Author: seether79 PM
“I have this dream,” Ianto begun as he looked up at the woman sitting in front of him. “I’m not sure what it is… memories from a life forgotten; or just me going crazy.”Rated: Fiction T - English - Drama/Romance - Ianto J. & Jack H. - Chapters: 11 - Words: 21,136 - Reviews: 71 - Favs: 56 - Follows: 24 - Updated: 10-16-08 - Published: 09-29-08 - Status: Complete - id: 4567286
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Characters: Jack/Ianto, Team, Doctor (10th)
Spoilers: General spoilers for both seasons,
Summary: "I have this dream" Ianto begun as he looked up at the woman sitting in front of him. "I'm not sure what it is… memories from a life forgotten; or just me going crazy."
Beta: lj user"the9thdoctor" at lj user"plotbunniesinc"
Author's Notes: No longer canon, since Exit Wounds aired.
Warning: Character death (please still read)
Disclaimer: I do not own Torchwood (There would be a lot more boy action if I did)
Chapter11: Save The Last Dance For Me
Jack sighed as he watched Ianto leave the Hub quietly. It had been like this for the month since they sort of got back together. They would have sex; Ianto would then put on his clothes and leave right after. Jack missed and craved the emotional connection that they had, but when he thought about it he wasn't surprised; Jack knew how much easier it was to give your body to someone instead of your heart.
Jack wondered how much longer Ianto would do this before finally letting his carefully guarded walls back down; if he ever would let them down. He knew that Ianto was a private person who kept things to himself with the others, but after Lisa he and Jack had really gotten to know each other and Jack loved the fact that he was the only person that got to see all of Ianto and not just his sarcastic coffee making exterior.
Gwen thought Jack was taking advantage of Ianto, she had expressed her feelings over this to Jack many times and no matter how much he told her that he would never do that she just wouldn't believe him. She said that Ianto was feeling vulnerable after what happened to him and Jack was using the situation to worm his way back in. "Bloody Gwen." Jack mumbled to himself.
Jack was surprised to see his younger lover walking back into the Hub. He smiled and Ianto smiled back as he walked up into Jack's office. "Hey."
"I think my phone fell out of my pocket while we... I seem to have misplaced it." Ianto told him with a slight blush as memories from earlier in the evening filled his head with sinful images.
"Oh, right." Jack said as he looked at the floor around his chair to see if he could see it. He looked up at Ianto and watched him with a wistful gaze; he just wanted to wrap his arms around the slender man's waist and never let him go. "You could stay here tonight."
"What? No it's okay I have things I need to do out home." Ianto replied as he kept his eyes in search of his phone while avoiding Jack's gaze.
"Okay." Jack said with a disappointed tone before going back to search for the missing item.
"...Sorry." Ianto whispered feeling bad for turning him down. He and Jack had fallen back into bed together easily; Ianto had felt so at ease being with him again, but he was having a hard time with everything else in their relationship. He wanted to be with Jack again, fully and completely but his head was full of thoughts that haunted him. Thoughts that asked if he could really trust Jack with his heart and soul again, or his mind for the matter.
"It's fine." Jack said with a false cheeriness that made himself cringe. "Stuff to do."
"I," Ianto started and paused while he thought of the right words to say, "I know that you wanted more than this Jack, and I'm sorry but this is all I'm able to give you right now. But I promise it won't always be this way."
Jack looked up at Ianto and smiled. Ianto was the quiet member of his team but when the younger man spoke he sure knew how to make it count. "I know, and I'm sorry if you feel like I'm pressuring you or anything."
"No, Jack, I don't feel pressure. I just wish I could sort out my head so that we can be happy. That's all I really want, us happy." Ianto told him with a small grin. "Like it was before everything."
"Well, this seems like a good first step."Jack grinned. He noticed Ianto's phone just under his desk and picked it up. "I believe this is what you were looking for."
"Thanks." Ianto told him as he took the phone. He looked at the door and then at Jack and decided that maybe it was time to go forward instead of back. "Do you want to have some dinner? We could go to the little Italian shop around the corner?"
"I thought you had things at home you needed to do." Jack said to him.
"They can wait." Ianto told him as he held out his hand.
"Sounds nice." Jack replied as he grabbed his coat and took Ianto's hand. "But I am not having garlic bread this time, last time it made me vomit."
"I remember; that was my favorite tie." Ianto commented dryly as he and Jack started to make their way out of the hub.
"That's right; it was that nice red one."
"Well now it's green and in a dump somewhere." Ianto told him.
"Pity, you look great in red." Jack smirked.
"Jack, what are you doing?" Ianto asked, confused. They were in the middle of their dinner and Jack was driving him insane.
"What?" Jack asked confused and he placed his folk down and waited for Ianto to explain.
"What is it with this Mr. Polite thing? You've been acting like a blue blood for the last hour - it's weird." Ianto told him.
"I'm trying to be a better person, Ianto," Jack told him. "I want to treat you right this time."
"Other than the whole Retcon business there was nothing wrong with our relationship. In fact, I was very happy." Ianto told him with a small smile.
"Ianto, I treated you like dirt... I was horrible to you; I never showed you how much I cared." Jack said with a frown.
"What? That's not true, Jack and if we're going to work you need to act like yourself again. The shameless, flirty, crude and in-control man I know and adore. I like the person you are Jack, if I didn't I wouldn't have been with you in the first place." Ianto told him. "I don't want you to be someone you're not."
"I always thought you wished I was more caring." Jack said, a little surprised by what Ianto was saying to him.
"You cared, in your way. When Owen would give me shit you would always give me a soft smile that helped me feel better; you'd always make sure my suit was hung up for me in the morning; you tried to make me coffee that time you broke the machine..." Ianto started.
"If I remember correctly you said you'd kill me if I ever touched your coffee machine again." Jack reminded him.
"And I will." Ianto laughed. "But doesn't mean I wasn't happy that you tried. And when we would indulge in rougher role play there was always a moment when you would stop and caress my cheek softly, any time we have sex actually, no matter how weird the things we're doing, there is always a moment... Those show you care. I don't need you to be romantic all the time and always doting on me; all I need is the moments and I'm happy."
"So you want me to be a filthy arrogant jerk?" Jack asked with a smirk.
"No to the jerk, but yes to everything else. I want you to be who you are." Ianto replied.
"I can do that." Jack said with a sly grin and he lifted his leg to run his foot across Ianto's thigh.
"Jack!" Ianto hissed as he tried to move his leg away. "We're in public."
"I'm just being me." Jack replied with a laugh as he continued to massage Ianto through his pants. "Can I help it if you're so sexy and irresistible that I can't wait until we're in private?"
"That's my man." Ianto said with a laugh as he tried to move away from Jack; but if he was honest with himself he wasn't trying that hard.
"Jack, make sure no one sees you." The Doctor said as he tapped his foot nervously.
"I know, I know. We've talked about this a hundred times already." Jack replied in a frustrated tone.
"I don't know why I agreed to this." The Doctor mumbled to himself. The truth was he couldn't stand to see Jack so unhappy for so long and finally gave into the request that he'd been asking for the last two years.
"I know what I'm doing; I know the Hub like the back of my hand. No one will see me." Jack assured him.
"Be careful because if they do see you the whole universe will collapse and that wouldn't be very much fun now would it."
"Trust me Doc, I'll be careful." Jack told him and then turned around to make his way into the place that used to be his home. His thoughts pulled back to the people he considered his family. Owen had been the first to die; the energy keeping him alive finally ran out, how he missed the wonderful and misunderstood Doctor. Tosh had been next she was shot while saving the world, the beautiful and shy Tosh; she never did find the love she was searching for and that made Jack sad because she deserved to find happiness. The next to leave was Gwen, but not by death. After Tosh, she had chosen to go - wanting to have a life with Rhys and their son; Jack didn't retcon her, he knew she would never share the secrets of Torchwood with anyone. Then Ianto, his beautiful Ianto died at the age of 37 saving Martha's life. Jack had rushed to his side after the alien's weapon blasted him but it was too late; Ianto had died instantly, no chance for goodbyes or words of love; he was there one minute and the next he was gone. They had been together the whole time since the night they went out to eat; Jack even chose to be monogamous to the younger man, having no interest in anyone else. And after he died Jack had never felt more alone.
Once inside he could hear it, his and Ianto's song. The song that was playing the first time they kissed; the moment Jack was about to witness one last time.
You can dance-every dance with the guy
Who gives you the eye,let him hold you tight
You can smile-every smile for the man
Who held your hand neath the candle light
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me
He hid behind a wall that was in the perfect position, he could see up into his office but he knew they wouldn't see him. He looked up and almost cried when he saw Ianto, his Ianto, standing there laughing as the other version of himself danced around like an idiot. He watched as the other Jack moved closer to Ianto trying to coax him into dancing and Ianto's face turned a light shade of pink as he let himself be led around the office, twirling and spinning.
Jack could feel the tears running down his face as he watched the memory play out in front of him. The other Jack stopped the dancing and stood there with his hands on Ianto's hips and pressed himself close to the beautiful man. Then other Jack leaned in and kissed Ianto softly, unsure of he would react. But once the younger man started to kiss back he deepened the kiss. Jack remembered loving they way their lips just seemed to fit together, like perfection.
"Goodbye." Jack whispered softly taking one last look at Ianto as he turned to leave, listening to the song slowly fade into the background.
Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling,save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me.
"I never told him." Jack said to the Doctor when he had returned to him and the blue police box, tears were streaming down his face but he didn't care.
"What?" The Doctor asked, not sure of how to comfort the man in front of him.
"That I loved him, that he was the love of my life." Jack whispered as he leaned against the TARDIS and blinked a few times trying to clear his vision.
"I'm sure he knew." The Doctor assured him.
"I hope so." Jack said with a small sigh.
"So what is this, what did you need to see one last time?" The Doctor asked him.
"The kiss of my life." Jack answered simply.
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