The sounds were so loud! Everywhere he turned he could hear those awful screams and he had nothing to silence them with. It seemed that even with no one but himself in that house voices always filed the room. Nailbunny refused to speak with the doughboys listening in. It was too easy to confuse and anger Johnny that things were better said in private. The doughboys would scream constantly at Johnny to either kill himself or trudge on with his pathetic life. Everything was so confusing and their was so much pressure on what to do or how to handle a situation. Honestly the only person he could really turn to was Todd. Yes little 6 year old Todd Casil was the only one that would let Johnny rant on about anything and everything until he wet himself. Surely he could sink no lower.

While days and nights passed time seemed to go only slower. Torturing victims became less enjoyable and he found that as he looked around no one was really worth killing. They could be the biggest assholes ever but he figured it's more the people they're hurting's fault for not standing up for themselves. People can be so pathetic and cowardly that in the end they're not worth saving. So many people become disappointments tot he human race. it was a wonder why they all get to walk around so freely. Does anyone besides him see the damages and horrors of this reality? Or are they just denying the fate that awaits them so they can live the remainder of their lives in a way that only makes them happy disconcerning the people around them? I guess... no one gives a fuck.

So to make matters even more complicated it's 2 A.M. and just when the voices start to die down more screams become audible from the house next door. And what do you know... Mr. Casil was once again telling Todd what a worthless piece of shit he was. Honestly that guy needs to pull the knife out of his ass and realize that if he didn't want to have a kid he should have either had an abortion or not have sex. I mean no one ever said a condom was 100 effective. It's his own damn fault his life turned out this way. And he was so loud!

That was all it took to get Johnny out of his house. He went to Todd's window and saw Mr. Casil yelling at Todd while he was on his bed with tears streaming down his face. His father took Shmee from him and took his pocket knife out and stabbed him and pinned him to the wall. That was probably why Todd was crying. He was used to hearing his fathers hurtful words but that bear was his best friend.

Johnny quietly snuck through the window and came around to face Todd. He was behind his father and he had a toy truck in hand. In one swift motion he struck Mr. Casil and he went crashing down. He hit the floor and was unconscious. Johnny dropped the toy truck and walked over to Todd. It was time for yet another intimate moment.

"Squee?"

Squee looked up wide eyed at Johnny.

"The voices in my head sound louder and louder with each passing day. I finally started to get some peace and quiet when your ignorant fuck of a father started yelling. I guess my real question is... why don't you fight back? I know your shy but I also know you have it in you to stand up for yourself."

Squee looked down and thought for a moment. Why didn't he fight back? Well because it meant less of a problem for him. If he fought back it would drag on and on instead of the usual screaming and leaving. He wasn't curious to see how well he could hold up in a fight.

"I don't know."

What that was it?! No he knew he just didn't know how to tell Johnny. In all honesty he didn't want to try to change anything without being certain of the outcome. Smart no?

"Well I'm tired of it. Your old man is a pain in the ass. I told you I could take care of him. It might take some time but it'll be worth it. Hm?"

Todd got wide eyed once again. He feared what Johnny would do to his father. Can't blame him. Todd shook his head no and went to retrieve Shmee from the wall. Him being so small couldn't reach his lifeless friend but not to worry, Johnny was tall enough to get him. And he did. Johnny looked back at the window and decided to try to enjoy what was left of the silence. Todd crawled back into bed and watched Johnny crawl out the window. Before he left Johnny looked back at Todd and sighed. The kid really needs help. He closed Todd's window and ran back to his house.

His favorite late night show had ended a while ago and now that everything was quiet... he had nothing to do. He wasn't hungry and the idea of a brainfreezy or cherry fiz wiz didn't really excite him. He had no one to talk to and nothing of importance to attend too. He was alone and... bored.

He decided to take a late night walk. But trekking along in this hellish town would probably do nothing for him. If anything it would only confuse him more. All the people walking around seeming so lost. Other feeling superior than they really are. And more than likely people just as confused as him. It wouldn't help him make up his mind on whether to die or not or maybe even leave this hell hole. Everywhere else couldn't be any better than this. But he walked anyway. And all the people along the way made him want to scream in annoyance. Their lives couldn't possibly be as bad as his so what could make them so depressed and suicidal? As if they had any real reason. It was probably becoming a trend. And it sickened Johnny.

And so he returned home only to be welcomed by the screams and shrills that stained his walls. The doughboys presence was made known and now he had to face them... again.

"This is getting old. Why make such a dramatic entrance Mr. Fuck? I don't see your partner Mr. Eff."

He just stared at Johnny amused by his obvious annoyance.

"Well why not make a dramatic entrance? It shows my character. Mr. Eff is deciding to remain silent for now. Would you feel more comfortable with both of us engaging in this conversation?"

"No, no! Just wondering... And fuck character you just want to annoy me. Sorry to say but everyone else in the whole damn world beat you to it. What is it that you have to say now?"

"Hah. You make me laugh spunky boy. I just simply must give you my reasons for killing yourself. The list got updated since we last chatted."

"You mean last night?"

"Yes. Now hasn't it occurred to you that this life really isn't worth living? All of the bad people that don't care will just cause you more pain with their careless mistakes. Their ignorance makes you cringe. Face it you have nothing. Without killing you've become an empty shell. You have no love, no one who cares for you nor someone for you to care for, no job, absolutely nothing to give you fulfilment. Why keep on going with life?"

"Your wrong! I do have someone to care for! Squee..."

"That timid little neighbor boy? Honestly?! Why care for someone who won't stand up for himself? Isn't he one of those people that you blame for being a target for other people to pick on?"

"He doesn't know how! Anyone over the age of 9 knows how to bitch at their parents and fight for what they want. The same can be said for any person being harassed by an asshole. But he's only 6! What can he do?"

"He knows how people in the world are going to treat him because of his screwed up parents. Shouldn't he know that they're actually helping him by giving him that knowledge? He should fight back!"

"No! I don't have the slightest idea as to why but he has faith in people. Maybe he can see the good in people but I can't! He's innocent and the only good person left in this world. He doesn't know any better so what do you expect? Huh?!"

"But aren't you seeing the good in him right now? By seeing his innocence?"

"What made you want to step in Mr. Eff?"

"Interest."

"Whatever. This conversation is over! I'm going to stay alive Mr. Fuck so get over it and Mr. Eff I'm not living for you but you should be interested to know that I don't live for myself anymore."

After those words escaped his lips Johnny walked away. He went into his bedroom and for once decided to try to sleep. Who knows maybe this time it'll help him. But only if he survives his nightmares.

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A/N: Well this is chapter one. It's an introduction. Chapter two will be up soon but I would appreciate reviews to know if I should even continue. SamNny