You don’t know

You don’t understand

You can’t imagine

So don’t pretend

Never ending guilt

Consumes me

Regrets of my past

Who I used to be

Painful memories

Haunting my dreams

I can’t forget

The dead screams

It hurts

It’s hard

Living my life

Forever scarred

A shadow lies

Around my heart

A darkness

Tearing me apart

Part of me is gone

The burning pain

Of loosing myself

Drives me insane

It torments me

That terrifying war

I’m different now

Than I was before

My family

Couldn’t accept

My change

The distance I kept

They asked me

If I was okay

They tried to reach me

But I pulled away

They gave up on me

Didn’t take them long

Thought I wouldn’t make it through

They were wrong

Everyday I fight

Making amends

For the lives I’ve taken

It never ends

I try my best

To make it through the day

Living with the things I did

Finding my way

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