|It is you I love
Author: lozzypoo PM
Now that Yuushi and Nagi have discovered their newfound love, outside forces are threatening to tear them apart and it all starts with the arrival of Yuushi's cousin, Hayato. There is going to be tears, heartache and some very disturbing secrets. review.Rated: Fiction K - English - Romance/Drama - Chapters: 4 - Words: 13,540 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 7 - Updated: 10-06-09 - Published: 08-26-08 - Status: Complete - id: 4501065
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Hey they're everyone. I am obsessed with the manga Invisible Boy and was just reading volume 1 when I realised how cute Nagi and Yuushi was together and how sad Nagi's situation was. So I decide to write a fic about them.
Summary- Finally Nagi's dad is coming home to be with him but once again Nagi is shattered when he realises it was a lie. He should be used to it by now but this time feels different. Heartbroken and alone he feels no one cares about him, but there is some who cares about him, even loves him. YuushiXNagi
It is you I love
Why did it hurt so much.
'Mum please don't leave' he screamed as the woman in front of him turned to leave.
'I'm leaving you behind Nagi. Goodbye' He stood there in the rain and watched the retreating form of his mother walk away. He wrapped his arms around his waist and sunk to the ground, tears of pain and loneliness falling down his cheeks.
It was all his fault.
'If you think your no good how can expect others to love you when you can even love yourself' he heard his father say over the vast darkness. He knew his father was right. How could he be loved when he didn't even love himself? He was no good. Pathetic, useless. It was all true.
He could feel the harsh rain beating down on him but he didn't care. He was alone in this vast darkness.
No one cared.
''I like you' a warm, kind voice said causing Nagi to open his eyes and look up into the most warmest eyes he had ever seen. Eyes that seemed so familiar. The person in front of him bent down so they were eye level.
'I like you just the way you are. You are you and there is no reason why you have to be perfect, Nagi' brown eyes widened and he reach out for the figure in desperation, like he was his last lifeline. His reason for existence.
'Yu-Chan please help me. I don't want to be alone' Nagi said franticly.
'I will never leave you because….' The voice was growing fainter and fainter causing Nagi to panic.
'Please Yu-Chan don't leave me to'
'I will always be here' Nagi strained to hear.
'YU-CHAN' Nagi screamed as he bolted up in bed. Beads of sweat ran down his face and his breath came in deep shallow breaths almost like he was gasping for air. After he gained a measure of awareness he looked around and realised he was in his room. He put his hand to his face and felt the cold wetness running down his cheek. He was crying. The dream was so vivid in his memory that he could remember the raw pain he felt when he watched his mother walk away and vanish into the darkness, never looking back. He was left alone again. Alone and abandoned.
But then a ray of light shined down on him, basking him in its brightness. He could remember the look of love in those blue eyes. It was like that look was reserved just for him.
And that face. It was a face he had seen a hundred times. A face that he would never want to forget.
'Yu- Chan' Nagi whispered in what seemed like longing. He sighed and moved a hand through his messy hair. Whenever he thought about the president he always remembered that day when Yuushi completed the 'blessing of the cherry blossom tree spirit' just for him. That was the day he realised how deep his feelings for Yuushi Kitou were.
He sighed again and climbed out of bed. He walked over to the window and opened the curtains to let the sun's rays warm up the dark room. It was just another day in his lonely life.
Nagi walked through the gates of Ouka Academy and couldn't help but glance at the scorn of squealing, giggling Mokuon girls waiting at the gates for something, or rather someone and Nagi didn't have to wait to see who it was: The girl's screams gave it away
'Oh there he is' a girl squealed catching the attention of everyone around her. Coming through the gate was the esteemed student council president of Ouka Academy, Yuushi Kitou. Handsome, charming, athletic as well as kind, caring and considerate. He was the proud and joy of Ouka.
The Mokuon girls flocked to him like metal to a magnet. Yuushi laughed nervously at the crowd of girls around him until his beautiful blue eyes landed on Nagi who was standing a few meters away. He smiled and called out his name.
'Nagi' he gently pushed his way through the sea of girls until he got to Nagi who was patiently waiting for him.
'Hi Yu-Chan' Nagi said trying to give his best smile but his dream was still vivid in his mind. Yuushi caught the sudden change and saw the sadden look on Nagi's face.
'Is something wrong Nagi' Yuushi asked, his voice laced with worry. It hurt him to see that something was worrying his little Nagi-Chan and he bet it had to do with his father.
Nagi suddenly grew nervous. He didn't want Yuushi to find out about his dream, it would only burden Yuushi more then he already is and he hated to burden anyone 'no nothing is wrong, really' Nagi smiled holding up his hands.
Yuushi knew better. Nagi had a tendency to keep things bottled up inside. Yuushi was the master of that tactic. He decided to play along.
'Ok then. Come lets go before Takamura-San gets here' Yuushi said as he and Nagi started walking towards the entrance, grabbing the attention of everyone they walked past.
'I hear the student council is getting even more requests for more activities then ever before' Nagi asked trying to get his mind off things.
'Yeah there are so many ideas to choose from' Yuushi said, excitement creeping in his voice.
Nagi couldn't help but smile at Yuushi's bubbly personality. That was the reason why Nagi couldn't wait to see him in the mornings. Yuushi was the only one who could do that.
'So why are you hiding form Takamura- Sempai' Nagi asked.
Yuushi laughed nervously 'ah no reason but you see I kind of told him that I would finish that speech for tomorrow but I am having a harder time then I thought with it'
'I'm sure he will understand' Nagi said trying to reassure the president
'Maybe but Takamura-San can be scary sometimes' Yuushi laughed and went inside with Nagi behind him who smiled, feeling content with just being near this wonderful person.
Nagi walked down the hallway towards the student council room. Scorns of people walked past him but he paid no attention to them as his mind was occupied on other things. Like his dream and his growing love for his president, which was becoming harder and harder to hide.
He failed to see Akira Takamura coming towards him before they almost bumped into each other.
'You seem to be in a daze, Nagi' Akira looked down at the blacked haired boy 'is there anything on your mind'
Nagi looked down at the floor, feeling embarrassed for being caught. He knew that Akira was a kind understanding person but he felt that it was too private to tell him about his dream
'No I was just thinking at Yu-Chan still has so much to do for the upcoming festival that I hope he is not straining himself' Nagi said. Well it was true Yuushi had so much work to do
'I'm sure Yuushi can handle it. He is the president after all and he has all council members to help him'
Nagi smiled at the truth of those words. Yuushi was so strong and thoughtful to anyone that Nagi wished that he could be like that
'I take it you were headed to the student council room' Akira said, breaking Nagi out of his thoughts.
'Oh yes I was'
'Well lets go then. That speech is not going to write itself'
Nagi opened the door to his house and walked in that afternoon, his tired muscles screaming for relief. He sighed as he took off his shoes and walked inside the rather silent house. He sometimes hated coming home at times. When there was no one to greet him and ask him 'how was your day' but it was only wishful thinking on his part.
He walked through the house, on the way pressing the button on the answering machine. He listened without any real interest knowing that any messages were just salespeople or for his father.
'Nagi it's me' a deep voice said over the machine. Nagi stopped and turned around to glance at the small black object, thinking that maybe this was some kind of trick.
'I will be coming home tonight at about 6:30 so make sure dinner is ready before I come home' the machine clicked off and silence once again fell over the room. Nagi stood rooted to the spot wondering if what he heard was real. Did his dad really say he was coming home? He went to the machine and replayed the message, making sure what he heard was real.
'He is coming home' Nagi said in disbelieve. As the possibility of his father actually coming home to be with him made him feel…happy.
He practically ran into his room to get changed to start preparing for his father's arrival. He didn't have time to go to the store so he threw anything he had together, hoping that it would satisfy his father.
Six-thirty arrived and Nagi was just putting the finishing touches around the house before siting down at the table and waited, now and then glancing around making sure everything was perfect.
After a while Nagi glanced at the clock '7:45, he must be late' Nagi said to himself but he could feel the familiar sense of dread growing in the pit of his stomach. He had to believe that his father was coming home, if nothing else.
By now the light from the candles had dimmed and the flickering light casting shadows across the room. Nagi leant his head on his arm and glance sadly over the food he had prepared, cold by now and most probably un-edible. The clock dinged and Nagi glanced over to it and almost cried.
'9:00. I guess he couldn't come after all' Nagi said trying to convince himself, but it was no use. The damage was done. He looked to the floor and felt a cold drop of water land on his curled fist. He blinked in surprise and lifted his hand to his cheek to find himself crying and he didn't even try to stop it.
He looked over to the answering machine in betrayal and cursed the black box of misery. He looked over to the phone and a sudden thought came to him. He slipped reluctantly from the table and walked over to the phone. He picked it up and dialled the only person who would understand what he was going through.
Yuushi was in the middle of working on his speech, which had to be written by tomorrow. He sighed and forced himself to continue knowing it was futile as no words came to him. He was about to take a break when the phone rang.
He walked over to it and picked it up.
'Hello' Yuushi said. At the other end of the line Yuushi could here sniffles, like someone had been crying
'Hello' Yuushi tried again.
'Yu-Chan' Nagi said. His voice filled with sadness.
'Nagi is that you. What's wrong' deep down Yuushi knew and it made him deeply worried.
'Can you come over…I don't want to be alone'
'I will be right there, Nagi just hold on' Yuushi said franticly before he hung up and grabbed his shoes and coat and raced out the door.
Yuushi ran straight over to Nagi's house right after he received the rather disturbing distress call from Nagi. He sounded so….frightened, like he was afraid to be alone making Yuushi even more worried.
He walked quickly up to the door and knocked loudly 'Nagi its me, open up' Yuushi demanded. He didn't have to wait long as the door opened and Yuushi suddenly had an armful of sobering Nagi.
They stood there for a couple of moments as Nagi cried and Yuushi let him. He knew that Nagi need to get let all his troubles out so he rubbed Nagi's back to comfort him and waited for Nagi to tell him what was wrong.
'He didn't come' Nagi managed to say in between sobs 'he said he was coming home to be with me. But it was all just a lie' he buried further into the warmness of Yuushi's chest and sobbed harder 'I am sick of it'
Yuushi looked down at the boy in his arms and smiled tenderly. He brought his arms around the trembling form and held him tightly. 'Its ok now, I'm here' Yuushi said quietly in Nagi's ear. Without letting go he led Nagi inside and closed the door. He lent against it and slid down to the floor, bringing a surprised Nagi with him.
'Do you want to talk about it' Yuushi asked the black haired boy in his arms. Nagi lent his head against Yuushi's warm chest; the feeling of those strong arms around him seemed to chase away his fears. Nagi sniffled a couple of times and sighed.
'I actually thought he was going to come home this time. I believed he actually found the time to be with me. But I guess it was just another empty promise. Dad was right, I will never be loved' Nagi started trembling again as fresh tears streaming down his face. He didn't know why he was so upset for. He should have known this was going to happen. Nagi laughed bitterly, making Yuushi flinch.
'I guess its stupid of me for crying over something like this' He was about to pull away in embarrassment when Yuushi's arms tightened around him and brought him back against his chest. They sat there for a couple of moments, either one not saying a word. Both just comfortable sitting there in each other's arms.
'That's not true' Yuushi said breaking the silence. His voice was laced with love and warmth that Nagi looked up into Yuushi's blue eyes and almost gasped at the emotions he read in them and they were all directed at him.
'That's not true at all' Yuushi repeated. He reached out and cupped Nagi's cheek and brought him closer.
'Never be ashamed of who you are Nagi because no one can take that way from you. This is you. It is you who makes me get up in the morning. It is you who I can't wait to see when I get to school. It is you who I love'
Nagi's eyes widened at the declaration and was about to respond when Yuushi leaned down and captured Nagi's lips in a kiss that spoke more then words ever could. Nagi couldn't believe what was happening but for some strange reason it felt so right. He felt Yuushi's lips glide over his sensually, waiting to be accepted and Nagi was more then happy to oblige the tender probing of Yuushi's lips.
Suddenly Nagi's world of pain and loneliness lifted and a bright stream of light chased away the darkness and filled his life with joy and happiness and it was all thanks to Yuushi, the person he loved.
They separated, both breathing heavily but did not want to be separated from the other so Yuushi leant back on the door content with just holding Nagi in his arms. It put him at ease to know that Nagi was here with him.
'Yu-Chan' Nagi whispered, a cute blush spreading across his cheeks.
'When did you know'?
'Know what' Yuushi looked down and couldn't help but smile at Nagi's blushing face.
'That…you loved me' Nagi said a bit embarrassed.
Yuushi chuckled and leaned down 'ever since I first glanced at that shy, looking boy sitting in the student council office looking lost and so adorable'
'Yu-Chan' Nagi said a bit outraged but softened and a bright smile blossomed on his face. He felt so happy at that moment that it was hard for him to express how he felt. So he did the only thing he could do: he leant up and captured Yuushi's lips in a surprise kiss. He felt himself tremble but Yuushi was there to support him, knowing that Nagi was trying to tell him that he loved him.
They parted and Nagi leant his forehead against Yuushi's and smiled, a true smile.
'I love you too, Yu-Chan'
How was that everyone? I just thought that Yuushi and Nagi should have their own fic. It was just so sad what was happening to Nagi so I thought what would happen if Yuushi went to comfort him. So I hope you like and remember to review