Too Far Gone

I remember the day we met.

You took no notice of me,

But I saw only you.

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I remember joking with you

You laughed so hard you cried

I was just happy to make you smile

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I remember when you met him

He saw you.

And you only saw him.

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I remember that you saved my life.

More than once

I was hardly grateful

.

I remember returning the favour

More than once

You never thanked me either

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I remember that you loved him

No matter the distance

But you couldn’t save him anymore

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I remember who you used to be

Brave, smart,

Beautiful.

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I remember watching you change

Black and white blurring

Fading to grey

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And I remember who you became

Hardened, reckless,

Impenetrable

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I remember making fun

And I remember the disappointment

When you didn’t laugh

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I remember the handprint on my face

When I told you

I wouldn’t laugh if you cried

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I remember the day you died

He took your ashes

We never saw him again

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I remember the day I realized,

Standing at your grave,

That I always loved you.