Scarlet
by vexatively

Only the Gods know why I follow You, why I trail in Your wake despite the tangible scorn that lashes my back and leaves my clothes drenched in scarlet. Only the Gods know why I welcome the Pain and push doggedly further for more— I need more Pain. Only the Gods know why I suffer.

Only You know.

My Father, my Lord, my Master… You know what I need, in my own carnal way (I know of no other way but this), and You indulge me, dark humor shining in Your eyes. The wicked amusement is there, always there, whenever Your claws sink into putrid flesh, human and demon alike.

You tease me.

Your hair whips lightly across my face, and I gasp as this makes the inner turmoil within me howl. It spins and spins, chaos burying itself sharply within my breast as though they were Your claws itself. You turn around, no change in Your expression.

You taunt me.

These worthless humans are allowed the honor of death by Your hands yet You will never lay a claim to my soul. I feign surprise when demons rise from the murky shelter of shadow and try to kill me. You feign surprise when I fall into the fray, just to feel Your claws on my flesh.

You torture me.

I shift this way and that, sometimes coyly, sometimes defiantly, yet You never touch me. Your silent reprimand is as delicious as Absolution itself, but there is no Absolution— not until Your hands drip red in my blood and I am writhing in ecstasy. So I keep on pushingpushingpushing until finally the entity that is Your will breaks and finally I can release.

Keep tormenting me. Keep demons and humans alike kneeling at Your feet (but not me). Keep executing justice on the Unworthy. Keep whispering promises of Pain and Salvation in my ear…

After all, God does not love those who have not suffered.

Disclaimer: Inuyasha is yet to be mine. The rights of claiming this little slice of genius goes to Rumiko Takahashi-sama alone. But, I do enjoy playing with the odd character to satisfy my possums.

E/N: Originally posted for Moonlight Flower's Week 18 (God does not love those who have not suffered) theme challenge on May 28, 2008.