One afternoon, Jackie and Hyde were sitting on the couch at home watching TV. Jackie was lying down on the couch with her feet resting on Hyde’s lap. He was massaging her feet gently. Jackie turned to him slowly and smiled.

”Steven…” She whispered.

He turned to her slowly. “Hm?”

”Do you think I will ever get my memory back?” She asked.

Hyde stopped rubbing her feet and he turned to look down at her. “Jackie why are you talking like that?”

Jackie sighed and sat up. “It’s just…it’s already been a few months and nothing has changed.”

”That’s not completely true. Sometimes things trigger your memory.” He said.

She nodded and pulled her legs up to her chest. “I know that. But I still feel like I’m walking in a daze sometimes. I want to be able to lead a normal life.”

Hyde sighed and scooted in closer to her and wrapped his arm around her, pulling her to him to kiss her head. “Baby you can lead a normal life.”

She wouldn’t meet his eyes so she just played with the patterns on his shirt with her finger. “Kind of. But I’ll have to relearn like everything! And I want to get a job but I don’t know how to do simple things. I feel so incompetent.” She said shaking her head.

Hyde sighed and lifted her chin with his finger. “Jackie look at me.” She sighed and her eyes fluttered open to look at him. “You are not incompetent. You had an accident but you’re going to be ok.”

She pouted. “Yes but-“

”Jackie everything is going to be alright. I promise.” He said kissing her cheek.

She tried to smile. “If you say so.”

He winked at her. “There’s my girl.”

Jackie lay back down and he continued to rub her feet. Hyde turned back to the TV and Jackie tried to concentrate but she was still thinking about their conversation. She wanted to believe him but part of her felt like she would be stuck in his confused state forever.

The next day, the gang was hanging out at the park. Hyde, Kelso and Eric were throwing a Frisbee around. Donna and Jackie were lying in the sun getting a tan while Fez watched girls run by.

“So how have things been at home?” Donna asked.

Jackie smiled. “Things have been good. Steven’s been great to me through all of this.”

Donna took of her sunglasses and turned to Jackie. “That’s because he loves you.”

Jackie blushed. “Donna please you are embarrassing me.”

Donna laughed. “Well it’s the truth.”

Jackie looked over at Hyde and bit her lip. “I know.” She looked back over at Donna. “Can I ask you something?”

Donna nodded. “Sure what’s on your mind?”

”Well…you know how Steven cheated on me before?” She asked.

Donna stared at her for a second. “Yes. I remember.”

”Why do you think that he did it?” She asked.

Donna saw look on her face. “Jackie why are you asking me that?”

”I just want to know. Why do you think he did it?” She asked again.

Donna sighed. “I think he did it because he was scared.”

”Scared? Scared of what?” She asked.

“He had never been in that kind of a relationship before. It was so intense…and he’d never been in love before. And then you weaseled your way into his stone cold heart my friend. And you changed his life forever…” She said shrugging. “And he was terrified when he saw you with Kelso. He thought he lost you…he wanted to hurt you before you could hurt him.” He said.

Jackie looked over at Hyde. “He’s been through a lot hasn’t he?”

Donna nodded. “Yeah he really has. But you were the best thing that ever happened to him.”

Jackie smiled. “You really think so?”

Donna nodded. “Jackie if it wasn’t for you…Hyde would have ruined his life along time ago. But you make him a better person.”

Jackie just turned to Hyde. “I just wish I could remember it all.”

Donna patted her arm. “You will.”

Jackie turned to Donna. “I hope so-“

”Look out!” Kelso screamed as a Frisbee came colliding with Jackie’s head.

“Ow!” Jackie said holding onto her head.

Everyone came running over to her. “Jackie are you ok?” Donna asked.

“You idiot!” Hyde yelled punching his arm.

Jackie was lying on the ground rubbing her head. “Ow…”

Hyde kneeled over her. “Jackie look at me. Are you alright?”

Jackie felt woozy. “Ow…what the hell?”

Hyde helped her sit up. “Jackie…Jackie do you know who you are?”

Jackie stared at him for a moment. “What? Of course I remember who I am. I’m Jackie freakin Burkhart. And you’re my asshole boyfriend who was grinding with some girl on your father’s table. What the hell am I doing here?” She asked.

Hyde turned to Donna. “What?”

”Jackie what is the last thing you remember?” Donna asked.

”Like I just said, Steven being an asshole and being all up in that girl and telling me to leave. I got in my car…and now I’m here. What the hell happened?” She asked.

”Jackie you lost your memory.” Fez said. “You’ve been pretty out of it for the last few weeks.”

Jackie rubbed her head. “I lost my memory?”

Hyde touched her arm. “Baby you had us so worried.”

Jackie looked at his hand on her arm and pulled away. “Don’t touch me.”

Hyde’s heart started beating harder. “Jackie…”

”Don’t touch me!” She yelled. “Just get away from me.”

Donna stared at Hyde. “Jackie I think I should take you to the hospital to check your head out.” She said.

Jackie stood up slowly, swaying. “Fine. But I don’t want him to come.”

Hyde stood up and tried to reach for her. “Jackie please don’t do this.”

She glared at him. “Steven it’s not my fault that you can be such an ass. Now I’m already confused enough. Just leave me alone because you’ll only make this worse. You always do.”

Hyde stopped dead in his tracks and watched Donna and Fez walk Jackie over to the car. “Fuck…”

Kelso patted his back. “I’m sorry man. I shouldn’t have thrown it like that.”

Hyde shook his head. “I didn’t even think about what would happen when she got her memory back.”

Kelso stared at him for a moment. “I thought you wanted her to get her memory back.”

”Well I did. I mean I’m happy…I just forgot the fact that she would still hate me when she got her memory back.” He said.

”Well are you going to go follow her to the hospital?” He asked.

Hyde looked at him. “Can I?”

”Well yes…but I don’t think she will be too happy.” He said.

”Crap. Let’s go.” Hyde said running to the El Camino.

At the hospital, the doctors had Jackie set up in her own room. She had a bump on her head where the Frisbee had hit her and she did not look happy. Donna was sitting next to her.

”Jackie are you ok?” Donna asked.

”I’m confused. How did I loose my memory?” She asked.

”Well after you got into that fight with Hyde…you got in your car and you left. You were pretty drunk so you got into a car accident. You hit your head pretty hard so you lost your memory for awhile.” She said.

”How long?” She asked.

”A few months.” Donna said.

Jackie put her head in her hands. “What’s been going on?”

”Well you stayed with the Foreman’s for awhile and then you moved back in with Hyde.” She said.

”Wait…I’ve been with that jackass?” She asked.

”Jackie he’s been working really hard to make it up to you.” Donna said.

”Of course he was. Because he felt guilty. Steven always asks like a jackass, especially when he is drunk and then he does something stupid. Then he tries to act like a complete sweetheart and suck up to me. I fall for it and then he does something stupid again.” She said shaking her head. “I can’t do this anymore Donna. It’s not fair.”

”Jackie…I think you need to talk to Hyde.” She said.

Jackie shook her head. “I have nothing to say to him.” She said biting her lip.

“Come on Jackie I know you love him.” She said standing up to walk over to her.

”Of course I love him. But I can’t live like this.” She said.

The door opened slowly and Hyde peeked in. “Jackie…”

Jackie sighed. “Steven I told you I didn’t want you to come.”

He walked in the room. “Jackie did you really expect me not to come see how you were?”

Jackie turned away from him. “Why do you care?”

Hyde’s face fell. “Jackie you know I love you.”

She raised an eyebrow. “That’s debatable.”

Hyde stepped closer to her and looked at Donna. “Donna can we have a minute?”

Donna nodded. “I’ll be right outside.”

Hyde walked over to Jackie and he sat down on the side of her bed. “I know I was s jerk form what you can remember.”

”Donna told me about how great you’ve been since I lost my memory. But I don’t remember any of that and from what I can remember I don’t want to see you right now.” She said turning away from him.

”Jackie please…I love you. What I did was wrong but I’m getting better now. I’m going to AA meetings and it’s really helping.” He said.

Jackie sighed and shook her head. “Steven I just can’t look at you right now.”

”So what are you saying?” He asked.

”I think that maybe we should take some time apart.” She said swallowing the lump in her throat.

Hyde took off his sunglasses and stared at her for a moment. “You want to take a break?”

”Yes. I think it would be for the best.” She said looking down.

”How would us breaking up be for the best?” He asked angrily.

”Steven I’m lying in a hospital bed because I was in an accident…and I got into an accident because you broke my heart.” She said.

”Don’t you think I know that? I’ve been beating myself up for months about this. I feel so guilty about it because I know it is my fault but I love you Jackie and I’m not going to let you slip away.” He said standing up.

Jackie just stared at him. “Steven I think that you should leave.”

”Jackie you don’t mean that. I know you…” He said.

”Steven I honestly need this break. I mean I just found out I’ve been completely out of it for the last few months and I’m a bit confused. Right now I need to figure out what I’m doing with my life before I can decide if we should stay together or not.” She said afraid to meet his eyes.

”Jackie don’t do this.” He pleaded with her.

”Steven I’m just really confused and conflicted right now. I really need you to just leave me alone.” She said.

”We live together. Were supposed to be together and work through things.” He said.

”And you were supposed to stop drinking Steven but you didn’t. And now look where we are.” She said.

Hyde bowed his head in shame. “I told you I’m getting help.”

”That still doesn’t change what happened Steven. I love you more than life itself but it isn’t fair to me to live like this.” She said. “Steven I could have died!”

Hyde felt the tears in his eyes. “I know that! God I know that and I was so scared but you are here now.” He said holding her hand tightly so she couldn’t pull away. “I love you and I want to be with you. But if you push me away it won’t do either of us any good.”

”But it’s what I want.” She whispered. “Please Steven…I need a break from…”

”From me.” He whispered.

She looked down and wiped a tear form her face. “Yes. From you.”

Hyde swallowed hard. “Fine. I’ll give you your break but I want you to know that this doesn’t change how I feel about you. I’m going to be here when you realize that were supposed to be together.”

She nodded. “I hope you are.”

Hyde looked at her once more. “I’ll get my stuff and move it out.”

She bit her lip. “Thank you.”

He was at the door, his hand o n the handle but he stopped. He turned on his heel and walked over to Jackie and stared directly into her eyes. Jackie looked scared at first not sure what he was going to do. He licked his lips and before she could say anything, his lips were on hers in the most delicate, beautiful kiss she had ever felt. Her eyes fluttered shut and she gripped his arm as he made love to her lips softly with his own. But the kiss was over before it started and Hyde pulled back to stare at her.

”I love you Jackie. Please don’t forget that…” With that he turned again and headed out the door without turning back again.

Jackie sat in her bed and pulled her knees up to her chest and started to cry. She heard the door open again but she didn’t lift her head. Donna walked over to her bed and held her close.

”Oh Jackie…” She whispered. “What happened?”

Jackie lifted her tear strained face. “I told him I needed a break.”

Donna rubbed her back. “Is that what you really want?”

Jackie sighed. “I think it’s for the best.”

”Yes but is it what you want?” She asked again.

Jackie rubbed her forehead. “Donna I just found out that I haven’t had my memory for the past several months. And the last thing I remember is weeks of Steven and I fighting non stop about his drinking and our issues. I’m so confused and upset I need sometime to just think things over.”

”But do you love him?” Donna asked.

Jackie rolled her eyes. “Of course I love him! God Donna stop pushing me! Don’t you think this is already hard enough for me?”

Donna nodded her head and backed off. “You’re right. I’m sorry.”

Jackie sighed. “When can I get out of here?”

”The Doctor’s want you to stay the night but you are free to come home tomorrow.” She said.

”Steven is moving out.” Jackie whispered.

”Where’s he going to go?” Donna asked.

Jackei shrugged. “I didn’t ask. DO you think the Foreman’s would let him move back in?”

”Well I’m sure they would but I don’t think Hyde will want that.” She said. “He’s too proud for that.”

Jackie put her head in her lap again. “God this is such a mess.”

Donna rubbed her back. “It’s going to be ok.” She said rubbing her friends back.

Back at the apartment, Hyde was packing his things up into boxes and bags. Zeppelin was playing in the background so he could barely hear the soft knock on the door. He walked over to it to answer it and saw Kitty standing on the other side. He smiled weakly and moved aside to let her in.

”Come on in.” Hyde said.

Kitty smiled and walked in and surveyed the scene. “Donna called. She told me what happened. I figured I should come see how you were holding up.”

Hyde scratched the back of his head and took a deep breath. “Well I’m happy that Jackie got her memory back…but she wants me to leave so…that kind of sucks.”

Kitty put her coat and her bag down. “Well maybe Jackie just needs sometime to figure this all out.”

Hyde nodded. “That’s what she said.”

”Steven I know that girl loves you. I think that she’s just feeling pretty vulnerable right now. Give her sometime…I’m sure it will all work out.” She said.

Hyde sat down on the arm of the couch. “What if it doesn’t? What if Jackei realizes she can do better and moves on without me Mrs. Foreman? I love Jackie more than anything and if she decides that it is completely over between us…I honestly don’t know what I will do.”

Kitty walked over to him and put a hand on his shoulder. “She loves you.”

”Maybe that’s not enough anymore. I mean Jackei could have died…and it would have been all my fault.” He said.

Kitty leaned forward and hugged the boy she considered to be her son. “Steven…you are getting help.”

”But I hurt the one person who has ever loved me.” He whispered.

Kitty pulled back. “We all make mistakes Steven.”

”But this wasn’t just any mistake. I endangered Jackie’s life…if she had died…I would have killed myself.” He said honestly.

”She’s alive.” She said lifting his face. “She’s alive and she’s going to be fine. And once Jackei takes sometime to herself…she’s going to realize that you’ve changed and she will want you back.”

”I really hope you are right.” He said.

Kitty patted his shoulder. “Come on…I’ll help you pack and then you can come home with me.”

Hyde sighed. “Do you really think that Red will be ok with that?”

”Yes. Red loves you like a son. You can stay with us for as long as you need too.” She said.

Hyde nodded. “Thanks. I think I’ll just stay until I find a place of my own.”

Kitty nodded. “Like I said…you can stay as long as you need too.”

The next day, Donna came to pick Jackie up at the hospital. The Doctor’s had given Jackie some pills to take care of any headaches. They told her that she should have a full recovery but she may experience some short term memory loss at times. Donna drove her over to the apartment and they walked in just as Hyde was about to leave.

”Hey…” Hyde said. “I didn’t think you guys would be back so early.”

Jackie took a deep breath. “Oh it’s ok…”

Donna looked at them both. “I’m going to run down to my car to get your other bag. It will give you a chance to talk.” She said as she left.

The door shut and Jackie turned to Hyde. “Did you get everything?”

He nodded. “Yeah this is my last bag.”

Jackie nodded. “Oh ok.”

”Is it ok that you are staying here by yourself?” He asked.

”Well Donna is going to stay for a few days.” She said.

Hyde nodded. “That’s good.”

She smiled weakly. “It is…”

”Oh um…your boss called to see how you were. I guess Mrs. Foreman had called to say you got your memory back. They said your job is still available and you are welcome to go back at anytime.” He said.

Jackei nodded. “That’s great. Thanks.”

”Yeah I know you loved that job so you should go back when you are ready.” He said.

She set her bag down. “Steven?”

He looked at her for a moment. “Yeah?”

”Where are you going to go?” She asked quite concerned.

“The Foreman’s are letting me stay with them until I find a new place. I was going to look into the spare room next to Groove’s. The guy just moved out there so it would be pretty convenient.” He said.

Jackie nodded. “That’s good. I didn’t mean to inconvenience you…I just…”

”I know. Don’t worry about it.” He said.

”I uh…there’s something I wanted to say to you at the hospital yesterday.” She said looking down.

Hyde walked closer to her. “What is it?”

”Steven…I’m glad you are getting help.” She said cocking her head to the side.

He smiled. “I’m doing it for you. For us…” He said reaching for her hand.

Jackie felt the tears coming again. “Steven I can’t do this….”

“Jackei I’ve never worked hard for this relationship. But I am now…you are the one that I want to be with. I know that you need time…but please…don’t make this permanent.” He whispered.

Jackie looked up at him and she tried to hold in her sobs. “This isn’t easy for me…”

”Then don’t do it.” He whispered leaning her forehead against hers.

”I have too…” She whispered closing her eyes.

Hyde pulled her closer. “I know you are confused but I won’t hurt you again…”

”Steven you’ve said that all before.” She said crying harder.

”I know I have. But I mean it this time…” He whispered. “You’re it for me.”

”Steven I think you should leave.” She whispered. “If you don’t I’m going to lose my nerve.”

Hyde cracked a sad smile. “That’s kind of what I’m going for.”

She laughed sadly. “Steven this is the way it has to be…” She whispered. “I’m sorry…”

”But how long is this going to last?” He asked.

Jackie pushed him back. “Steven don’t ask me that…I don’t know ok?”

”Jackie I need to ask because I’m freaking out here.” He said.

”Steven the last thing I remember…is you grinding with some girl and calling me a bitch. Whatever happened between us when I didn’t have my memory doesn’t really count because now I don’t remember it and you were basically taking advantage of me.” She said bitterly.

Hyde stared at her. “You think I was taking advantage of you?”

”Either that or you were trying to butter me up because you felt guilty.” She said crossing her arms.

”Come on Jackie…” He said.

“Steven what if I hadn’t gotten my memory back? What if I had lived like that forever?” She asked.

”I don’t know ok? I don’t know.” He said. “I can say I’m sorry a million times but I don’t if that will do any good because obviously you don’t believe me.”

”Steven I don’t know what to believe right now ok? I’m confused and I’m hurt. I just want you to leave me alone so I can figure this out on my own.” She said walking towards their bedroom and away from him.

”And I’m willing to give you your space but I just have one question.” He said.

”What is it?” She asked trying to stay strong.

”What good is this space going to do?” He asked.

”What do you mean?” She asked biting her lip.

“What good will this space do? Don’t you know that it’s always going to be you and me? Even if you meet some other guy and tell me that you are in love with him…I’ll know the truth Jackie. You’re scared. I get that. And you have every right to be scared…but it’s always going to be me and you. Jackie and Hyde…that’s just the way it is.” He said.

Jackie turned away from him. “Says who?”

”Can you honestly tell me that you don’t love me?” He asked.

”Of course I love you Steven. I never denied that.” She said.

”Right. But you and I have been through way to much for it to just end like this. That is how I know that it will always be me and you.” He said. “No matter where you go you’re always going to love me. And I’m going to be here waiting for you when you realize that.”

Jackie stared at him for a moment. “Steven I…” She paused. “I don’t know what you want me to say.”

He shook his head and walked over to her and took her hands. “I don’t want you to say anything. I just want you to understand that I’m not giving up on us…I’m going to be right here for you when you are ready to come back to me.” He leaned forward and kissed her forehead. “I love you Jackie Burkhart…and I know you love me too.”

He walked over to the door and picked up his bag and he turned to smile at her. “Enjoy your space…” He whispered. “I hope you find what it is you are looking for.”

When the door closed Jackie shut her eyes and then walked back to the bedroom. She looked at the bed that she had shared with Steven before the accident and she ran over to it and pulled off all the sheets, blankets and pillows and threw them all around. She started to cry and she lay down on the bare mattress to curl up into a ball. She was more confused than ever…

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