Author’s Note: Ok, this idea I came up with when I was listening to one of my favorites songs, in which the song is in the sto

Author’s Note: Ok, this idea I came up with when I was listening to one of my favorites songs, in which the song is in the story. The song is My Immortal by Evanscene.

Disclaimer: I don’t own Sailor Moon or the song

The Night Before Hotaru met Chibiusa…

I am walking in my house hallway, it is so dark I can hardly see anything. My skin is so pale from being sickly it strangely created a white glow in the darkness. I am shaky, weak, in pain physically and emotionally. I had just arrived from school and am tired from other kids hurting my feelings. This is a story that is told by a pale firefly, seen through the eyes of a fragile firefly, this is a story told by a hurt firefly.

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone

My name is Hotaru Tomoe. I am now entering my bedroom, the only room I enjoy being in. I start doing my homework slowly, I do most but then start having a seizure. I can hardly breathe and I feel chest pain from it.

While having this seizure, memories of my horror-filled past return and fill my mind. When I was a little girl, I, my mommy and my daddy were in a Laboratory fire. Because my daddy is a Scientist, but an unexpected sudden fire broke out. Mommy died in it…I can still hear her scream.

I was dangerously injured and almost died…but all I remember is waking up and having no injuries. But my father was never around for me anymore…plus I would have strange mood swings because someone was inside of me. An evil thing…and it would control me.

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

I now am clutching my chest in pain from the seizure, breathing heavy and finally I collapse on my knees to the floor and start crying hysterically.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me

When my seizure finally settles, I still am in pain emotionally. I have lost all my loved ones. My mommy is gone, my daddy is never here for me. I slowly get up off the floor and take a bloody blade from my nightstand and I sat down on my bed.

You used to captivate me

By your resonating light

Now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts

My once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away

All the sanity in me

I clutch the blade and I start to cut my hand…blood starts appearing and pouring down my arm. I grit my teeth and close my eyes tight in pain…but this pain was nothing compared to my emotionally pain. Why should I continue living? No one loved me…and I had nothing else important…

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

I finally grow weak and tired and my eyes close and I fall unconscious since my seizure made me weak. By morning, I awoke and slowly got out of bed.

By the afternoon I go to the park to read in peace, then I hear a little girl’s voice crying out for someone to catch her important hat that was being blown away from the strong wind.

I decide to catch it for her and when I did, she is smiling at me and she thanks me. She then asks me something someone never asked me before. Her words were “Hey, do you want to play with me?”. She said her name was Chibiusa. She had the face of an angel…that’s when my miracle happened. I felt loved and touched for the first time.

Now I realize I have a right to live…because I have someone important to me who loves me as a best friend. Chibiusa-chan and me will be best friends forever…and ever since I met her I stopped cutting myself and grew more cheerful. No matter how much I lost, I still have Chibiusa-chan. I hope and pray I never lose her.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

The End