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Callie sighed and sat on the bench keeping her eye on the floor. “I ...” She shrugged.

“Callie.” Turning slightly she raised her hand for the blonde pulling her down on to the bench beside her. “Callie, what’s going on?”

Running her fingers through the hair that lay over Erica’s shoulder Callie smiled. “I came here for you.” Closing her eyes she rested her head against the other woman’s shoulder. “I would wake up every morning facing your side. My mind would play tricks on me, convince me that I could hear the shower running or hear you moving around the kitchen. Then I would remember.” She swallowed hard trying to stop herself from crying again. “It was the same at night; I would get into bed alone. And tell myself that you where in the lounge reading doing research or you had to work late. That you would be home soon your cold feet on my legs waking me up.”

“Callie.” She reached up her hand moving over the back of Callie’s head.

Suddenly standing Callie moved in front of Erica looking down at her. “I hated you.” Seeing the pain in Erica’s eyes Callie’s voice softened. “I tried to hate you, I really wanted to. I thought that if I hated you I could move on. I couldn’t no matter how much I tried I just couldn’t hate you I...” She cut herself off and turned away from Erica.

“Callie.” The younger woman licked her lips and turned to face Erica folding her arms over her chest. “I need you to talk to me.”

“Oh you need me to talk. I needed you to stay.”

“And I needed you to be on my side!” Erica’s voice echoed around the locker room causing Callie to jump. “Sorry.”

Callie sighed. “I had this stupid childish romantic notion that I would walk into this hospital.” She took a deep breath. “That I would walk into this hospital that I would see you, look into your eyes and I would remember. It would all come flooding back.” She let out a small laugh. “That all the hurt and pain would fall away.”

“And?”

Callie shook her head. “It didn’t happen. When I look at you all I feel in pain. I wanted to look at you and ...” She cut herself off. “I have to go.”

“What where you going to say? Callie.”

“No ... I ... I can’t do this.” She went to walk past Erica gasping when the blonde took hold of her arm stopping her. “Let me go Erica.”

“No.”

Callie fought against her trying to get past. “Let me go. Please I need to go.”

“No.”Erica pushed Callie hard against the lockers causing the brunette to cry out. “You are not just going to walk away from me.”

“You walked away from me Erica. Now get out of my way and leave me alone.”

“Not until you finish your sentence. What did you think would happen when you saw me?”

“I ...” Callie shook her head. “It doesn’t matter it didn’t happen.”

“Oh.” Their eyes locked and Callie felt her anger fall away lust quickly replacing it. She stepped forward; panicking briefly Erica took a step back before pressing her lips hard against Callie’s. Moaning Callie opened her mouth accepting Erica’s tongue hungrily. Moving her lips along Callie’s jaw line and to her neck Erica dragged her teeth forcefully over the soft skin just above the collar of Callie’s scrubs.

“I ... I don’t know.”

Running her hand around the younger woman’s waist on under her backside she lifted Callie and pushed her back against the lockers pinning the brunette with her own body. “You don’t know what Callie?”

“It doesn’t matter.” She gasped locking her legs around Erica waist pulling her closer. “Oh God. I missed you.”

Resting her forehead against Callie’s, Erica smiled. “I’ve missed you. I’m so sorry Callie.”

“No.”She moved her hands to the bottom of Erica’s scrub top moving her fingers over the soft skin she found. “No more apologises no more taking. Not yet.”

Nodding Erica moved her mouth back to Callie’s neck one hand travelling down the younger woman’s body the other holing both of Callie’s above her head. Making quick work of the tie on Callie’s scrub trousers Erica slid her hand past the waist band and into Callie’s panties. Finding Callie’s wetness she curled her finger up into the younger woman causing Callie to gasp and throw her head back.

Rocking her hips against Erica’s fingers Callie dragged her nails across the base of the blonde’s back. “This.” She gasped. “It doesn’t mean.” She swore as Erica’s thumb brushed over her clit. “I forgive you. What I did what ... Oh shit there.” Her head fell forward on to Erica’s shoulder as the blonde used her hips to add more pressure to against Callie’s core. She gasped again. “What I did what you said. It...” Her head fell back and she screamed out Erica’s name.

Tears flooded Erica’s eyes as she rested her forehead against Callie’s shoulder as the younger woman rode out her orgasm. Pulling back she tried to brush her lips over Callie’s but she turned away. “Callie.”

Unwrapping her legs from the blonde’s waist and placing her hand on Erica’s shoulders Callie pushed causing the older woman to stumble back. “No.” Placing her feet firmly back on the floor Callie fastened her scrub pants and pulled down her top.

“Callie look at me.” Brown met blue and Erica took a step forward. “Tell me what’s wrong.”

“I told you. I told you this. It doesn’t change anything. I’m mad as hell at you Erica. And you ...” She paused her eyes travelling over Erica’s face. “You should hate me, you shouldn’t be pinning me to lockers.”

“I don’t hate you I can't. I can be mad I can want to hate you but Callie.” She moved to stand in front of the younger woman threading her fingers through dark chocolate hair she lent her forehead against Callie’s. “I know this doesn’t change anything. We’re both angry really angry. We need to talk.” Erica felt Callie raise her eyebrow and laughed. “Ok, shout but Callie everything that’s happened it doesn’t mean I don’t...”

Callie covered the blonde’s lips with her fingers and shook her head. “Don’t say it. Please.” Nodding Erica lightly kissed Callie before turning and heading to the door. “Wait.” Erica stopped her hand on the door. “It happened.”

Erica looked over at the younger woman. “What?”

“When I looked at you, I remembered.” She paused her eyes falling to the floor momentarily before finding Erica’s. “I remember everything, I’m sorry I said I didn’t.” Erica nodded unsure of what to say. They shared a smile before Erica left.

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