another appologies I owe: 1- for taking too long to write this chapter. 2- for making it longer (again)- eventhough some really nice reviewer LOVED reading longer chapters. 3- for making it horrible again, eventhough I think it's one of my favorit chapters I enjoyed writing. 4- making it boring, rather than funny.
anyway, would like to thank those who like to review. and would appreciate more reviews (honestly, it's not that difficult, it's less than the ammount of time you spend on reading this chapter)

January 9th 2008 Wednesday

9:00- Just woke up and found Alice and Rose snoring like two men from the regency era.
9:05- would Rose and Alice get mad if I order something from the room service without telling them?
9:06- maybe I should wake them up
9:07- or not.
9:08- will eat later, and turn the TV on.
9:13- everything is in French.
9:16- a man just said "merde" hahaha, I know this word.
9:25- Gaah, Rose just woke up. And burst into "Where the fuck am I?"
9: 40- Alice just woke up and said "I'm so fucking hungry"

10:15- we finally ordered some food when both of the birds woke up. As usually we had the normal breakfast that the French serve. And now we are packing so we can check out at noon and then say goodbye to Paris. I'm depressed already.

10:20- should start packing.
10:25- should start packing, now.
10:30- I seriously should move my arse and start packing.
11:00- goody. Half of my stuff are already inside the suitcase.
11:10- fuck! There's no fucking room in this fucking suitcase, honestly, why I can't squeeze everything inside. I only bought few things since I've arrived. Just few.
11:20- HURRAH. Can't believe everything is inside my suitcase.
12:15- I DON'T WANT TO GO HOME. Now I have to go home, and look for a bloody job. Oh wait, Edward Cullen is offering me one. So he'll call me, and I'll ask him about James. Hard to believe I've forgot about James. But wonder what Edward has done to him? What happened yesterday? Was it because of their lost friendship? Bloody Hell.

22:00- We stuck around in Paris for some extra hours, and then we went home. I'm already missing Paris, and I hate home, when I first came into my house, or actually my parent's house (I'm seriously considering moving out), my mum, instead of saying "I miss you honey" she looked at me as if I'm useless, and said, "I hope Paris has done you good". What in the name of arse she means by that?

Moments I felt like crying: 300, times kept saying "oh I love Paris": 300, Times I thought about James and Edward: enough to make every cell in my mind filled with E and J, Hours spent on packing: 2/3, minutes spent on packing: 40, minutes spent on unpacking: 7(haha, you just throw everything out), times spent on arranging the unpacked things: 2 hours.

January 10th 2008 Thursday

12:03- Rose just called and said she had told Emmett about James appearance, and Emmett had told her that he hadn't told James about our journey to Paris, and he hadn't even met him.
"So, how in the name of Arse he knew we would be going there?" I shouted.
"no idea" replied Rose.
"maybe he was stalking us? Bloody hell"
"I swear Emmett was surprised when I told him about James, and he's telling the truth"
"Alice was right, shouldn't trust James"
maybe I should call Alice. She's wiser.

12:30- I called Alice and told her about what Rose has informed me.
"typical" she said.
"what you mean?"
"it's typical of a vampire"
"so Edward is also a vampire?"
"Edward?" she said like she doesn't know what I'm talking about, and then "oh yeah, listen babes, will call you back later. Fuck!", and she hanged up, apparently she was cooking.

14:43- Gaaaah. My mobile was ringing, and surprisingly it was Edward Bloody Cullen, who has nothing to do except calling people and disturbing them while they're eating lunch. Apparently he doesn't eat lunch, so he just calls people.
"Am I disturbing?" he asked when I picked up the phone, half of my mouth filled with chips.
"erm" I said, unable to utter a word, from my full mouth.
"Bella?" he repeated.
"Edward?" I said after I swallowed the food.
"erm, how was Paris?"
"good, it says hi"
"Am I disturbing?" yes you were! I'm bloody eating.
"no. not at all"
"I need to tell you something" he said coldly, "Am I welcomed to come into your house?"
"erm, yeah.. ."
And so he hanged up.

14:46- I'm bloody waiting for Edward Bloody Cullen and I have a suspicious feeling he will be late., or will never come. Thanks God mum is not home, or else she would embarrass me in front of him and he would not only think I'm weird, but also I have a very weird family, which wouldn't be shocking. Who cares what that bloke thinks anyway?
14:48- still hasn't showed up. What in the name of arse he thinks he's doing? Do I look like I have the whole day to wait for bloody him? GAAAAAAAAAAAH. Someone's I knocking on the door!

15:16 - it took Edward 6-7 minutes to arrive, which wasn't actually that late. When he came to my house, he didn't give a damn how it looked like to him.
"You okay?" he inquired when he sat down in the living room.
"yeah"
"look" he started seriously, "would it be awkward if I tell you not to get closer to James Killan at all?"
"errr"
"seriously"
"is it because he's a vampire?" I asked, and would have regretted it.
"what?"
"Nothing. It's a joke between the girls and me"
"oh" he looked suspicious.
silence.
"he's just a dangerous one" he said quietly.
another silence, and I noticed he was looking inside my eyes, with a look I couldn't make out. So he is the weirdest man I've ever seen.
"so…" I started, as if everything is normal.
"He's so dangerous," he raised his voice "and if I have to keep you close to me forever in order to make you safe, I would".
I couldn't utter a single word. What I was supposed to say? He was acting very weird.
"look" he continued, "If he ever gets closer to you, just call me"
and he walked out the door. UNBELIEVABLE.

Weight: 134 lbs (being in France doesn't make you thinner, but it makes you really fatter), Calories: too much, annoyed by mum (again): 8 times, seconds spent thinking about Edward: 130X60= probably a long number, seconds spent starring at his phone no(from recent calls on my mobile): 20X60=that's easy 1200 (V.B), Seconds spent thinking about James:15X60=errrr… (better).

January 11th 2008 Friday

12:43- I've forgot to lock my door before I went to sleep yesterday and mum burst into my room while I was still asleep, "I just don't know what to do with you" she started, "you don't work, you don't clean the house, not even your own room, and you sit doing nothing"
"argh" I gasped, still asleep.
and then as I was still feeling useless, she kicked me out of my room and started cleaning it, throwing everything she doesn't like, and cursing me all the way.
I seriously should move out. I'm sick of mothers.

18:11- OMG OMG. Bloody hell. I just checked my email and I found this from a weird emails address that I have no idea to whom it belongs:
hey
you've been missing me baby?
Is there any chance I would be able to see you again?
I was thinking to pop by, sometime. Hope you'd welcome me
J

J=James? Oh bloody hell. Should I call Edward?
18:12- I should.

18:17- I just called Edward, and told him that James has sent me an email. so Edward said he'll come over. What I'm supposed to do now? He'll be here.

18:42- in the bathroom. OMG Edward came a second after I called him. He appeared from the window, and came inside without even asking. Thank god my room looked neat. He locked the door of my room, which I thought was wise since mum has a habit in coming anytime she wants without even knocking, and now she would think I'm shagging Edward Cullen in secret every single night, would seem cool, and mum would be really surprised and would get off my case, maybe buy me a new apartment, not like I'm interested in shagging Edward bloody Cullen, that bastard. Now I'm in the loo and I think I just left a vampire in my room all by himself, maybe he would drink the blood out of my stuff, my books, oh bloody hell, now he'll see what kind of stupid things I keep on my shelf, or the stupid chick-flicks I watch every night. Bloody hell. Should come and hide everything before he notices.

19:11-Kitchen. when I came back I found him sitting on my bed, in a manner of Valmont, as sexy as a seducer. I have to confess I'm having a secret crush on him now. But I shouldn't. he should still be a bastard.
I sat on the edge of the bed, to make him notice that I don't care that he's here, and I'm not in the least interested in him. And he can Fucking fuck off anytime he likes.
"what is that you're holding?" he asked as he looked at my diary.
"erm. Nothing. Just a journal, where I write all sort of rubbish"
he gave me a sweet grin. And I seriously believe that this man should smile more often.
"erm" he said again, after his sweet smile has vanished, "if I'm intruding and you want me t leave, I could stay outside and ..."
"that's fine" although I don't know what will we be doing all night.
"Alright, I'll just go and get you something to sleep on" honestly, my bed isn't that big.
"I don't sleep" he replied coldly.
"not at all? Not even during the days? Do you want coffee?"
"we never sleep" he assured.
"aright, I'll just go and make my own coffee"
"don't make it last long"
and when I went to the kitchen, where I am right now, mum has entered.
"so" she started, "coffee? For now? It's late, you'd probably never going to sleep and I don't want you to wake up late again, you should find a job"
"Mum. I have to work on something, that has nothing what so ever to do with you, so I have to be awake all night and don't you dare disturb me. and FYI I found a bloody JOB"

20:00-my room. When I came back to my room again, I also found Edward on my bed, was he trying to seduce me? Why doesn't he sit on the floor?
"erm look" I said while I was holding the cup of coffee, "I never asked you, what happened between you and James when I went back to the hotel?"
"you really want to know?"
"well. Yeah"
"Nothing, I just had to keep him away from you, so I just brought him back to London with me"
"why you want to keep him away from me?"
"as I said he's very dangerous"
"but, what if he liked me and wanted to be closer to me and wasn't that dangerous as you seem to think"
"he might say otherwise, but his real thoughts never lie"
"what do you mean?"
"now you really want to know? Well. I can read minds"
"OH HOLY JESUS. You can read minds? You've been reading my minds every time I'm around you? You bloody bastard!"
"I can read all minds, except yours"
"all vampires can read minds?"
"as far as I know it's only me, and just out of curiosity, how did you come to a conclusion that I'm a vampire?"
"well' it started when I once saw James with… doesn't matter, anyway, it was a joke between the girls and me, and then someone else who apparently knew you, assured to me that you and James are vampires"
"Sam?"
"how do you know that?"
"I've seen him once. He was actually telling the truth. I liked that Sam. I respected his ancestors. Anyway, when I adopted James, I thought he was going to be a fantastic partner, but some people can never be changed".
"so is that true that you have lost…"
"my wife. Yes. My mate, as in partner for life. James took her away, and she was killed because of him. He has cheated on me".
"that's very funny, cuz he once told me you've cheated on him, with his girl"
"I know, he tells people all sort of lies. Very typical of him"
"But why me? I mean. Why he's sort of after me, and why he's following me, or I don't know, why you're protecting me… if," I didn't know what to ask anyway, I was already confused.
"well. Partly, because your blood is irresistible, and the other part is because of me"
"and why you can't read my mind? What's wrong with me?"
"I tell you I can read minds and you think there's something wrong with you?" he grinned, again.
"mmm… so? What are we going to do now?"
"nothing. Just try to make you safe without anyone to suspect"
"can I tell the girls? They know you're a vampire, and its' not like we would tell anyone"
"just don't announce it to the world, I don't think a lot of people like vampires"
"okay" I nodded, "erm. Almost forgot. What about the job offer thing, the holy land project?"
"are you interested?"
"hell yes" I thought that was wise, and I needed the job so badly, and for being closer to Edward, for safety purposes only,
"okay" he grinned again (Dingdong), "I'll call you when everything is settled".
"I'll just go to the loo" and I held my diary.
"look. You don't have to go to the loo every time you want to write, that's fine, I won't look"
so I stayed, even though I can't trust him on this one.

Times annoyed by mum: 15, calories: too much, minutes spent thinking about Edward: 265 (V.B), times I wanted to kiss Edward: 50 (v.b. even though it's just to thank him).