I love him.

'I love him.'

I really, really do...

'Is it wrong to feel this way?'

He's the enemy...

'He wants to destroy me, right?'

He'd never feel the same way.

'It's insane to feel like this; I can't believe I'm even having this conversation with myself!...When did I start talking to myself period?'

He'd hate me if I told him.

'I could never make him hate me; I would probably DIE if that were to happen...'

He would turn his back and walk away.

'Would he be disgusted if I ran after him?...That's probably a stupid question...Of COURSE he would be, anyone would! I know if HE told ME, I'd...be giddy...Agh, I forgot I'm the freak...of course I wouldn't react like normal people...'

I need him around; he's my best friend...

'How could I possibly think to call him that? He's the ENEMY.'

He trusts me; I have to be there for him when he needs me.

'When he's hurt, or sick, or upset, or wasted or...in love...'

Why did that last thought make me so sick?

'I would definitely support him if he fell in love with someone. I would definitely try to heal him if she broke his heart (same cannot be said for whatever bitch would do that to him)...'

I can't lose him.

'He means too much to me.'

I'll be satisfied with what I have.

'Anytime with him I have is more than I deserve; I'm such a creep for being like this...'

Oh, here he comes.

'I can never tell him.'

Just smile.

'Don't say anything.'

Say hello.

'Keep your mouth shut!'

He's so cute...

'God, I love him...'

He's biting his lip...

'Did I do something wrong?'

Does he know?

'I was so careful...'

He seems upset...What's wrong?

'What could possibly be the matter?'

He's mad at someone...He must know...I'm so sorry...

'Why are you apologizing? You're perfect...'

I can't control myself any longer; if he knows, I have to tell him anyway before he rejects me. I'll never be able to live with myself if I don't...

'He's got that look on his face...like he's having some kind of internal battle...He's so sweet...I wish I could hold him and...call him mine...UGH, I'm such a FREAK.'

He deserves so much better...

'I can't help it any longer.'

One kiss won't hurt.