|Forbidden to Remember, Terrified to Forget
Author: EternalBella PM
Edward's point of view when he thinks Bella is dead and attempts to end his life, from the book 'New Moon'.Rated: Fiction K - English - Drama/Tragedy - Edward & Bella - Chapters: 11 - Words: 10,034 - Reviews: 23 - Favs: 33 - Follows: 14 - Updated: 02-14-09 - Published: 02-01-09 - id: 4835162
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Disclaimer: This is a piece written in Edward's point of view from 'New Moon'. This work is credited to Stephenie Meyer.
My life was over now.
I had no reason to exist. My Bella was dead, and I was the cause of her turmoil. Her pain was my fault.
Bella had jumped off a cliff because I had left her to basically die. I had told her nothing but lies. What was worse was that I had led her to believe that I didn't love her. She had taken her last breath as she jumped off of that lonely precipice, thinking that I did not love her.
I lowered my chin and closed my eyes, rubbing my palms over my stone cold face. All I could see was the agony in her eyes and the defeat on her beautiful face when I muttered the poisonous words, "I don't want you."
And now, Bella was no more. She would never smile, laugh, or be loved ever again. I had hurt her enough for her to end her own life.
"My love," I whispered to myself, as I stepped into the shadows underneath the clock tower.
The warm sun rays crept toward me, like a puddle that was spilt near my feet. I wanted to die. I didn't deserve to live. Bella Swan was my soul, and now I would suffer as she did.
I peeled my eyes open slowly, and silently counted away the last seconds of my worthless life. This was it.
I took one step closer to the sunshine, anticipating a quick death. My shirt hung open and I stretched my arms, welcoming the hopeful chance that I would see Bella again, in another place. If only Carlisle was right that if I had a soul, I would soon join Bella again.
With five more seconds until the clock would chime, I pictured Bella in my mind and smiled. I could almost see her smiling back at me, her eyes shining with love.
I took another step, and another. I could feel the sun on my cheeks as I slowly put my right foot forward.
The clock tower's bell boomed once, twice, three times...
I could hear her voice, screaming my name in a distance. I knew she had found me, and now we would be together again.
Though Bella and I would be gone forever, our love would never die.
"Edward!" Bella's voice cried out again, this time closer. I could almost smell her now, her sweet fragrance. "Edward no! Look at me!"
And then her soft body was in my arms as she threw herself into me. I caught her and held her to me, inhaling her scent.
My lips spread into a faint smile.
I wrapped my arms tighter around her.
Then I opened my eyes and she was there, as gorgeous as ever. Bella was alive!
"Amazing," I murmured. "Carlisle was right." I lifted my hand to gently caress her cheek. To see the love in her eyes again was heaven. I didn't know how I had found her again, but I would never let her go, ever again.