|My Brother's Best Friend
Author: jennlynnfs PM
AU/AH: Seven years have passed since Edward and Bella last saw each other. Now, with Edward's return to Seattle, Bella wonders what drove away her brother's best friend all those years ago. *More detailed summary included with chapter 1.Rated: Fiction M - English - Romance - Edward & Bella - Chapters: 25 - Words: 254,658 - Reviews: 5,936 - Favs: 8,304 - Follows: 5,135 - Updated: 02-28-10 - Published: 07-04-08 - Status: Complete - id: 4369590
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My Best Friend's Sister Outtake
I promise this is the last of the MBBF material and I won't bug you guys anymore. I have to admit, I'm a little sad posting this. Not only b/c this is all that's left, but I've been holding onto this as kind of like a piece of my own MBBFward. I would add onto this whenever I was in a slump and needed to get back into writing MBBF. MBBF is told as Bella's story. It was a nice break from time to time to write something as Edward.
This out take takes us full circle from the beginning. If you don't remember (b/c it was so long ago) the story begins with Bella jogging and Twilight Time by The Platters comes on her iPod. Her thoughts immediately go to the time she spent with Edward in the meadow. It was their last time together before he went off to college. The chapter opens with her anticipating his arrival and she tells herself she can handle it, but as you all aware, it doesn't go as she expects it.
This is the actual scene from the meadow, but it's through Edward's first person point of view. I don't normally do first person POV's, but this was supposed to be just an exercise for fun.
To head off any questions, this is an outtake. This not a continuation and there will be no sequels. This is just a short piece to show what was going through Edward's head when they were back in high school.
Anyway, thank you all again for reading. I hope you enjoy!
I don't know how I got myself into this. I didn't plan it and it seemed the more I resisted, the more I was thrown into Bella's company. Maybe it was fate telling me that I had to stop avoiding her.
Or maybe it was my sister Alice who managed to keep putting me in Bella's company.
I tried to ignore the sound of her ragged breathing and the snaps of dried leaves crunching under foot. I could tell that Bella was struggling not to fall behind, but her careful steps impeded her progress.
I was doing well, keeping my distance, avoiding her. But these last two weekends were like bittersweet torture.
It was easier avoiding her at school. There were other people around and I could find refuge in the library if I needed. It was cowardly. I know, but it was the only way.
It was becoming increasingly more difficult to hide my feelings for Bella.
Especially after last weekend at the movies. It was supposed to be just me and Emmett. I was glad to be getting out of the house. I had managed to avoid Bella for the whole week and I was quite proud of myself, but when I was alone in my room, she invaded my thoughts and the wanting would resurface. I found myself hoping she'd visit Alice just so I could have her near me.
So Emmett and I made plans for the movies and before I knew it, Alice had invited herself along which of course meant Bella was coming too. I should've run away, but I was too excited at the possibility of spending time with Bella, however, fleeting it would be.
That in itself should've been a warning. I was way too eager to see her and I even entertained ideas of talking to her, but when the fantasy of talking to her turned into lips touching and Bella breathing my name against my mouth, I sobered up and was determined to just go to the movies.
I was such an idiot.
When Alice and I arrived at Emmett and Bella's house, Alice shot up the stairs so fast, I had no idea what came over her. One minute, we're talking about the action movie we were going to see and then once we entered the house, Alice was gone. Emmett asked what was going on and I shrugged.
It was another twenty minutes before Alice and Bella came back down. Emmett was complaining that we were going to be late. There was still forty-five minutes until the movie started, but Emmett liked getting there early so he could get snacks and find a good seat.
I was unprepared for what happened next.
Bella descended the stairs in a mini-skirt.
Her legs. God, her legs went on and on and I just wanted to wrap them around me while I lay between her thighs.
I was snapped out of my thoughts when Emmett asked what the hell happened to Bella when Alice merely shrugged and told us that there might be someone at the theater they were going to see that Bella might be mildly interested in.
I felt something rise in my throat and before I could choke out the words, Emmett asked who the hell was Bella planning to see and to this Alice merely shrugged and walked out the front door. I looked at Bella to see that she had been looking at me and when our eyes met, a very soft blush spread across her cheeks. Then she was out the door, following Alice.
I cleared my throat and followed them out. Bella was only a few feet ahead of me, walking toward the car. The sway of her hips in that short skirt was hypnotizing and it took every ounce of my willpower not to pin her against the car.
I was thinking about the ride to the movies. Alice and Bella were sitting in the back seat while I rode up front with Emmett. They weren't talking about anything important, but the sound of Bella's voice had me craning my head toward them just so I could hear her.
I listened now as we walked through the woods. She was quiet. We hadn't said a word since we parted from Alice and Emmett. Dumb ass Emmett and his ideas.
We were looking for the meadow. He thought it would be cool to find it and then once we did, he wanted to throw some kind of tail gate party which didn't make sense. If it was hidden as well as we all thought, there probably wouldn't be any way to bring his truck there.
I let my thoughts wander again back to the end of that night after the movies. When I sat in the back seat with Bella, one of those long legs had brushed against me. I thought I was going to lose it right there in the car. That would not be cool since my sister and my best friend, Bella's brother, were riding up front. I don't think they would've appreciated me experimenting on the eight different ways I imagined getting Bella to moan my name.
My footsteps quickened as if I were trying to run away from those impure thoughts. Then in another minute, I heard the unmistakable sound of a hard thump against the ground. The sound caused fantasies of having Bella in the backseat of a car to disappear and I was brought back to the woods.
I turned around to see Bella on her stomach while letting out several choice words.
I walked back to her and picked her up by her elbow. "Are you alright?"
She stood up and shook my arm off. "What? Are you talking to me now?" She didn't even look at me when she walked off.
I let out a long sigh. Yeah, this was not good. I followed her, but kept my usual distance.
After a minute, she said something, but I didn't catch it. "What did you say?"
She kept walking, but turned her head. "I said, where the hell are we supposed to be going anyway?"
"I have no idea."
She stopped abruptly and turned to face me. "What do you mean you have no idea?"
Her forehead wrinkled in that way that told me that she was pissed. Great. "Then why have you been walking through this forest like you knew where you were going?"
"Geez. You know I have trouble walking through the woods." She looked down at her self and started to dust off her knees.
I'm officially the world's biggest jerk. I was so caught up in not trying to show my feelings toward Bella that I wasn't thinking about her welfare at all.
I shortened the distance between us in two quick strides. "I'm sorry. I was thinking about stuff and. . . I wasn't paying attention."
She was now dusting off her sleeves. "Well, what were you thinking about that made you lose track like that?"
I hesitated before I said, "Nothing."
Bella's dark eyes studied my face. I was afraid that it was obvious what I was thinking about. After a minute, a look of frustration occupied her face and she said, "Right." And turned away and continued walking.
I followed her, but this time I stayed close enough that in case she fell again, I could catch her.
After a couple of minutes, she stopped again, but she didn't turn around. "This is stupid. We have no idea where we're going and we both don't want to be here."
I couldn't help feeling stung by her words. As stupid as it may seem, I did like being around her. I just had to be careful and it was getting more and more difficult lately.
I stepped beside her and looked at her. "I'm sorry."
She scanned the forest. "For what?"
For wanting you when I shouldn't. For wanting to touch you in a way that brother-like people had no right to do. For wanting to taste-
I shook my head. "What?"
She rolled her eyes. "Never mind." She took a step forward.
I touched her elbow. "Wait."
She stopped and looked at me.
What do I do now? I ran my fingers through my hair to try and stall. After a moment, I said, "I'm sorry we're stuck with one of Emmett's crazy ideas. And I'm sorry that. . . you got stuck with me."
Bella looked at me as if to see if I was telling the truth. Then her expression softened and she said, "Well, I suppose it could've been worse. At least this way, it's quiet." A small smile pulled at the corner of her mouth before she said, "I could've been stuck listening to Emmett talk about all his plans for the meadow."
She was not helping at all. She looked at me with mild amusement in her eyes and her lips spread into a breathtaking smile.
I wanted to kiss her.
Instead, I took her hand and we continued walking. "Come on. Let's try to find the meadow."
I told myself that it would be best if we held hands in case she might fall again, but I knew I was being selfish. Our relationship never crossed into anything more than just friends, but because we had been always around each other, there would be harmless contact like an arm around her shoulders or elbows touching. Some harmless gesture that was meant as a sign of friendly affection.
But then it changed after that day at the cabin when she was in that red bikini.
That damn red bikini.
After that, whenever we had any sort of physical contact, I couldn't help wanting there to be something more. I figured it was because I knew what was under her clothes now.
I was a bastard for wanting more.
She was Emmett's sister. Younger sister.
I shouldn't be having thoughts like this about her. She looked up to me like another brother and here I was aching to lick the skin between her breasts.
The idea of taking advantage of her like that sickened me. She trusted me and she looked to me for protection. What kind of sick bastard takes advantage of that?
When I realized that, I decided I needed to distance myself from her.
I decided that I would allow this one gesture. This one time. After this, no more. The wanting was getting unbearable. Luckily there were only a couple months left until I'd be leaving for UDub and I wouldn't have to try so hard to fight these feelings.
"Hey, what's that?" Bella pointed a finger with her free hand toward a parting between two trees.
"I don't know." My grip on her hand was more firm as we continued walking toward the two trees.
When we got there, I heard Bella gasp beside me.
It was the meadow.
She was the one to take a step first into the clearing. She hadn't let go of my hand and I willingly followed her. I'd follow her anywhere.
This was one of those moments when everything was brighter, more colorful, and just clearer. I'm sorry to say that I don't remember what Bella was saying, but the way she was leading me into the meadow was absolutely mesmerizing.
She still had my hand in hers, but she had turned around to say something to me and at the same time she kept walking. It was all happening in slow motion. Her hair bouncing with her every step, her eyes widening and crinkling at the sides when she smiled. God, that smile. It took every ounce of my willpower not to cover her mouth with mine.
And the light.
It was twilight time. The light was soft and it caressed her face, giving it an almost incandescent glow.
She was leading me into the meadow, but I might as well have been lead into oblivion. At that moment, I knew one thing for certain. This wasn't an infatuation. This wasn't me being a hormonal teenage boy. This wasn't a fleeting crush.
This was forever.
I was irrevocably in love with Bella Swan.
I was so fucked.
I was brought out of my thoughts when I realized Bella was only inches away from me. The smell. Her smell. My eyes closed as I took her in.
"Edward?" she asked again.
My eyes flew open.
"Are you alright?"
She looked at me with genuine concern. "Uh. . . yeah. I just. . ."
"Do you feel dizzy?"
"You looked like you were going to pass out for a second."
Her eyes examined my face. "Come on." She sat down on the ground and tugged on my hand.
There was a bit of concern in her expression, but something else as well. I looked at her for a minute and realized she was afraid. What could she be afraid of?
As if reading my mind, she said, "I don't know what's going on with you lately. You. . . You're different. We don't. . ." She looked away for a moment and her face crumpled, but she quickly recovered. "Whatever's going on with you, do you think you could just. . . put it aside for just a little while and just. . . be with me?"
I felt like I was knocked down on my ass and the air was taken out of my lungs. She had no idea how much I wanted to be with her. She was still holding my hand and was now giving me an almost pleading look. God, if she only knew.
I couldn't form any words, so I nodded and sat beside her.
We sat next to each other. Our legs stretched out in front of us. It was like some unspoken agreement that our bodies wouldn't touch. We had let go of our hands and I was sad for the loss.
After a moment, Bella turned to me and held up an ear bud. "Wanna listen?"
"Sure." I took the offered ear bud and put it in my ear. It was The Platters.
Together at last at twilight time.
I couldn't help letting out a small laugh. Alice had mentioned that she was going through an oldies phase much to her annoyance.
In this moment, it felt safe to be with her.
She looked at me with a raised eyebrow.
I shook my head not willing to explain my jumbled thoughts about her. Instead I brought my arm around her.
Her eyes widened at the contact and for a second I thought it was a mistake. Her surprise quickly disappeared only to be replaced by another breathtaking smile.
Bella moved closer to me and rested her head on my shoulder. I resisted the urge to kiss the top of her head. Instead I lowered my head, so that my cheek brushed against her hair and then I was captivated by strawberries and freesia. I closed my eyes and let her smell envelop me and the music became the soundtrack for this moment.
This moment. This memory would later become a source of inspiration and bittersweet torture.
In this moment, we were just Bella and Edward. The meadow had enabled us to be two people enjoying the other's company.
But once we stepped out of the meadow, she would become Bella, my best friend's sister.
I would become Edward, the guy who is like-a-brother-but-who-really-wants-to-get-into-his-best-friend's-sister's-pants.
But deep down, I knew I wasn't really that guy. I also knew I couldn't be anything more to Bella. Emmett was my best friend. We had gone through so much together. He wouldn't understand if I told him that I was in love with his younger sister.
So, until I had to put the mask back on, I'd enjoy this moment and dream that some day I might have more than a fleeting moment in a meadow to show Bella how much I love her.
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