed more. "Don't Worry! I am sure we can find one for you inside the Church" he said,

"B-But-"

Sakura tried to hide her discomfort as they entered the Church. There were some Introductions and some people knew her by Nadeshiko; she heard many wonderful words of her Mother which made her almost cry. When she took her seat; The pastor smiled at her and gave her a Bible.

A few more minutes...

She truly felt so uncomfortable. As she gaze around; people were writing something in their Notebooks. Her hands were shaking. She had a trouble concentrating. Even though the atmosphere was totally friendly. She felt she doesn't belong there. The Message is all about God's Love. His Love for all the people, even to those people who don't know Him; or don't want Him. He loves them truly. She glanced at Syaoran who was sitting on the other row listening seriously at the discussion.

"So what do you think of the text?" asked the Pastor.

Syaoran raised his hand, and stood up. "It's about Unconditional Love. People love people because they are being loved. But when you have an enemy; you can't love your enemies. But God is different. He loves people even though people don't want Him. Even people despise him and denounce him" Syaoran smiled. the other Christians nodded, "God Loves us even we are dirty, sinners, and He forgives us... Although we have to remember that Love is a Give-and-take relationship. Even though God doesn't mind that He doesn't receives some Love... We have to Love Him because He loves us so much... He even gave Jesus... imagine... giving your only son... to save People. That's really an incredible Love." he said, then he accidentally looked at Sakura, "So.. I kind of wonder why people... doesn't want to be with Him?" he asked,

Sakura gasped, she felt defensive. Even though Syaoran didn't mention anyone and no one knew. She knew that she was the target.

Church Parking Lot...

"Hey.. Are you alright? Did I do something wrong?" Syaoran asked, catching up Sakura after the Bible Session.

Sakura turned on him, "I can't believe you did this. I thought you changed for the better" she said, trying to control her tears.

"I don't understand-"

"Oho! You don't?" Sakura asked, "I knew what you're trying to pull Mr. Li. So... what kind of recognition did you get after bringing me here?" she asked,

"What are you-"

"Stop the crap Syaoran. Just stop it" she said, turning back to leave.

Syaoran frowned and grabbed Sakura's hand. Sakura stopped; but she ignored Syaoran's hand on her hand for some weird reason she didn't snapped on him, "I don't understand. Please calm down and explain everything to me" he said, "Please Sakura-"

Sakura felt her tears fell, "What was the reason why you invite me in this Bible session? To show everyone that you invited someone? And then.. when you were explaining... YOU LOOK AT ME! As if I am your target!" she yelled,

Syaoran sighed, "I accidentally looked at you because I felt your eyes on me... But I am not implying anything" he said, "So if you-"

"Just stop. Ok? Just let me go with my own Life. I am a Christian; but I won't be like you." Sakura said, looking down.

Syaoran let go of her hand, "I don't know... what I did wrong. Honestly. But I am sorry... for hurting you. I don't know that was the message. But if I knew... " his voice trailed. Sakura waited for him to answer. "I thought... you'll have fun and I-"

That's it. Sakura growled, "Well I've got news for you. I didn't had fun" she said, "I was humiliated-"

"No you did not. It was your own Conscience" Syaoran said, clenching his fist. "or perhaps... you were convicted-"

Sakura snapped, "Go to hell Syaoran Li" she growled.

Syaoran stepped back, shocked at her last words. Then his shoulder dropped. Sakura left him without looking back, her emotions careening back and forth between disappointment and hurt.

Kinomoto's House...

Sakura burst out, without greeting. She went straightly to her bed, and cried. Touya blinked and told Cerberus to check on her and told her about the Cards news.

"Sakura-chan, we spotted the firey card on the third street and you have to-"

"Go 'way..." she said, crying.

"But Sakura-chan"

"Please.. Kero-chan.. (sobs) I want to be (sobs) alone" she said,

Cerberus sighed and didn't have a choice but to leave her.

"Damn you Syaoran... Damn you..." she cried so much. A few more minutes she sat up and grabbed her bag to get her towel. When she realized that she didn't returned the Bible she used. She sighed and took it out. Then she put the Bible on her bed and put in her mind that she will give it back to Syaoran tomorrow and never come back to that Church again. She grabbed the towel and wiped her tears. Accidentally her feet moved and the Bible fell down on her floor. She growled. Talk about pain. When she picked the Bible, her eyes widened and trembled. She saw the name of the owner of the Bible. She wiped her tears and cleared her vision to see if she's not hallucinating.

The Owner of the Bible she used was her... Mom

Nadeshiko Kinomoto.

To be Continued..

ChanChan: Ahh.. Mother's know best... I suddenly missed my Mom. But yeah what was Nadeshiko Role in this story now? Find out on the next update of the story. For the people who still reads this... Thank you so much and God bless! For those who don't like the story, its okay no harm done. Just respect my decision to write this story.

This is an alternate universe.

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GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU!!