A/N: This story is a lot more sad and depressing than any of the others I've written recently. I wrote it based off a real life experience. I have a friend who's gay and in the army and he flew in to surprise his boyfriend. It was one of the sweetest and saddest things I've ever witness. This story is kind of a purging of all the feelings I experienced from that. Much love to everyone in the military! 3

Sasuke Uchiha reached for the almost empty glass of Jack Daniels and growled in frustration when his hand missed its target and knocked the fragile glass to the floor. Fucking Alcohol, he thought angrily. It could fuck up his reflexes but it couldn’t fog his mind enough.

“Sasuke you should really stop drinking,” a high annoying voice said. He looked up glaring at the pink haired girl seated in front of him. “You…you’ve had a lot to drink.”

He scowled. “Apparently not enough,” he muttered struggling to his feet and walking to one of the cabinets for another glass. He felt his friends talking in hushed whispers behind him. They were worried about him. He appreciated the sentiment but none of them could understand what he was going through.

He grabbed another glass and cursed when it slipped through his fingers to break against the floor. “Fuck.” He turned to make his way awkwardly to the closet that contained the broom.

“I-I’ll get it Sasuke,” Sakura said standing. He looked at her, his thoughts making their way hazily through his alcohol soaked brain. She was stuttering a lot tonight.

He looked around at the people sitting at his small oak kitchen table and wondered suddenly what they all were doing here. Kiba, Hinata, Ino, Sakura, and Shikamaru weren’t really his friends. He knew them because they were all close to his boyfriend Naruto.

Naruto.

A scowl darkened his face and he eyed the bottle of dark liquid sitting half empty on the table. No one but him had drunk very much and they’d all tried very hard to keep him distracted and half sober.

“What’s going on here?” He asked shakily. They never came over to hang out with him and didn’t get at least as smashed as he did, especially Kiba who was Naruto’s best friend. They all looked away guiltily. “Something’s up.” He made his way over to the table and fell more than sat in the chair he’d vacated earlier.

Shikamaru’s phone rang and after glancing at it he left the room quickly; putting the open phone to his ear. Sasuke frowned again.

“Why don’t you drink some water, Sasuke?” Kiba suggested standing and moving further into the kitchen. Sakura had come back and was cleaning the mess the raven haired man had made. Kiba filled a glass with cold water from the fridge and placed it in front of the bleary eyed man. “You’re really drunk.”

Sasuke wanted to argue. However, he just reached for the glass, gulping half its contents before glaring around the table. Shikamaru returned, his eyes sparkling with excitement; something that never happened unless he was getting laid.

“I’m starving!” Ino announced suddenly, her voice so loud Hinata and Kiba jumped in surprise. “What do you have to eat?” She stood, moving around opening and closing cabinets.

As if taking some kind of cue from her, everyone began talking and moving around the kitchen. Sasuke glared, annoyed at the sudden overabundance of activity in his house.

Still instead of questioning further, he did what he did best; brood. He finished his water and filled the now empty glass half way with Jack Daniels, his current best friend.

He knew they had all come to cheer him up. Unfortunately, they didn’t realize that hanging out with three couples really didn’t do much to make him feel better. All it seemed to do was emphasize one simple fact: Naruto was gone.

It had only been four months since his best friend, boyfriend and lover had boarded a plane to South Carolina. Watching that blonde head disappear through the terminal would have been the hardest thing Sasuke had ever done, if he hadn’t been at home crying like a baby. He hadn’t been able to make it to the airport. Instead, he and Naruto had a private good-bye in their apartment. He hadn’t cried like that since his parents had died when he was eight.

Sasuke was pretty sure his boyfriend had left explicit instructions for his friends to keep an eye on him. So he got at least one phone call a day and a lot of surprise visits; that though they annoyed him, also made him feel better.

Still, it was rare that everyone would come over at once. He supposed this was a special night, though. This night was Sasuke and Naruto’s three year anniversary, and the love of his life was thousands of miles away.

Five months ago, Naruto had decided he wanted to join the army. He stated his reasons logically and with a calm that was so unusual, Sasuke had only been able stare.

“They’ll pay for my school and I get a huge bonus for signing on,” the blonde had stated; his blue eyes wide and earnest. “It’s only two years and it’ll give me such an advantage.”

“If you weren’t a moron, you’d realize that our country is at WAR!” Sasuke had nearly shouted, fighting down the panic that was threatening to choke him. “What if you go over to Iraq and get killed? All the money and advantages in the world won’t mean shit if your dead!” He’d paused taking a deep breath to try and calm himself. “I told you I would help you with school.”

“I don’t want you to do that!” Naruto had growled his eyes flashing angrily. “I want to do it myself, without any of your fucking money.”

“Fuck, Naruto, it’s just money!” Sasuke had shouted feeling somewhat comforted by the familiar argument. “What better way to use it than to help out my boyfriend? It’s just sitting in the bank right now.”

“That’s not my money,” his boyfriend had replied stubbornly. “I won’t have you taking care of me.”

They had spent the entire night talking and fighting, in the end it was Naruto’s decision and Sasuke had let him make it.

Regrettably, after four months of nothing but phone calls, letters, and emails, the dark haired man was losing it. He barely slept unless he was drunk out of his mind. He’d lost fifteen pounds and barely felt like leaving the house anymore. Naruto had been his whole life, the only person that he had. Without him Sasuke was fading fast.

He heard the door open and frowned. “I’m here!” A loud voice shouted. Sasuke sighed reaching for his glass of Jack Daniels. Lee was here and things were about to get a lot more annoying.

“Here Sasuke, why don’t you eat something?” He glanced up to see Kiba smiling down at him, holding out a sandwich.

“I’m not hungry,” he said glaring at him. “I’m not that drunk and I wish you people would stop trying to sober me up.”

“I don’t know babe, I think you need to eat something,” a voice purred behind him. Sasuke blinked; maybe he was drunker than he thought, because that seriously sounded like Naruto’s voice. He turned his body, seeming to move in slow motion. He was either drunk or dreaming. There stood the love of his life, bright blonde hair peaking from a dark red beret, his vivid smile shinning down above the dull color of his army fatigues.

“Na-Naruto?” That sounded suspiciously like a squeak. “What…” He couldn’t say anything else, as his throat tightened around the words.

Then he was up and in those arms that haunted his dreams. He pressed his face against that tanned neck and breathed in the wonderful scent of cinnamon and sunshine.

His boyfriend squeezed him and held on just as tight. Sasuke’s eyes were burning and he realized as the first tear slid down his cheek that the panting breaths coming from his chest were sobs.

“Sasuke, Sasuke, it’s okay,” Naruto whispered. Those hands, his lover’s strong callused hands were stroking his back and tangling through his hair. “Shhh, it’s okay.”

“Um, we’ll just leave you guys alone for a couple hours,” Kiba said and Sasuke heard shifting as everyone stood and gathered their things. “It’s good to see you man.”

Naruto nodded and spoke good-byes to his friends, sometimes managing a hug around Sasuke’s clinging form. “It’s about seven thirty now,” Naruto indicated to Kiba. “I’ll give you guys a call before ten; we can go get some food and maybe a drink or two.”

“Sure,” Kiba agreed, giving Naruto a quick hug. “Later Sasuke.”

Sasuke didn’t reply; he couldn’t. He was trying to control his breathing and tame his tears. Naruto was the only person in this world that could make him cry.

“Sasuke,” Naruto murmured; his voice low with emotion. “God, you don’t know how much I missed you.”

“Naruto…” It was all Sasuke could say. The alcohol was making his emotions so hard to control.

They stayed there for a long time, just holding each other. Finally, Naruto got impatient. “Sasuke,” he said, pushing his pale lover away to arms length. Those blue eyes bored into his and Sasuke swallowed. A slew of emotional words tried to make their way from his inebriated lips, and then they were kissing.

The dark haired man moaned at the feeling of tasting his boyfriend after so long, his body already unreasonably aroused at the blonde’s proximity. Naruto lifted him and Sasuke wrapped his legs around his boyfriend’s lean waist.

They bumped against the kitchen table and something crashed against the floor. The sound didn’t even slow them. His boyfriend sat him on the table, their mouths still moving desperately against each other. Leaning back, Sasuke’s fingers moved clumsily at the buttons of Naruto’s shirt. While his blond lover’s hands went straight to his jeans; making quick work of his button and zipper.

When he felt cool fingers grasp his hot arousal, Sasuke momentarily forgot about undressing Naruto as his hands tightened on his the blonde’s shirt. “Oh, God, Naruto,” he whispered, as that callused and talented hand moved on his cock. The dark haired man hadn’t even masturbated while his boyfriend was away. If Naruto wasn’t careful, Sasuke would cum before they even got undressed. He felt is body tightening and knew he was close.

Sasuke grunted in frustration when Naruto’s hand left his arousal. Then he exclaimed in surprise as he was hefted over a broad shoulder. “Let’s go to the bedroom, baby,” the blonde murmured . His voice was husky and raw with lust.

Sasuke closed his eyes as the world bobbed in front of him. “I’m drunk, dumbass,” he grumbled. “Put me down before you make me puke.” The dark haired man’s breath left him in a rush when he was dropped unceremoniously onto the bed he and Naruto had shared for three years. Sasuke sat up and gave his boyfriend a watered down glare as he watched the beautiful moron smiling down at him. “Hurry up idiot,” he hissed angrily. “I’ve been waiting for months for this.”

“Look who’s the impatient one tonight.” Naruto flashed him a teasing grin as he finished unbuttoning his shirt. “Well, bastard, I’ve been waiting for this too.” The dull brown, green and gray shirt fell to the floor, leaving Naruto wearing a plain white t-shirt. “I’m not going to let this night go to waste, though. The first time we both cum I want to be deep inside you baby.”

Sasuke shuddered at those words and sat up enough to tug his own shirt over his head. “You still need to hurry up,” he said leaning back now to push his pants and boxers down. “I-ah!” The dark haired man’s eyes crossed and his body went lax as his newly bared erection was suddenly engulfed in heat. “Fuck, Naruto,” he whispered. He barely had time to look down and watch that beautiful mouth sliding down his cock, before his eyes closed again. “Shit.”

That impossibly hot cavern continued to bob and tease his erection, and Sasuke felt his body tightening. He refused to warn his lover, and surrendered himself to the wave of pleasure rushing toward him.

However, instead of pleasure, Sasuke made a sound that again sounded suspiciously like a squeak as he felt a sharp pinch on his inner thigh. The slight distraction was enough to cause his orgasm to fall back, leaving him utterly unsatisfied. “Naruto,” he growled.

His boyfriend moved from his erection to loom over him, his face filled with amusement. “What’s wrong Sasuke?” He asked, dropping his body down so their erections began to rub together.

“Ah! Shit!” Sasuke groaned.

“Mmmm, baby,” his lover husked, moving his hips and sending tingles of gratification through the dark haired man’s body. “I missed this so much, watching you move, and groan.”

“Fuck you,” Sasuke gritted out, even as another moan was torn from his lips. He was close again, his body tingling and rushing towards it peak.

“Damn, I need to be inside you,” Naruto whispered. “Where’s the lube?” Sasuke nearly howled in frustration when Naruto stopped his ministrations.

“Fuck the lube.” The dark haired man almost shouted. “I swear to fucking God, Naruto if you don’t fuck me right now, I’m going to bend you over this bed and make you cum screaming my name.”

His boyfriend’s eyes glazed over at his words. “Holy fuck, Sasuke!” Naruto groaned, pushing the dark haired man’s lean, pale legs farther apart. “You know I love it when you talk dirty.”

Sasuke ignored him and pushed his hips forward as he felt his boyfriend’s arousal pressing against his entrance. He knew they should use lube, and that he should at least be stretched a little. Unfortunately, after having his orgasm stopped three damn times, frustration had him just wanting to cum.

Naruto began pushing against that tight, un-stretched ring of muscle and Sasuke bit his lips to suppress a wince. He stopped, spitting on his hand and rubbing it on his engorged flesh before moving again to his boyfriends opening. “Shit, baby, I don’t know- Ah”

Sasuke had pulled harshly on his boyfriend’s hips, forcing the tip of the blonde’s large dripping arousal inside him. He hissed as his body tensed. It hurt like hell.

“Fuck,” he whispered.

“Damn it, Sasuke,” Naruto moaned, his body frozen. “You’re not usually this impatient.” He shifted his hips slightly, and Sasuke gasped at the pain. “Maybe we should-“

“Fuck! Just fucking fuck me already, Naruto,” Sasuke snarled. “Jesus Christ, it won’t hurt once you start fucking moving.”

Naruto’s response was to push forward, thrusting the rest of that long thick cock into his boyfriend ass.

Sasuke bit his cheek, his nails digging into that tan toned back to stifle his scream. Shit. He really was his own worse enemy tonight. The next moment Naruto was moving again. He pulled almost all the way out, adding more saliva to his arousal before pushing forward again. He began thrusting slowly, rotating his hips, until he found his boyfriend’s prostate.

After Sasuke’s pale body arched up off the bed, the blond began to ruthlessly attack that sensitive gland inside his lover’s body. Sometimes slamming into it, then barely brushing it, or grinding his cock agonizingly against it.

It wasn’t long before the dark haired main was nearly crying in ecstasy, his body thrumming in pleasure and his brain fogged with bliss.

His legs were tight around his boyfriend’s waist. His pale hands were digging harshly into his lover’s ass, urging him on.

“Oh, god, Naruto, I’m going to come,” he whimpered, not noticing the tears sliding from his eyes.

“Go ahead baby,” his lover’s voice was strained. “I want to watch you cum, I’ve been dreaming about this, about you.” Naruto’s voice broke. “I love you so much baby, gods, you feel so good.” He buried his face in Sasuke’s pale neck. “I don’t ever want to leave you again,” he whispered.

His words tore through Sasuke, and anguish filled him. He arched, thrust and sobbed out words of love and devotion just as his orgasm crashed over him.

Naruto came soon after, kissing Sasuke roughly. He tasted of sunshine and tears.

They lay in each other arms afterward. Naruto’s face was pressed against Sasuke’s chest, his breath blowing across sweat damp skin. In that moment, neither cared about the mess. “I missed you,” Sasuke said his voice hoarse.

“I missed you too babe,” Naruto replied.

“How long are you staying?”

“Four days,” his boyfriend responded sadly. Sasuke’s chest felt tight and he wondered if he would cry again. “It was a lot of work to get here for today.” Naruto pulled him closer and Sasuke winced as the movement jarred his abused backside. Naruto’s body felt good, though, and he sighed as he was enveloped by warmth. “But…I really needed to see you, babe.”

Sasuke nodded, momentarily unable to speak around the lump suddenly rising in his throat. He swallowed. “I love you.” They didn’t say it often, and Sasuke never said it first.

Naruto stiffened and Sasuke was shocked to feel his lover trembling. “I love you too,” Naruto whispered.

Naruto pulled him even closer, and Sasuke felt the heat of his boyfriend’s tears against the bare skin of his shoulder.

In four days, Naruto would be gone. It would probably be months before they saw each other again. He would have to go back to the sad lifeless days of getting drunk and passing out in bed alone. All that he’d have left would be alcohol and sadness.

Unable to hold back anymore, Sasuke buried his face in his boyfriend’s soft blond locks and began to cry.