Musical: Next To Normal
Song: Perfect For You (Reprise)

NATALIE
Hey, hey

Daisuke pulled Satoshi onto the empty cushion beside him, running a comforting hand through the other’s silvery blue tresses. He hummed and softly played with the other’s hair, the perfect picture of peace and relaxation.

“Daisuke, let me go,” Satoshi gritted out lowly, his tensed body contrasting drastically against his boyfriend’s tranquil stature. He flexed his forearm, causing a sharp pain to run up and down his arm and stop the flow of blood to his fingers.

HENRY
Stay, let's see this thing through

Well, aside from his clenched fist, which was busy crushing Satoshi’s forearm in a dominating grip, Daisuke was the perfect picture of peace and relaxation. “No, Satoshi, or else you’ll start ranting again. And pacing.”

“It’s not ranting if it’s true, it’s confessing.” Satoshi jiggled his arm.

Daisuke simply ran his hand through Satoshi’s hair again, fruitlessly willing his own calmness to channel through his fingers into the blunette’s skull. “You’re only hurting yourself because of this. Please, you have to try to heal. You’re too in control to let him consume you like this.”

NATALIE
Am I crazy?
I might end up crazy

HENRY
I'll be here for you

Satoshi let out a humorless bark of laughter. “’In control’? I’m not in control. He’s still in control, despite his absence. I can’t fight his memory. You know how hard it is for me to let go.”

“You try hard, and that’s enough.”

“My trying hard is not enough. I’m going to crack one day. I’m going to crack and go insane, so insane that I’m going to believe he’s still here.” Satoshi paused, his eyes widening for a split second. Clearing his throat, his shook his head. “He’s not here anymore…he’s gone.” He took off his glasses, pinching the bridge of his nose in agitation. “But I can’t forget everything I’ve been through because of him,” he spat.

NATALIE
You say that right here
But then give it a year
Or 10 years or a life
And I could end up your wife

“Don’t talk like that… I’m here. You don’t have to worry about anything happening. I’ll help you through anything and everything. You know I will.”

“I know you can try, but really, how much is trying going to get us both? I can try to let go, and you can try to support me, but there are always lines. And these lines will eventually be crossed. One day I’ll snap; I’ll morph into my own interpretation of him, believing that he’s here controlling me. One day you’ll give up, because I’ve been pushed far too deep in this to be saved.”

Sitting staring at walls
Throwing shit down the stairs
Freaking out at the store
Running nude down the street
Bleeding out in the bath

There was a moment of tense silence before Daisuke quietly spoke.

“No one is ever too deep to be saved. Everyone can be saved.”

Satoshi gave an uncharacteristic snort, easing his arm out of Daisuke’s loosened grip and rubbing the area gently. “Always the optimist, Daisuke. Well not all of us were raised by a woman who vomits rainbows.” Seeing Daisuke’s stern look, he shook his head apologetically. “See? I’m lashing out. I can’t control myself. I can’t be helped.”

HENRY
Perfect for you
I will be perfect for you
So you could go crazy
Or I could go crazy, it's true
Sometimes life isn't sane
But crazy I know I can do

Daisuke smiled softly, brushing his fingers across Satoshi’s cheek fondly. “You used to say that all the time, back when we were still vessels. I would reach out to you, and you would push me away. And look where that got us.”

Satoshi managed to smile at Daisuke’s loving tone, reaching up to grasp the redhead’s stroking fingers within his. Sighing softly, he kissed the tips of Daisuke’s fingers with his quirked lips. “We’ve gotten very far.”

Cause crazy is perfect
And fucked up is perfect
So I will be perfect

“My point exactly.” Daisuke smiled.

Satoshi gripped Daisuke’s hands gently, his usually blank eyes glinting. “Somehow, you say the most perfect things that make everything better…”

“It’s not that I say things that make situations better. It’s that I work as hard as I can to make them so.”

NATALIE
Perfect

BOTH
Perfect for you

Daisuke placed a chaste kiss on Satoshi’s cheek, squeezing his hands tightly. “You’re convinced that you can’t be helped, and I’m determined to help you. Just like old times. Maybe it’s our routine that’s perfect here.”

Killah: Hahaha. Wow. Am I dead to fanfiction? Pretttyyyy much. …Shucks, I sure do suck. Well summer really helped me to come back to this site; I’ll admit that. I’ve been writing a little for each of my ongoing stories (including The Other Side, surprisingly)…except for Why The Caged Bird Sings. Honestly, that one is kicking my ass. So I’m going to write for every other story until inspiration hits. I mean, if I was inspired to write this and continue my other ones, WTCBS may resurrect itself. Hopefully.