Maybe if I had told you the truth before...maybe it would have been diffrent. Maybe if I had told you why I had really wanted to jump...maybe we could have...maybe if I had told you...that I had wanted to jump with you...beacause I wanted to hold your hand or becuase I had wanted it to be "Finny and Gene" for once instead of just "Finny".
Maybe if I had told you...things could have changed...maybe if I had told you that I wanted to be more then just "friends" you would have obliged...or maybe...you would have drown away...maybe you would have just left me then and there and we never would have climbed that tree...But...if that was the case...maybe I was right not to tell...becasue even though it cost me alot, that time that I spent with you...and you alone. I wouldn't trade it for the world. And maybe...just maybe...you'll except it...I guess I'll just have to wait to tell you, after the surgery...huh 'Pal'...I guess...it doesn't really matter if I tell you before...and plus...it gives me something to look forward to when I wake up...you by my bedside...waiting for me to awaken...and when I do...I'll tell you. I'll tell you everything...everything and more. I don't really remember when it happened but...I fell in love with you, Gene...but you'll know that soon enough, and I wonder...do you love me too?

I know it's probably not to good, but it was just something I had to get out of my head. It was alot longer when I wrote it out. Oh well.