-WARNING: NOT AN UPDATE! REASONING FOR NOT UPDATING FOR AWHILE BELOW!

To my faithful (and not-so-faithful) viewers. I apoligize that I havent updated in awhile. Lot's of drama has been going down. I lost my best friend. She was the person who got me out of my shy shield and brought me into a more creative, outgoing, semi-social girl I am today. Were it not for her I would probally still be shy. I probally wouldn't even be writing.

But ever since eighth grade started, she began to change. I don't know what it was. Anyway's. It started last Monday. The day before we had been chatting through e-mail. Everything was alright. I went to school, already having a bad day, and I met up with my now ex-bff on my way to the gym since the weather was to cold. I said 'Hey Emily!' trying to at least act cheerful for my friend. She always claimed she could tell when I was in a bad mood. Psh. She only ever caught half. Anyways. Apparently this time it escaped her.

She said 'Hi Ashley' Oh. And yes that is my real name. I don't like being called that though. If you must use my name call me Ash. Anyways. She said it in a bored, montone, depressed kinda voice. I asked her whats wrong. She said nothing. Then she didn't talk to me on the rest of the way to the gym. But when we get to out usual hangout spot with out other friends already there she immediately starts talking to Stephanie. I was all like 'What the Heck?' Anyways, after that I didn't see her until the bell rang for lunch. She walked right past me and didn't say a single word.

I turned to my now ONLY school Best Friend Kendra and asked "What the heck is her problem?" Kendra said that Emily needed to 'take a break from us' Then I saw red. I was already in a bad mood due to some misfortunes, but that just set me off. Then Kendra told me that Emily said that she needed to 'work on Kendra' She actually said that to her face. Then I got furious. So furious that I ACTUALLY started to cuss. (Don't tell my mom :D) "What the Hell!? She said that?! There is no d--- problem with you! If she can't take you the way that you are then why the HELL is she hanging out with you?! You know what? Fine she can have her freakin' break! I don't give a sh--. In fact, she can have forever!" I yelled angrily.

I couldn't help the words that came out of my mouth. Emily had started to be nothing but clingly. She had always been a bit bossy but she had gotten worse. There are numerous time where I forgave her when she did something unforgiveable. I even forgave the time she 'accidentally' told my deepest, darkest, most shameful secret to her boyfriend that I had set her up with. I still forgave her. But that was the most absolute straw. I consider Kendra my little sister (even though she's a couple of years older than me.) And no one say's anything like that to or about her!

Anyways, the next day she knew I was mad. So she tried to appolagize. THROUGH A LETTER!! She then tried to guilt trip me into taking her back as a friend. I said 'no' and gave her a valid reason why. As soon as she realized there was no way to get me back, she left. I haven't talked to her since.

...Sorry I did that. It wasn't right. But it just made me so mad. I had never been more mad in my life. Anyway's. I'm just really depressed and my creative vibe isn't coming through. I promise I'll update as soon as I get it back though! Sorry if I bored you with my sob story. And if you didn't read it, sorry this wasn't an update. Bye! I'll try to be back soon!