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“I don’t think he took that too well.” Lisa said, as she ran up to me.

“He was so nice about it. He felt bad for what happened and I think he would have helped me with the baby if he had known.” I said, still a little stunned.

“Let’s get ready for class.” Lisa said.

As Lisa and I were going to our lockers, I could feel everyone’s eyes on me. “Looks like I am the talk of the week.” I said.

“Jesse McCartney just kissed you in front of the majority of the student body, of course you are going to be talked about.” Lisa joked.

“Becca!” Mariana yelled at me from down the hall. She had gotten home last night.

“What did I say about not talking to me at school?” I sarcastically said.

“Yeah, because my popularity is going to ruin your reputation.” Mariana said.

“What do you want?” I said, shutting my locker.

“Jesse just kissed you in front of everyone!” Mariana yelled. She wasn’t happy.

“And? He’s my boyfriend.” I said, walking towards my first class.

“You are going to be invited to every party and become more popular than I can even hope to be.” Mariana said, with a sadness like all her dreams were being shattered.

“Well it’s not like I want to be popular. Don’t worry I won’t take your spotlight.” I said, going into my class.

Even the teachers paid special attention to me. Everyone was like, ‘I can’t believe Jesse is back’, or ‘Rebecca, you have a good catch’. It got so annoying. I didn’t want everyone looking at me like I’m gonna get them famous. Lunch was probably the worse. I got invited to the cheerleaders table, where Kain sat. I felt awkward, even with Lisa by my side the whole time.

“So, Rebecca, Kylie is having a party this weekend and we wanted to know if you guys could go.” Whitney, a cheerleader, said.

“A party?” Lisa said, astonished.

“You know I don’t party anymore.” I said.

“Well everyone wants to welcome Jesse back and I thought that would be a perfect place.” Whitney said, with pleading eyes.

“I’ll ask. But I’m telling you now there can be absolutely no alcohol.” I said.

“Of course. It’s not going to be that big.” Whitney said.

“It better not be.” I warned.

“Are you going Kain?” Lisa asked.

Kain seemed stunned that she talked to him, he had been looking at the table and not talking the whole time. “Uhh…I don’t know yet. It depends if I have anything else goin’ on.” Kain said, coolly.

“Kain, you said yesterday that you would go.” Whitney said.

“Well, Whitney, maybe I changed my mind.” Kain said, walking off.

“What is his problem?” Whitney said.

“I’ll be back.” I said, running after him.

I caught up with him in the outer court area. “Kain, wait!” I said.

“Did you know?! Were you hiding it from me?!” Kain said.

“Do you really think that I would have gone through the pain if I knew?” I said.

“It’s not like I have trouble believing that we had sex. Even a fool could have been able to tell that I was attracted to you.” Kain said.

“What?!” I said, confused.

“That’s what I thought.” Kain said, sitting on the bench.

“I’m confused.” I said, sitting next to him.

“You were the only person who couldn’t tell that I was attracted to you. Typical situation. It took for you to be intoxicated to notice.” Kain said.

“Oh my god. I’m so sorry.” I said. I had been so wrapped up with Jesse leaving me that I hadn’t even notice that I could have been happy.

“You always seemed so distracted. Kinda robotic. I was kind of glad you got pregnant because you had some sort of emotion.” Kain said.

“I was so involved with Jesse being gone that I didn’t even notice.” I said.

“You’re happy now, right?” Kain said.

“I love Jesse.” I said.

“You didn’t answer my question.” Kain said.

“I’m not sure. Everything is so unsure right now. But I know I love Jesse and that he makes me happy, or at least he tries.” I said.

“I could make you happy.” Kain said.

“Kain…I…I can’t do this.” I said, getting up.

“Rebecca wait!” Kain said.

“No. This is messing with my head. I shouldn’t have said anything about Micah’s party. I love Jesse and I want to be with him.” I said.

“That’s fine, but can we just be friends. I don’t want to mess up your life.” Kain said.

“I can be friends.” I said.

“Awesome.” Kain said, giving me a shoulder hug.

Through out the day I felt myself getting closer to Kain as a friend. We talked in between almost every class and then the ones we had together we also talked then. At first, he had a lot of questions about the miscarriage, but after I got through that it was normal friend talk.

I was putting my homework in my backpack when Kain walked up after our last class. “So are you going to see if you can go to the party?” he asked.

“I’ve thought about it. I’ll ask Jesse and if he wants to go I’ll talk to my mom.” I said.

“Ya, it would be tight to hang with Jesse…” Kain said.

“But?” I said, shutting my locker.

“I don’t believe Whitney about the whole no alcohol thing.” Kain said.

“Me neither and if there is any and my mom finds out…I would be worse than dead.” I said, as Lisa looked at me.

“So we aren’t going to the party?” Lisa asked.

“I think we should have a party of our own. The same night. And we can show all them that you can have fun with out drinking. Drinking just messes people up.” Kain said.

“I totally agree.” I said, walking towards the front of the school.

“I’m in, but where would we have it?” Lisa said.

I smiled. “I know someone who might be willing.” I said.

“Do you think that he would?” Lisa asked, as we stopped by the parking lot.

“Dude that would so rock!” Kain said.

“I’ll talk to him and let you guys know.” I said.

“Sounds like a plan.” Kain said.

“Well I got to get to work before my boss kills me.” Lisa said.

“And I should probably get to track practice.” Kain said.

“I’ll see you two tomorrow then.” I said, waving as they went their separate ways.

“What was all that about?” Jesse asked, as I threw my stuff in the back.

“What was what about?” I said, sitting down.

“You’re friends with Kain?” Jesse said, slightly angry.

“Yes. It’s a little complicated and I don’t want to argue in the school parking lot.” I said.

“Fine.” Jesse said.

The ride to his house was so tense and silent. Jesse was angry about Kain and I could feel it. I had had such a good day and now I felt like crying.

“I’m gonna put my stuff in my house and I’ll be over in a minute.” I quietly said. Jesse nodded and got out of the car. I sat there stunned for a little while and quickly put my bags in my house and went to his. Jesse was sitting on the couch holding his head.

“Do you like Kain…more than a friend?” Jesse asked.

“Is that what this is about? Are you jealous?” I said, sitting next to him.

“Yes. Can you please tell me?” Jesse said.

“No, I do not like him more than a friend. Earlier when you asked what that it was, it was just a few friends making some plans. Why would you be jealous?” I said.

“He’s got more of you than I ever will. He has your virginity. That’s something I believe is very special for someone to give away, especially for a girl.” Jesse said.

“You know I wouldn’t have if I was in a right state of mind. Kain said that he could tell that even at parties I was distracted. I was distracted by you.” I said.

“I still wish that I hadn’t ignored you. I’ve been reading your journal. I know I said I wanted you to be there when I did, but I had to read it. The things you were feeling make me feel like I was some sort of a monster.” Jesse said.

“Don’t say that.” I said.

Jesse sighed and said, “So, tell me what happened today? How did you and Kain suddenly become best friends?”

I retold what happened at lunch, leaving out my insecurities, and I told him about our idea for a party.

“I’ll think about it.” Jesse said.

“That’s all I’m asking.” I said.

He was so tense. “What are you thinking about?” I asked, entwining my hand with his.

“If I hadn’t just left you with out talking to you. You would have been happier. You might even had gotten together with Kain. And even if you still got pregnant I could have been a better friend.” Jesse said.

“If that had happened like that then we wouldn’t be together.” I said.

“Would that bother you? If we never had gotten together.” Jesse said.

“How can you even ask that?” I said.

“I don’t know. It just seems that you are unsure about something.” Jesse said.

“Right now I’m confused about everything. But it’s starting to make sense. All I am absolutely sure about is that I love you. If you doubt that, why should I even bother explaining myself?” I said.

“I just…needed to make sure that nothing had changed. Like your feelings for me. I was worried that you would talk to Kain and some how find out you loved him more then me.” Jesse said.

I started laughing with hysterics. “You’re laughing at me?” Jesse said.

“No. I’m laugh at your absurd thinking process.” I said, giving him a deep kiss.

“Does this have something to do with hormones?” Jesse said.

“Nope. Just accept that fact that everything is great.” I said, giving him another kiss.

“I’m not complaining. I’m just a little confused.” Jesse said.

“Will you just stop talking?” I said, with a smile before kissing him again. He seemed to finally catch my drift and deepened the kiss.

Everything was fine a dandy as we had a heavy make-out session, until my phone rang. I pulled away to grab it but Jesse pulled me back. “Leave it.” He said, kissing me again.

“What if it’s important?” I said, pulling away. I leaned against his shoulder as I answered my phone. “This is Becca.” I said.

“I finally finished with the books and I got to tell you, they are a mess.” Charlie said.

“I figured as much. Are we in debt? Does anything need to be paid?” I said, sitting straight up.

“Well it seems that the mortgage hasn’t been paid in several months. I called the company and they were going to take the place if it hadn’t gotten paid. But we had funds from cattle sales that I used for that.” Charlie said.

“Okay. Anything else I should know about.” I said, sighing.

“We are getting the land in tip top shape. And if the buyer is still interested in the colt, financially we should be great. I’ll double check my numbers.” Charlie said.

“Sounds great! Is that it?” I said.

“Well, there is one more thing that the men wanted me to ask you.” Charlie said.

“And?” I said.

“Well since most of us have known you for many years, we wanted to congratulate you on being the new head and have a barn dance.” Charlie slyly said.

“You guys wanna do that for me?” I said.

“Of course, girl. You got this place back in order and are an amazing young woman. You deserve much more than a barn dance.” Charlie said.

“Well I can’t say no to you. Of course you guys can organize a barn dance. Possibly this Friday. Can I invite friends?” I said.

“It’s your party.” Charlie said.

“Awesome!” I said.

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