OK, GUYZ, WELL, I HAD A LONG WEEKEND, STUCK INSIDE, CUZ IT BASICALLY RAINED, THE WHOLE TIME, SO I WRITTEN THIS AND I JUST WANTED TO GO AHEAD AND POST FOR THE HECK OF IT, I DONT KNOW IF YOU GUYZ WILL LIKE IT, SO HERE IT GOES...

this is kind of a post conscious, and i thought it would be good, i just hope you guyz do, so here yall go.

“Elliot….It’s about….”

“He’s dead.” Elliot cut in, heading straight for the door.

“Didn’t survive surgery.” Olivia tried to get out, but he was basically out the door. Olivia turned around to follow him but,

“Olivia, don’t.” Cragen stated she turned around to face him, she had two options, follow Elliot or listen to Cragen, she already knew how one would turn out, so why not go for the other? Olivia turned around and walked out the door, Elliot just took off, after all, she had to do something, at least talk to him.

By the time she reached the hallway, she saw him talking to Casey, neither one looking at all happy, but there was no reason to be. When Casey passed her, Olivia gave her a questioning look, but nothing, so she turned to Elliot, who kept walking down the hall.

“Elliot!” she yelled, after him, but he just kept on walking, “El” she stated.

There wasn’t anything he could’ve done, he knew that, he just hated being accused, but the thing he hated the most, he honestly didn’t know what he would’ve done himself. But thinking that, the next thing he knew, someone was dragging him in the locker room, when he turned around he saw that it was Olivia, which probably wouldn’t help much, because he didn’t know what to say or even what to think.

Olivia rested her hand on his shoulder to turn him, so he would fully face her.

“Elliot, what is going on? What happened at the court house?” she breathed, searching his eyes. He squinted and turned around, shaking his head,

“I’m sure you’ve already heard what happened.” He dismissed, pacing the room with his hands on his hips.

“Yes, but I want to hear it from you.” She requested, quietly, studying his every move. She had an idea through this whole case whey it was eating at him, but she didn’t quiet know the whole reason, after all, every case with kids effected him, that’s what made a good father, what proved that he was.

“Ah, there’s nothing to tell, I just, I just….” He trailed off, slumping into a bench, with is head in his hands. Olivia sighed and walked in front of him, leaning against the lockers, maybe she didn’t know what to say either, maybe coming wasn’t such a good idea after all.

“Elliot maybe you just need some rest, maybe go home and ge some sleep.” She suggested blindly,

“No.” he breathed. She rested her hand on his shoulder,

“Look El, that’s not giving up, sleep never hurt anybody,” she stated shaking her head; Olivia started to knead his shoulder as he breathed in again.

“Maybe you should just leave and let me be alone.” He shot back, squeezing his eyes shut, consecrating on the one spot she kept working on with her fingers. Olivia stopped and he looked up, locking eyes with her,

“Maybe you should admit it when you need to talk about something.” She threw. In her own words, lending a listening ear, but of course he would never accept the offer, sometimes she asked herself why she even bothers. Elliot slowly stood up while she backed up to move out of his way, his piercing gaze so dominating, she felt like he was looking right through her.

“You’ve never been the person to admit things.” He stated, stepping closer to her, something finally snapping, if she wouldn’t leave him alone. Olivia faltered, not sure where he was going with this, so she just kept stepping back until her back finally bumped into a locker, right where he wanted her.

“What do you mean?” she asked, trying to turn the conversation somewhere else so she didn’t look as confused as she felt. Her heart skipped a beat when his eyes trailed down to her lips, lingering for a couple of seconds before they slowly dragged themselves up to her eyes. Olivia watched his atom’s apple bob up and down as he swallowed, thinking of any answer to say. He just kept stepping closer and closer, usually he would stop at about a foot away, which was close enough for them but this was too close, it terrified her with his close proximity, she hated the fact that she had no idea what the hell was going on, the things that were running through her mind….

“You know what I mean” he stated simply, which wasn’t good enough for her.

He knew what he wanted an odd time and place, but she was right here and vulnerable, Olivia Benson looked vulnerable, she had left her guard down for some odd reason, something he thought he would never see, especially something he seemed to be causing. And damn, did he need her, he needed her comfort, in a way he has never gotten from her, from anyone, he needed this, he needed her, plain and simple, they were both human beings, they could act normal, if they wanted to, couldn’t they? They could let this slip just once, right?

He was so close, his face, was about 4 inches from hers, it would be so easy, just to dip his head, her soft supple lips pressed against his, shear bliss, that’s all he knew, if it ever happened. Elliot wanted to take her right against the lockers, when he found her eyes had found his lips, hesitating for only a second before they gazed up at him.

“Your trembling.” He stated softly in realization.

She quickly nodded.

“Ya, uh, I should go.” She got out, trying to move away from, but Elliot placed both his arms on either side of her head, boxing her in, she was not going to get away from him this time, not with out a fight, or unless she really told him to stop.

Olivia quickly looked up and met his eyes.

“Now you want to leave.” He stated looking down at her.

His breathing became faster when he realized she couldn’t tear her eyes away from his lips, couldn’t, or didn’t want to, either way that was just incredible.

“Liv,” Elliot stated, but he couldn’t wait any longer, his head drifted towards her.

“Stop.” She stated quietly.

Elliot pulled away instantly and looked down at her, questioningly, he immediately looked down further and scratched his head, feeling as embarrassed as ever and this was with Olivia, he never really expected, or that’s it, he didn’t think, he never did. He quickly stepped away from her whey they heard the locker room doors open, and than Cragen appeared around the corner of the lockers.

“Good, you two, Elliot you should probably go home, get some rest, and Olivia, finish some paper work or something, that’s it, other wise you should head out as well, we have everything wrapped up her.” He stated, his eyes darting suspiciously between the two, but quickly shook off the idea and walked back out.

Elliot glanced over at Olivia and she looked away, trying to still figure out what had just happened between them.

“Liv, I…I got to got get my coat.” He said for no reason what so ever, jabbing his thumb to the door.

“So, I guess I’ll she you later?” Elliot turned around and headed towards the door, but Olivia followed in toe.

She had no idea what she was doing, her breathing was labored she was only concentrating on his back in front of her, it seemed like nothing else mattered, everything else around her was a blur, it was only her and Elliot walking down a hallway, when they reached the squad room Elliot turned to walk up the stairs to the cribs and Olivia just silently followed.

Elliot had no idea she was behind him until he walked in and she shut the door behind them, he turned around, only to collide with her lips….

SO I STOP RIGHT THERE OR CONTINUE??