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I don't know what I've done,
Or if I like what I've begun.
But something told me to run,
And honey, you know me- it's all or none.
There were sounds in my head,
A little voice is whispering
That I should go and this should end...
Oh, and I found myself listening.

'Cause I don't know who I am, who I am without you.
All I know is that I should...
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you.
All I know is that I should.
'Cause she will love you more then I could...
She who dares to stand where I stood.

See, I thought love was black and white-
That it was wrong or it was right.
But you aren't leaving without a fight...
And I think I am just as torn inside.

'Cause I don't know who I am, who I am without you.
All I know is that I should...
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you.
All I know is that I should.
'Cause she will love you more then I could...
She who dares to stand where I stood.

And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call.
You meant more to me then anyone I've ever loved at all.
But you taught me how to trust myself,
And so I say to you, this is what I have to do.

'Cause I don't know who I am, who I am without you.
All I know is that I should...
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you.
All I know is that I should.
'Cause she will love you more then I could...
She who dares to stand where I stood.
She who dares to stand where I stood...

I watch.

Slowly, softly, your lips trail up her arm as she leans back into you, hair lit brilliantly.

I can see you, and I wish I couldn't. Maybe if I were human, if I dulled my senses, I wouldn't be able to see you, fifty yards from me, staring out over the ledge, staring out at the city spread before you, as if you were gods and they were your kingdom.

I do not feel… adequate. I do not believe I belong in this world that you and she have created.

Hand on her other shoulder, you pull her closer, an expression of awe on your face. You so often put yourself down, Sam. I'm nothing special. Just some guy. Do you not see? Do you not understand? You are so… idiomatic in your normalcy. Any other would not have been able to do what you did.

She smiles at you, bright as the reflection on her hair, her darkened skin.

I am a foolish being, Sam.

I am built on the concept of logic, of decision-making. I am built to be a superior being.

I am faulty.

I must be.

This is not logical, the burning I feel when I see you tilt your head to kiss her lips, your hand moving to stroke her hair. It is not logical in the least. I am your guardian, nothing more, nothing less. That is my job now.

Why must… I insist on making things difficult for myself?

I thought I had learned all my lessons.

Even so, feeling such a way is ridiculous; as I said, I am inadequate. I am the farthest from superior. I am faulty. I am… I cannot find the word. Your language is complicated.

Teksmoi suh duhan.

I cannot express that in these strange human words. There are none for that which I wish to say. There is "love", or "amore", or "ai", but it does not seem to describe what I am. What I feel. Because…

I cannot love you.

Her hand slips along your waist.

I cannot ruin this for you.

I could never say that to you.

Her lips on your neck

My engine purrs

her hand on your shoulder

I back away

lips soft as you whisper

unnoticed

I love you.

Perhaps I have found the correct meaning.

The same words light on her lips, airy and soft.

I move, and suddenly

I am gone.

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Teksmoi suh duhan, Sam.

I love you.

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End of The Words to Say.
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