NOTE:

-C.C. did not leave here to travel (remember she was travelling in the last ep of CG? so yeah, here she isn't). She's a bit OCC here. Haha.

-Code Geass © クランプ CLAMP

Farewell, My Prince

by KatouMiharu

I sat there in the empty room with empty, lonely eyes. I can smell the nostalgia feeling that surrounds the place – especially the smell of his.

I looked outside the window of his bedroom and stared at the scenery outside. It wasn’t pleasant as I would’ve expected; it was raining hard. Dark clouds covered the bright sun. Angry thunders roared with anger. The loud crash of rain hit the pavement of the street. It just made me gloomier.

I reached for the window as if my hand will be able to reach on the other side. My eyes closed as I tried to remember his warmth. I turned and faced the room once again. Oh how I remember those times.

I began to shake uncontrollably as tears were flowing out wildly. I softly cried as I knelt down and hugged myself. When will I ever get to touch him again? When?

A sudden knock was heard as it came along with a gentle voice of a young girl, “C.C., are you in there?”

I tried to stop crying and wipe off my tears but it wouldn’t stop. I tried to inhale a large amount of air so it wouldn’t look like as if I was crying. “Y-Yes, I’m in here. I’ll be right outside.”

“Are you okay C.C.? Is there something wrong? I can hear it in your voice. I can hear you crying again…” The voice outside trailed off at the latter part of her sentence.

I was seen through. I wasn’t able to reply when she opened the door and wheeled her way to me. I stood up immediately acting as if nothing happened. “I-I’m fine Nunally.”

She looked at me with soft, loving eyes. Just by looking at her, I can’t help but remember him. “I don’t think so,” she said.

Maybe I’m too easy to read, and not to mention I suck at deceiving when I’m crying. “I am,” I said stubbornly. She giggled a little seeing that I won’t admit it. She signaled me to come closer to her. I knelt down to her height level and had a question-look plastered in my face. I saw her raise her arms and hugged me.

Without knowing, I cried again.

“Hey… It’s okay, alright?” she said in a comforting voice.

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After a few minutes of crying and comforting, I sat down near her feet and said, “I just can’t believe it you know.”

“I know. Neither do I.”

After a long, pregnant silence, she turned around and made her way out. “C.C., shall we go visit him? The rain has stopped and it seems like it won’t start raining again soon.”

My face lit up. I didn’t notice that the rain has stopped yet. I’m glad it did. “S-Sure, b-but is it okay? Don’t you have a meeting later?” It seems that I’ve been stuttering lately. Wonder why.

“It’s perfectly fine. Don’t worry. Today’s special.”

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We stood there beside him. We both talked to him and told him each of how our day went.

Nunally looked at me and said, “I think it’s nice if you should talk to him alone.” She then winked at me and headed back to the car to wait. She’s such a good girl. I wish he could see her grow up.

I then faced him. I inhaled and exhaled. I want this to be a good talk somehow.

“You know what, you made me cry again.” I paused for a long moment. “I missed you a lot.” I don’t want to cry in front of him. It’s embarrassing. I don't want to let him see me cry. Well, he never will anyways.

“Hey… I want to tell you something. I haven’t told you this before, and I really want to find the right time to tell you but it seems like time won’t let me do it.

H-How do I start this? Ummm, you’ve been really special to me. You’ve done a lot of things for me even though you’re stubborn to admit it. Even I was too. I want to thank you for everything. You gave me hope for life though I’ve wanted to stop this endless cycle of living in this world. You were my hope.

But you know… I hate you. I hate you for leaving me….” I stopped and began to cry again. I said in-between sobs, “Why do you have to sacrifice yourself huh? I got emotional because of you, you know. I was torn apart because of you. I haven’t even told you that I loved you!” I cried wildly. Shouting in the sky. Angry to the world.

“Wasn’t I important to you too?! You left me! You left you sister! She’s such a good girl you know…

I love you, but you left me. Now you’re…gone completely, and I can’t do anything about it! I love you. I want to hear you voice and say you do too! I wanna hear it!” My eyes are swollen from crying. My nose too was as red as Rudolph the red nosed reindeer.

"I want to hear it...please." I sat there and looked at him. I ran my fingers through his etched name. Lelouch Vi Britannia.

I slowly stood up and turned around to look at him again – to look at his grave. “Good-bye Lelouch,” and whispered a small, "I love you."

This will probably the last time I'll ever see you again.

I want to move on. I have to.

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BONUS SCENE (normal POV)

Little did she know that while she was crying, there was a silhouette of him hugging her so tightly and wiping her tears away.

Little did she know that he whispered to her ears softly, caressing her face, "I love you more than you could ever know."

Glad I finished something. Actually I'm not on hiatus because of writer's block but for the reason that I'm too lazy to write my new ideas. I've got good ones especially for my SasuHina fic but I've got a lazy ass so forgive me.

It's actually 4:11 AM while I'm typing this. I finished the story a while 3:51 AM, but the internet was cut off for a few minutes so yeah. Haha.

I began to write this when I was looking at my fast fics in my documents (ones in my laptop; especially the 'Umbrella'). While I was reading it, I totally got inspired to write something. I don't know why but I suddenly did. LOL

I'm weird. Haha.

Anyways, I hope you guys like this.

Reviews are very much appreciated! Please do so.

Oh and belated Happy New Year! I hope you guys had a wonderful New Year! ...unlike some people like erm, me?