Thanx for all the lovely reviews!
Please bear with me! This is the first time I'm doing a M rated story (don't hate me) and you know it's kinda hard cuz I followed a friends (itachisgurl) advice and began to think about some of my most fun moments for reference, only to find that I was too drunk to really remember what was going on . . . so I'm working mainly with sudden flashbacks here!

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Techno Song of the Week!

Trance Energy X-mix by DJ Tiesto
I highly recommended! It's a great song to have during any rave!

WARNING: RATED M! WARNING: RATED M! WARNING: RATED M! WARNING: RATED M!
Naruto belongs to Masashi Kishimoto

Aka Suna
Chapter 4: The Dope Show
by: Rhed

There's lots of pretty, pretty ones
Who wanna get you high
But all the pretty, pretty ones
Will leave you lone, and blow your mind
The Dope Show - Marilyn Manson

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Do you know what it's like to be confined to a hospital bed surrounded by four white walls? To know that no parents will visit you to tell you you're gonna be okay? With nothing to feel but your own misery - your own self pity, and with no direct contact with anyone other than a nurse or doctor who comes to check in on you every hour to make sure you didn't find a way to kill yourself. . .

My life has been a complete mess . . . I was in five different institutions by the time I was sixteen. The doctors realized I had emotional problems, and made sure to pack me with 'happy' pills that only helped depression and suicidal thoughts grow . . . the inevitable finally happened. . . .

It's in those moments that you learn many things about yourself and about the world . . . I realized that loneliness is the worst kind of pain imaginable, and that I was hopelessly alone . . . Even death was better than this miserable feeling.

Itachi came back and got custody of me, we moved to Konoha. Itachi saw this as a time for renewal, a time in which we could have another chance at making things right, a new chance where he would never leave me to suffer alone. . . Those were just words. . .

Problems at school kept Itachi busy throughout his last year at law school. Not only did he have to worry about his own classes, I was constantly picking fights, or I wouldn't show up to school. Pressure was building up on him and our fights began.

My trips to night clubs and bars began to increase each week. I was looking for some way to get rid of the memories, of the problems at home, of my own self. My relief took the form of a woman with an icy stare. Her name was Konan and she became my supplier.

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One day . . . twenty four hours . . . one thousand, four hundred and forty minutes . . . eighty-six thousand, four hundred seconds . . . ONE DAY . . . this was the longest I've lasted without it . . . How did it feel? I couldn't breathe, I couldn't stop shaking, I felt cold, paranoid, my body felt like it was shattering . . . I couldn't take it anymore, so I grabbed my cellphone and dialed .

An hour later, I was in front of Akatsuki, the biggest dance club in town, two bouncers and a girl with long black hair waited for me at the entrance.

"Konan's expecting you." Kin, lover of short dresses that left little to the imagination, greeted me happily, her eyes were puffy and red. She lead me inside, and left in search of Konan, about five minutes later she came back. Following Kin was Konan, the woman many men wished they had and couldn't get. She was regal, smart and dangerous.

"Kin, go get Sasuke something to drink, Hidan, Kakuzu leave us." Konan commanded, the brunette nodded and immediately left. The two other guys behind Konan, walked away and stood guard. "I missed you, sweety!"

"We need to talk - "

"Not quitting on me are you?" She whispered dangerously as she kissed me, "Because Daddy would not be pleased."

One of the most well respected man in Konoha was also the most dangerous in the nightlife, he supplied his dealers with only the best, and with that, quickly rose to the top . . . She called him Daddy, everyone else called him Sir. I, never being one to play by the rules, called him by his name, Orochimaru.

Her family was the real thing, whatever you looked for they provided. He was the ruler of the streets and she was his hunter looking for new prey . . . and that's how they got me hooked into their world. According to her, he had taken a liking to me, and would always get what I asked him at no charge, in exchange of spreading his merchandise at schools of course.

"You know it would break Daddy's heart if you left us." Konan continued, I shot her a glare as she pulled me to a different table. Hidan and Kakuzu stood guard a short way away. "I want something stronger than the usual."

She smirked and from the bottom of her seat, pulled out a box, before handing me several pills, "New E pills. I guarantee they'll make you feel like heaven . . . Are you staying? I had a surprise planned out for you." She winked as Kin came back to us and handed me my drink. Konan smiled wider and pulled me to the dance floor as I popped a pill in my mouth and followed it with the tangy vodka mix.

Drowning myself in alcohol always helped past the time until the effects began to build. After a while, everything around me began to spin, my vision began to get slightly distorted. I felt as if time was suspended, all aches and pains began to vanish, this wonderful feeling began to consume me whole. The trance song playing made everything even better! Ecstasy was always a favorite of mine, but this time it was more enjoyable, more addicting!

I felt at peace and energetic, all worry and insecurity gone in a flash. I gaze into Konan's eyes as she got closer to me, she moved fast with the music . . . I felt like nothing bad in the world could happen to me at that moment. I began to get aroused, an a single touch from Konan drove me wild, she popped another pill in my mouth with a kiss and pulled me away from the crowd and through the nearest exit, where she had parked her car. I can't remember exactly how we managed to get to her apartment in one piece. The next thing I knew was sittin on her bed, a syringe in hand as I pricked my arm, injecting heroin into my system. I passed it to Konan, she did the same before pulling me back down to her bed.

She began to unbutton my shirt before successfully throwing it aside while I did the same to her dress. Her hands roamed around, her kisses left my mouth as she moved downward, unzipping my jeans and pulling them down along with my boxer shorts. Every single touch was enhanced as my senses blared ten times more intense. With wet lips she began bob her head slowly in and out before sucking, she went slow then fast, it was exhilirating. One thing was for certain, the girl could deep-throat and had me cumming almost instantly.

I pulled her up against me, sucking on the crook of her neck, with one hand I began to rub her clit, she held on to me harder, her loud moans began pushing me to the edge, "Do it!" she commanded breathlessly as she came, I pinned her to her back and with a thrust entered her. She screamed in pleasure. Our bodies writhed against each other, "HARDER!" Konan moaned loudly, as I thrusted in and out faster, she was screaming in pleasure, as she wrapped her legs around my waist, her arms around my neck. I grinded my hips into her as she screamed before I was moving out and entering again, pushing in a beat until I could push no further.

Her icy eyes, bore into my own, she moaned "Faster!"

For some reason I thought of Naru, and suddenly everything felt better, more enjoyable. Konan screamed louder in bliss, I came shortly after.

"So who's Naru?" Konan panted from next to me, I stared at her slightly confused.

"What?"

"You called me Naru." Konan exclaimed thoughtfully. "Up for another round? I can give you the best time - "

I called her Naru? "Sorry I - I have to leave." I muttered as I began to get dressed, she threw me a box and when I looked at her questioningly, she smiled, "A present for your services." I opened the box, more syringes and pills, I grabbed them and walked out.

. . . . Just like all the others before her. They all promised the best night with them but in the end, they were all the same. . . I wanted something different, something more than just a one night stand with loose women.

I smirked my head was foggy, I felt disoriented and cold, but the feeling was still there. . . that feeling you get when you try it. . . it's as if you're in heaven, all my pain was gone and there was only this feeling like I was stuck with neverending adrenaline. Like you're not alone in the world.

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11: 30 am

Beep! Beep! Beep!

I groaned as I reached towards the alarm clock and pressed the snooze button before slowly sitting up on my bed. After leaving Konan's apartment I injected another dose of heroin, then everything became fuzzy. Euphoria ran throughout me like never before, nothing could beat that. I didn't remember how I had even gotten home, my cellphone vibrated in my pocket, as I reached for it, I stopped.

A deep sensation slowly traveled from the pit of my stomach to my throat in a rush, I stumbled all the way to my bathroom before vomiting harshly. Once I calmed down, I leaned against my door as I sat on the floor, shaking violently. I feel like I couldn't breathe, a cold sweat and chills crept up on me. My muscles felt sore and ached, I felt weak all of a sudden.

This is why I hated withdrawals . . . After a while of sitting on the floor, I summoned the little strength I had left and slowly got up, holding tight to everything around me. I opened the faucet and threw water in my face. I looked at myself in the mirror, I had lost a lot of weight this past month. My eyes had bags under them, my skin was pale, the black tracks on my arms were more noticeable than ever, the worst thing was that I couldn't stop doing it. If I did, I would be alone again. . . I would be helpless. . .

My cellphone rang, I reached into my pocket and answered.

"Hey Teme what are you doing?!" Naru's cheerful voice made me smile a bit.

"Why? Did you want to give up on our bet? Because I have some free time right now, we could - "

"Psh, in your wet dreams!" Naru laughed, "I want to go shopping with you!"

I dropped the phone as I doubled over in the toilet, another rush of vomit came.

"Hey asshole! Are you okay?" Naru's angelic voice echoed throughout my bathroom as I wretched harder. "I'm coming over then!"

Damn it.

I went back to my bed and layed down, pulling my covers all the way up. I did not feel good. . . whatever Konan had mixed it with, did not have a good effect on me. I slowly closed my eyes, I felt so tired, I began to drift off to sleep.

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Naru's POV

"Well I'll stay here until you get home then. Don't worry, I have everything under control." I said to Itachi. I had gotten to his house only to find Sasuke passed out, he had a fever going. I immediately contacted Itachi to let him know what was going on. "Okay bye then."

"Don't worry so much." Temari hugged me from next of me as she came from Sasuke's room. As soon as I told her where I was and how I had found Sasuke, she came

"I can't help it!" I nearly yelled, "If you knew he was doing that why didn't you say something?!"

"Hey don't blame this on me, he's old enough to know what he's getting himself into." Temari rolled her eyes as she looked at me, then with a sigh went on. "Naru, I've seen the way you look at Sasuke, just like how you would look at him, but you have to understand, he's not him."

I stopped at the top of the stairs and looked back at her. "Naru. . . he's not coming back."

"I know that." I muttered as I sat at the top stair, Temari sat next to me, her motherly eyes were on me.

"Why don't you move on then? It's not healthy to cry over the past! I hate to see you this way!"

"I - I thought I was ready. . . I thought I could put everything behind me . . . that's why I moved here, but it's so hard, you know?" I muttered in a whisper, as I hugged my knees, feeling the tears rise up once more.

"Oh honey, I know it's hard, but he would've wanted you to find happiness - "

"I've tried, I really have. . . but, it's just not the same. . . It never will be. I loved him so much - and he died because of me! I ruined everything!" I sobbed hard, "And - and when I saw Sasuke, he reminded me so much of him!"

"You're forgetting one thing sweety."

"What?"

"He's not him." Temari muttered firmly,"I think you owe it to yourself to start over. . . and I don't think it's fair to Sasuke that you're confusing him with Sai."

With that said, Temari walked back to Sasuke's room to check in on him. I thought about what she had said, I still remember Sai's angelic face. His dark hair, his fale face, his obsident eyes, the way he held me when I needed him . . .the way he kissed me, his lips so soft. . .

I won't hurt you, I promise I'll always be with you. I always remembered what he told me that night. He promised to never hurt me, but in the end did. . . in the end he lied, and in doing so broke his promise. He left me alone, to deal with the suffering of not being by his side. . . I lived while he died.

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Oh yes, the angst! : ) Several chapter like this will be added in the future. Tell me how I'm doing so far. I need to be encouraged damnit! Constructive Critism is very much appreciated.

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