I'd Lie

What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don't they come from your desires that battle within you? You want something but don't get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God. When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.
James 4:1-3

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN THE JONAS BROTHERS OR THEIR SONGS.

My hands smoothed out my black dress as I quickly slipped on my high heels. I could see Joe in the mirror leaning against the doorway. He was looking at his watch and tapping his foot impatiently. I rolled my eyes while grabbing a breath mint and popping it into my mouth. I put on another layer of natural color lipgloss and fixed the flyaways in my hair.

"You look fine, Amelia. Everyone is waiting for us outside in the limo." he said through gritted teeth, "We don't have all day."

"I'm coming!" I snapped as I clutched my handbag and headed out of my apartment. The limo was waiting for us outside, just like Joe said. I crawled inside to find Nick sitting in the back corner with Kevin and his wife, Natalie. Joe sat next to me as he adjusted his tie with fustration.

"Amelia, how are you?" smiled Natalie as she gave me a quick hug.

"Great." I said smiling back. She had long, curly blonde hair with deep emerald eyes. Her and Kevin were expecting their first child together and even though she was only four months along she was beginning to show. It reminded me that I wasn't eighteen anymore and everyone was getting older and starting their own lives. Nat and Kevin recently moved to Pennsylvania to start their new family. They bought a house out in the country because Kevin claimed that he was ready to settle down from the rockstar lifestyle.

I leaned back in the seat and fidgeted with my hands. Joe placed his palm over them, "I'm sorry about rushing you." he whispered in my ear.

"I'm sorry for taking so long." I whispered back as I gave him a quick kiss. He smiled as he intertwined his fingers in mine.

Finally, we arrived to a mass group of people with flashing cameras. We were attending a movie premiere that Frankie was starring in. He had taken another limo with some of his other cast members so we tagged along along with the other stars who had been invited. I took a deep breath before I stepped out and flashed a smile. Joe held my hand as he waved to the cameras. I just followed, I wasn't the one they were taking pictures of anyway.

I had been dating Joe since I was eighteen, I would never forget that night in the storm, but now it had been six years since which made me twenty-four years old. Kevin was now twenty-six, Nick was twenty-one and Frankie was now thirteen and becoming the latest teen heart-throb after his brothers.

"Joe, how do you feel about your youngest brother becoming the next child movie star?" asked a reporter. I could hardly hear him through all the screaming and cheering in the background, but I pretended to be calm and collected.

Joe grinned, "It's really cool. He's worked hard to deserve it."

A man behind us ushered us forward as I squinted from the constant flashing of lights. My cheeks were starting to burn from smiling so long and I remembered why I hated going to these things. Another reporter beckoned us forward with a mike in his hand.

"The Jonas Brothers have had seven albums that have all reached top ten in the Billboard charts, can we be expecting anymore soon?"

Joe shrugged his shoulders, "It'd be nice to get together and make another album, but with Kevin and his wife expecting a baby things have been pretty crazy."

Suddenly, the reporter faced me and my body went stiff. I hated being asked questions, I tended to stutter and ramble about nothing. Or I went totally blank and looked like a zombie on camera. I still couldn't decide which was worse... "Amelia," he said with a foolish grin, "it's been several years that you and Joe have been together. Will you guys be tying the knot soon?"

I blushed. I absolutely hated that question.

First, I had no control over when Joe would propose to me. Second, Joe hated talking about marriage so it was a topic we could never bring up. And third, everyone knew Joe had cold feet and the word marriage made him want to puke. But the word family made his eyes sparkle with excitement, the problem? We couldn't have a family until after we were married.

"Only time will tell." I said shyly as Joe's hand wrapped around my waist and pulled me away. He waved one last time before being ushered inside the building. We waited in the common room until Kevin, Nat and Nick were done with their share of the flashing cameras and obnoxious reporters. Once I heard the screams die down, I knew Nick was finished. He was still the most wanted celebrity out there and surprisingly he was still single. I mean, he had his share of girlfriends in the past, but now that he was older all he wanted to do was focus on his career. Girls were the last things on his mind. With Kevin and Natalie starting a family, the band had to put the music on hold for awhile so Nick was starting to film movies. Joe auditioned for a few parts, but only got minor roles in films. I told him that maybe acting wasn't his thing, but he didn't understand how Nick could get the lead role and he ended up being the sidekick who died.

I turned around to see Natalie with a distraught look on her face and Kevin trying to comfort her, "What happened?" I asked.

Natalie frowned, "One of the reporters didn't know I was pregnant and asked me how it felt to be overweight in America."

Joe laughed as I stabbed him hard in the ribs with my elbow, "Well he's a jerk who doesn't know any better." I said giving Joe a dirty look.

"Hey guys look who it is!" cheered Nick as Frankie waved at us.

"Look at you!" I squealed as I gave him a hug, "You're a huge movie star now!"

Frankie blushed as Joe rustled his hair, "Frank the Tank ain't no baby no more!"

I rolled my eyes, "Please don't try to embarrass your brother." I whispered.

"It's my job." he scoffed as everyone went inside to find their reserved seats. After the film, Frankie and Nick went to an after party while me and Joe decided to go to his apartment to hang out. Kevin and Natalie had to catch a plane back to Pennsylvania.

"Kevin and Nat look happy, don't they?" I said looking at him as he bustled around the kitchen to make me a grilled cheese sandwich.

"Yeah, Kevin is really excited to find out whether the baby is gonna be a boy or a girl." he smiled. I grabbed myself a glass of milk and sat at the table. He handed me a plate with my slightly burnt grilled cheese sandwich and sat across from me. I sighed inwardly as I suddenly wasn't hungry anymore. I couldn't stop thinking about the question the reporter had asked me earlier about tying the knot. Joe and I have been together for a long time and I was ready for the next step, but I wasn't so sure if Joe was.

"Remember when that guy asked us about getting married?" I said nibbling at the cheese that spilled over the sides.

Joe looked away and nodded, "Yeah?" he said avoiding my eyes.

"Do you think my response was okay?" I asked hoping it would open him up about the subject.

"Of course." he said staring at the ground.

"What would you have said?" I eyed him curiously.

Joe clenched his jaw, but quickly relaxed as he looked up to face me, "Probably the same thing." he said leaning back in the chair.

My heart sank, but I thought I'd give it one more try, "Do you think we'll be together forever?"

Joe stared at me strangely and reached over to grab my hand, "Amelia, I know we'll be together forever. I can't imagine anyone else I'd rather spend the rest of my life with."

"What's stopping you?" I asked quietly. Joe's hand slipped away from mine as he rubbed his chin.

"We're only twenty-four, don't you wanna wait a couple of years?" he chuckled, but it didn't make me feel better. It always ended like this. I nodded as I stood up and walked to his room. I shut the door and laid in his bed. I could hear him clean up the kitchen as I shut my eyes to block the tears. It wasn't fair. Wasn't six years long enough to prove that we were ready? I didn't want to rush him and make him do something he wasn't ready for, but after six years you'd think it was time to at least consider the options. I wiped away my tears, slid out of my dress and threw on one of his old shirts from his closet. I heard a knock on the door so I walked over and opened it.

"What?" I asked.

"This is my room." he said leaning on the door frame.

"Fine." I glared as I walked over to the couch.

He rolled his eyes and followed me, "I didn't mean to kick you out."

"Whatever." I said grabbing a blanket and throwing it on top of me.

"Why are you so upset?" he asked annoyed.

I crossed my arms across my chest and frowned, "A couple of years, Joe? We're not eighteen anymore!" I yelled.

He sighed as he covered his face with his hands, "Marriage is a huge commitment."

I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion, "You just said that I'm the only person you'd rather spend the rest of your life with, were you just saying that?" I choked.

Joe shook his head as he rushed to my side and held my shoulders, "Amelia, believe me when I say I love you and I do want to spend the rest of my life with you, but what's the hurry in getting married?"

I could think of at least one thing that made me blush to even think about infront of him, "There is no hurry." I whispered, "It's just that I see Kevin and Nat so happy and I'm just so jealous of them."

"What's there to be jealous of?" he laughed.

"Seeing Natalie pregnant."

Joe went silent as he let his head hang. After a few mintues of total silence, he stood up and walked to his room without saying a word. I heard the lights go out and knew he was probably laying in bed deep in thought. I tip-toed through the hallway and peeked into his room. I could hear him snoring lightly under the covers so I grabbed my dress and slipped it back on. I wrote him a note, grabbed a taxi and went back to my apartment.

I couldn't sleep as I laid in my bed. Was I being unfair trying to force this on Joe? Marriage is a huge commitment and if Joe wasn't ready then I didn't want to rag him about it. I promised myself that would be the last time I ever brought up marriage ever again. I was going to wait for Joe to come around on his own, even if it meant waiting a couple more years. He was worth it.

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