I'm going to try to get the next chapters posted ASAP...hopefully chapter 6 by the end of this week!

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight

Previously:

“Do you have any idea what you do to me?” Edward growled into her ear as he placed his hands on her hips. She giggled at her newfound confidence.

“I think I have an idea,” Bella whispered as she stood on her tiptoes placing an open mouth kiss onto his collarbone.

“What about not having time to date?” Edward choked out as her warm lips lingered on his skin.

“We never said we couldn’t have any fun,” Bella smiled up at him. With that Edward scooped Bella up into his arms and carried her to his bedroom closing the door with his foot.

Chapter 5: Spoke Too Soon

Edward placed Bella onto his bed. He had never seen anyone more beautiful in his life. He felt like he could wake up from this dream any moment. He stood there looking into the chocolate eyes of his friend and thought of all the things that he’d like to do to her. He saw the lust and passion in her eyes as she sat there leaning back on her hands coaxing him to come closer. He didn’t know when he’d decided to refuse the urges, but he did. He walked over to her placing a gentle kiss on her forehead. “We can’t,” Edward whispered.

Bella knew he was right. As much as she wanted him, she knew that if they did end of having sex, things would change between them, and she didn’t want that to happen.

“I would like to take back something I said,” Edward said taking a seat next to her on his bed. Bella looked at him with sad eyes.

“You should probably go put a shirt on, first,” Bella suggested knowing that having him sit that close to her, she might not be able to control herself. Edward caressed her cheek before walking into his closet. Bella sat there scanning the room. She really hadn’t noticed her surroundings. She was too caught up in the perfection that was Edward. Edward appeared in the doorway wearing blue jeans, a turtle neck, and a black winter coat. “Very funny.” Bella rolled her eyes as he walked over to sit down next to her again.

“I’m just trying to help you out,” Edward said as Bella shoved him playfully. Edward laughed unzipping the coat and taking it off. He didn’t realize that even with the turtle neck on Bella could see his sculpted chest through the material. “Back to what I was saying. I would like to take back something I said.”

“And that would be?” Bella asked hoping that she hadn’t ruined their friendship by her earlier actions.

“That I don’t have time for a relationship. I would make the time for you. I’m tired of trying to keep my hands to myself. I’m tired of holding back the urge to press my lips against yours. It’s terribly exhausting and I don’t want to do it anymore,” Edward said staring into Bella’s eyes. Bella could think of a thousand ways to tell him that she wants the same thing, but when she opened her mouth nothing came out. “Bella, if you don’t feel the same way I understand.” Edward got up his body on fire. He had thought that’s what she wanted, it’s what he wanted, but he would never pressure her.

“Edward wait,” Bella said softly. Edward turned around before walking out the door. Bella smiled weakly giving Edward chills. “It’s not that I don’t,” she said looking down at her hands. All the confidence she had when she got there had vanished. “I just…I don’t want to mess this up.” She motioned to him and then back to herself.

“Bella, I completely understand. I’m scared to, but I really like you and I don’t know if I can just be friends with you,” Edward said kneeling in front of her taking her hands in his. “But, if friends is all you can give me right now, then I’ll understand. I will wait as long as I have to.”

“Edward, I can’t ask you to do that,” Bella said looking into his eyes. She was captivated by the sincerity in them. She wanted nothing more than to tell him that he was all she wanted. She just couldn’t bring herself to say it.

“You don’t have to ask me to. I’m doing it on my own accord,” Edward said bring her hand up to his lips and then placing them back into her lap. “Promise me something, though.”

“Anything,” Bella said. She felt her stomach turning circles. She had never felt like this before and that scared the shit out of her.

“Promise me you’ll at least think about,” Edward asked looking down at their hands. Her hands fit perfectly in his. It was like they were meant to be together.

“I promise,” Bella whispered. Edward smiled up at her. The way he smiled at her caused goosebumps to form on her arms. Edward noticed and released their hands moving his hands up and down her arms. Bella closed her eyes as he ran his warm hands up and down her bare arms. She hadn’t realized he had stopped until she felt his hand on top of her knee.

“Are you ok?” Edward worried.

“Just tired,” Bella said a yawn escaping her. Edward chuckled. He thought she looked adorable when she yawned.

“Do you want to stay here?” Edward offered. Bella didn’t know what to say. Her body was tell her yes, but her mind was telling her no. She knew Edward wouldn’t try anything. She’d been with one other guy before, and he broke her heart. And it was then that she realized that it wasn’t that she didn’t want to ruin her friendship with Edward, she was afraid of getting her heart broken again. Granted, the previous guy was a demeaning asshole, but she did care for him and he was her first.

“I’ll sleep out on the couch,” Edward said seeing that she was a conflicted.

“Edward, don’t be ridiculous. I can sleep on the couch,” Bella said.

“No, you’ll be more comfortable in here,” Edward insisted. He walked over to his dresser finding a pair of black mesh shorts and his favorite Seattle Mariner’s t-shirt handing it to Bella before leaving the room. Bella groaned as she stared down at the shorts and shirt Edward had given her. She couldn’t help but bring it up to her nose and inhaled his amazing scent. She had changed when she heard a knock on the door.

“Come in,” Bella said folding her clothes up and putting them on the black leather couch that was settled in the corner of the bedroom.

“Is there anything else you need?” Edward asked finding it hard to keep himself from staring. His t-shirt hung slightly off her left shoulder exposing her lean neck. She had rolled the waistband of the shorts up so they came to her mid thigh.

“I think I’m good,” Bella smiled blushing.

“If you need anything, let me know,” Edward said before leaving the room before he did something he shouldn’t.

Bella pulled the sheets back on the large king size bed, turned off the bed side lamp, and snuggled in breathing in Edward’s scent. She felt so tiny in such a large bed. She was used to sleeping in her twin size bed. She laid there thinking about Edward in the living room sleeping on that uncomfortable couch and felt a twinge of guilt. She pushed the covers back and walked out into the living room.

“Shit!” Bella yelp as she stubbed her toe on the corner of a bookshelf.

“Bella! Are you ok?” Edward panicked as he turned on the lamp.

“No, my toe!” Bella winced jumping up and down on her uninjured foot.

“Come on,” Edward said stifling his laughter. He gathered her up in his arms. She immediately wrapped her arms around his neck nuzzling her head into the crook of his neck. He smiled before taking her back into his room to check out her toe. She hadn’t noticed until she was pressed up against him that he was not wearing a shirt. Her heart began to race as they entered his bedroom and he placed her on the bed. He took a seat on the bed next to her feet. He observed the damage. Her pinky toe had turned red and she winced slightly as he gently touched it. “It will probably be sore for a few days, but it will get better.” He picked up her foot placing a small kiss on the top of her injured toe. Bella shuddered at the contact. She couldn’t take her eyes off of him. Shirtless and pantless Edward was beginning to grow on her. He had stripped down to his boxers before he turned out the lights in the living room.

“What were you doing walking around in the dark anyway?” Edward questioned looking up to find her staring.

“I couldn’t sleep,” Bella said looking down at her lap.

“So, you thought you’d take a quick stroll to get rid of some of your pent up energy?” Edward joked.

Bella glared at him as she got up opening the door wider motioning that he should leave. “I was coming to ask if you wanted to come sleep in your bed,” Bella glared.

“Bella, I’m kidding,” Edward chuckled. “Come here.” He patted the next to him. Bella closed the door still glaring at him as she made her way back over to the bed. She didn’t sit down, she just stood in front of him, arms crossed against her chest. “You know you’re not really mad at me.” Edward looked up at her his green eyes smoldering. Bella’s expression softened as she couldn’t seem to stay mad at him for long.

“Smart ass,” she muttered under her breath. Edward chuckled as he got up and walked into his closet. Bella climbed back into the bed collapsing onto the pillow. Edward returned wearing a pair of red pajama pants. After turning out the lights he slid into the opposite side of the bed smiling as Bella pretended to be sleeping.

“Sweet dreams, Isabella,” Edward whispered as he lay on his back placing his hands behind his head. He wanted to take Bella in his arms while they slept, but he didn’t want to push her. It was a waiting game now.

“Good night, Edward,” Bella replied her eyes still closed. She didn’t want to tempt herself by seeing him next to her. She wanted to sleep in his arms. She wanted to feel safe, like she felt when he hugged her. But, she didn’t want him to think that she was ready for a relationship with him. She went over and over in her head the reasons not to be with Edward and the reasons to be with Edward. She seemed to come up with more reasons for the latter.

Bella awoke to the sound of her phone ringing on the nightstand. She attempted to roll over to reach for it, but was unable to move at all. She slowly opened her eyes to find herself nuzzled up against Edward’s side, her head on his shoulder and her left leg had somehow positioned itself between his legs. He had his arm wrapped tightly around her back pulling her closer to his side. “Uh uh,” Bella heard Edward moan as he pulled her closer to him, eyes still closed.

“Edward, what if it’s important?” Bella whined as she tried to free herself from his grasp. Not that she really wanted to, but she remembered that she had forgotten to tell Alice she was staying the night.

“Fine, but you better come right back,” Edward said straightening out his arm as she rolled over it to grab her phone. She saw that it was Alice on the line.

“Alice, I’m so sorry,” Bella apologized as she rolled herself back over to Edward’s side as she placed her head back on his shoulder. He immediately wrapped his arm back around her and wrapped his other arm around her waist.

“Bella, you had me worried sick, where are you? Please tell me you are still with my brother,” Alice said with relief hearing her friend’s voice.

“I’m so sorry. I was too tired to drive back, so Edward suggested I stay here. I hope that’s ok,” Bella said. She didn’t want Alice to be mad at her for spending the night at her brother place.

“Bella, why would I be upset? I’m so glad you two are together! Now we can double date!” Alice squealed.

“Alice, we aren’t together. We’re just friends,” Bella said. Those words hit Edward like a ton of bricks, but he knew that in time she would realize she couldn’t just be friends with him.

“In time, Alice,” Edward said loud enough for Alice to hear. Alice laughed as Bella hit Edward’s chest.

“Well I’m just glad you’re ok, and please let me know when you stay over there so I don’t start freaking out,” Alice said.

“Don’t worry Alice, this won’t become a regular occurrence,” Bella said, but soon regretted it.

“I’m sure. I’ll see you this afternoon,” Alice giggled as she hung up. She knew Bella wouldn’t be able to uphold her last comment.

“Why won’t this become a regular occurrence?” Edward pouted. He loved having Bella in his arms. He felt so comfortable and at ease with the world. She made him feel like everything was going to be alright, even if it wasn’t.

“Edward, it just can’t,” Bella said not being able to come up with a real explanation. Bella lay there not wanting to get up. A part of her wanted this to be a regular occurrence, but she wasn’t ready for that.

“You’ll realize one of these days, Isabella, that you can’t ignore the inevitable,” Edward whispered in her ear as he gently loosened his grip and sliding out of the bed. Bella shuttered as she felt Edward’s warm breath against her cheek. She knew he was right, she was slipping and it was him that was causing her to lose control. She had never been this powerless under someone. She was always calm, cool, and collected. But, when she was with Edward it was more like he was controlling her. She didn’t mind so much, but it definitely scared her. Bella rolled over and glanced at the clock, 9:00 A.M.

“Shit!” Bella panicked jumping out of bed and throwing her jeans on as fast as she could.

“What’s wrong?” Edward came busting into the bedroom.

“I’m going to be late for class,” Bella said as she stripped off Edward’s shirt forgetting that he was standing there. Edward froze not being able to take his eyes off her. His eyes traveled down from her collarbone, to her bare shoulders, and rested on her perfect breasts. He had never seen anything more beautiful in his life. “Eyes, Edward!” Bella warned seeing him staring at her chest.

“Sorry,” Edward said his eyes shooting up to meet hers. She smiled as she saw him turn red in embarrassment. She normally would have immediately covered herself up, but when he looked at her he made her feel like she was beautiful. Her insecurities melted away. She slowly picked up her shirt placing it over her head and pulling it over her body. “I’ll drive you to class.” Edward said offering her his hand.

“You don’t have to do that. I have my car,” Bella said not moving.

“Nonsense, you want to actually make it to class on time, right?” Edward joked. Bella rolled her eyes placing her hand in his. Edward flashed the crooked smile at her that sent her head spinning as he led her through his apartment. “You hungry?”

“No, I’m fine,” Bella lied. She was very hungry, but they didn’t have time to get anything to eat.

“Go grab your bag and I’ll meet you in the car,” Edward said as she let go of his hand and headed outside. Edward quickly grabbed an apple from the refrigerator and poured a cup of orange juice before heading outside. “Here.” Edward handed the apple and orange juice to Bella, she smiled and gladly took it.

‘Why are you being such an idiot!! You’re falling for him!! Just tell him!!’ Bella screamed at herself. She quickly bit into the apple to occupy her mouth. Edward raced through campus to drop her off at the Math building five minutes till 9:30 A.M. “Thanks, Edward, I owe you one,” Bella smiled before getting out of the car.

“Go to dinner with me tonight,” Edward said before she shut the door.

“I don’t know, Edward,” Bella hesitated. She wanted to, but she wasn’t sure if she would be able to control her actions much longer the more time they spent together.

“Hey, you owe me,” Edward reminded her.

“Fine, pick me up at six,” Bella laughed closing the door, not being able to resist.

“Have a good day, Isabella,” Edward said out the opened window of his Volvo.

“Goodbye, Edward,” Bella said over her shoulder. She hated it when people called her Isabella, but the way it rolled off Edward’s lips, was music to her ears. She would let it slide.