|Wanting it All
Author: has3147 PM
When Abby realizes what she wants she won't settle for less. Slight McAbby in beginning, rest it Gabby.Rated: Fiction M - English - Romance/Angst - Leroy Jethro Gibbs & Abby S. - Chapters: 34 - Words: 42,712 - Reviews: 115 - Favs: 34 - Follows: 55 - Updated: 01-16-12 - Published: 02-29-08 - id: 4103110
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My second fanfic…still learning…reviews certainly help…hope you enjoy
He was excited about seeing her tonight. He thought it was time. Tonight, he was going to ask her to marry him. He'd bought the ring last week, and had made plans to surprise her tonight. He had it all worked out, she was going to be staying with him this weekend while they fixed the plumbing in her apartment. When she got there he would have the room filled with dim light, soft music, rose pedals and candles. He'd get down on his knee, hold her hand is his, confess his love and ask her to be his. It was perfect.
It was a conversation she knew she had to have, but in no way was looking forward to it. When he had asked her what time she was coming over tonight she saw the excitement in his eyes, and felt the pain in her heart. She knew she was going to hurt him. She thought all day about what to say, and how he'd react. She wanted to be gentle with him; she knew that he felt more for her than she did him, and she recently came to the realization that she could never love him the way that he loves her, and that just wasn't fair to either of them.
She knocked at the door still unsure of how to tell him that it wasn't working out for them anymore. He opened the door for her, and when she saw what he had done, she knew she had to end this now.
He put her hands in his and lovingly walked her into the center of his living room.
"Timmy, we need to talk" she said
"You're right, we do, but let me go first" he insisted
"Tim, I really think…." She was speechless when she looked up and realized he was down on his knee.
"Oh shit this going to hurt" she said to herself "Tim…I really need to talk to you…"
"Abby" he looked into her eyes ignoring what she just said "I love you and everything about you, will you make me the happiest man and be my wife?"
She hesitates and with a tear running down her cheek pulls him up to eye level and says "I can't"
"What…wait…Abby, what are you saying?"
Thinking to herself she wonders how she missed this, she didn't see it coming. "I'm saying I can't marry you, and you don't want me to."
"I wouldn't have asked you if I didn't want to"
"Look Tim, I love you, I do"
"Then what's the problem?"
"I don't love you like you love me. I love the friendship we have, and don't want to loose that, but I think that you deserve to be loved by someone who loves you like you do me. Tim, you are a wonderful man who will make a terrific husband someday, just not mine, and just not today.
"So that's it?" he says angrily
"I'm not trying to hurt you Tim, I realize that my timing is horrible, but I had no idea you were planning this, and I think that I should just go." With that, she turned and left his apartment.
He sat engulfed in his emotions for what seemed like hours when he realized that he needed her in his life even if it was just as friends. He picked up his phone to dial her number. She wasn't sure she wanted to pick it up, but did anyway.
"Abby, I've been thinking, and I've come to the conclusion that I need you to be a part of my life. If all you can give me is friendship, then I'll take it. It won't be easy and is going to take some time, but I'll take it."
"Really, I'd like that a lot Tim"
"I have an idea…I need to get away for a few days, I'm going to visit my parents for the weekend. Why don't you stay at my place while they finish the work in your apartment? I'd feel better if you were here rather than hold up in some hotel. What do you say?"
"I don't know, are you sure Tim?"
"Abby please, I'm sure. The key is in the normal place, I'm leaving very shortly, and I'll be back on Sunday, oh and don't worry about the mess, I'll take care of it when I come back."
"Ok, I'll be there in an hour or so, and thanks Tim"