A/N: A very weird poem about Rukawa and a woman.

Fine Lining

There's a sheer line between happiness and grief

A small border between love and hate

And though I occasionally cruise over to another

I know all along it was fate

Sometimes it's easier to believe that life is a dream

A dream that would be over once we wake up

Yet there is a dead end in everything

And the truth is not what it may seem

I am devoted to you as I relish every ray of light

I care for you as I take concern of every delicate flower

I cherish you more than I treasure all the riches this world may offer

And I hate you as I love you

Every kiss, every moment…

The sun kisses your glistening skin

My desire pent up and release through my gasps

And your eyes dart me so superior and keen

I learned the way your crimson lips twitch

Whenever you talk and laugh

I value every sound and sight that came from you

Yet this pain is engulfing me…eating me…

You were brave, picking your heart and giving it to me

However I was heartless, throwing it away

The empty space left in your chest, unfilled.

I wonder how a heart feels against the cold, harsh ground

Turned away by the one it loved most

I could've saved you…I should've.

But you gave me no chance anymore

I had all the happiness the world may bring

If I only accepted the heart then

I reached my hand out, turned to pick your heart

She so harshly shoved to the cruel world

Yet I stopped, one moment, thinking of you

You…

If I had picked this heart, if I had…

How would I take care of it, when it is not mine to begin with?

I, only I could cure its cuts and bruises

Yet I could do nothing, nothing

None other than to nurse it, give first aid

And not the stable, permanent treatment.

And it does not pass my assessment

Because now it is offered not to me anymore

Jealousy, rage, envy, hatred

The unending, excruciating pain I feel whe I see them in your eyes

Whenever they're fixed on me.

They're never what I wanted them to be

Your revenge, so bitter and spiteful.

Shook me to the very core of my soul

The glares full of derision

As I fall into deep oblivion

The blood, gore, tainted your purity and innocence

I desired that it swallow me alive so I can be with you

I am all to blame, too late that I realized everything

The truth, the cold, unfeeling reality

If I had caught you in my arms earlier

Would this fate meet you?

If I had not been blinded by hate, would you stay?

If I had caressed you, held you so tight…

Now, I see your clear brown eyes, devoid of feelings

Devoid of feelings towards me.

Don't you see? Don't you remember?

Jamais Vu?

Do you recognize me yet?

Or are you with him.

Do you love him…?

That man with gravity-defying hair.

Blue eyes like mine

Passion for the same sport I replaced you of

Desperately, wholeheartedly

I lean on to you

Recognize

The fine lining between your love and mine

The blinding hypocrisy

The deafening silence

The fine lining that separated us forever.

A/N: SO weird. Really.

The story behind this was, a woman fell in love with Rukawa. He felt the same but he was filled with hate and love for her. (sounds contradicting? Well, there is a very thin line between love and hate, right?) He rejected her and she left. When she came back, she started to mess with his life, beating him into things, and finally, committing suicide.

Now that was odd. (But doesn't it hurt more to see your love dying in front of you than any other torture? She was kind of a bit mad here, without proper sanity, and she did that for revenge)

When she recovered, she can't remember Rukawa anymore. She went out with Sendoh.

The idea was really peculiar and corny, I know. T.T