Author: XintoxicatedxbyxTwilightX PM
Edward left Bella in New moon. He didnt return. Now Bella has a 2 year old daughter Allie. The boy she had a family with has died, and she misses Edward terribly. What will happen when they meet again? Her life may be at risk by the people from her past.Rated: Fiction M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Bella & Edward - Chapters: 33 - Words: 54,006 - Reviews: 493 - Favs: 374 - Follows: 185 - Updated: 08-31-10 - Published: 03-18-09 - Status: Complete - id: 4932985
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AN: Dont own anything....maybe the plot. But thats itXD
It had been 3years since i left Bella in the woods that regretful day. I havent seen, heard, or spoken of her in that time frame. I missed her terribly, i was so miserable. I very rarely even hunted anymore. I just stayed up in my room at our new house in Alaska. I had my music blasting 24/7. It was all i had to keep my mind off of "wince"......her. I rarely even speak to my family anymore either. I know how much it pains Esme to see me like this. I read her mind nearly everyday. She worries about me,all the time. Theres nothing i can do about it though. I cant go back and change the future. I heard footsteps approaching my room then. Alice.... She wanted to talk. She was asking for permission to enter through her mind. As much as i wanted her to leave i granted her wish. She came in....
"Hi?" She spoke softly. I havent even talked to Alice in what seemed like forever. I nodded,accepting she was here. She looked down,she was miserable too. I couldnt imagine how miserable i made my family. I felt horrible, Jasper felt what i felt every single day. Poor guy....cant get a break.
"Edward? Esme wants to know if you'd like to go hunting with us? They have a mountain lion problem where were going." She sounded hopeful. Like id just give up and go have dinner with them. I shook my head. I didnt want to leave my safe harbor. I couldnt survive the world outside of my room. I would surely crumble. She sighed..... She used her mind now to communicate....
"Edward please? Its been three years! You havent hunted in nearly two months! Please Edward? Do it for Esme, she cares so much about you. Shes worried so much too, Edward please dont make her worry anymore." I bit my tounge. I wanted so badly to throw nothing but profanities at her. She could tell.
"Do it Edward! Cussing me out isnt gonna bring our family back together. Ughhh! IF your so damn miserable why dont you just go back Edward! Go back....go see Bella! Forr all you know she could be dead Edward! Your so selfish! You dont even care anymore!" Thats it. She crossed the line when she spoke her name. I glared at her. Then i lunged at her. Jasper was there before i could get to Alice. He put me down in a headlock on the floor. I tried to fight. I gave up when i knew i wouldnt win a fight against him. Not while i was so weak. I held still.
"Hes fine Jasper. He wont hurt me. Let him go." He released me. I sat there, i brought my knees to my chest. I spoke for the first time in almost 6 months.
"That was the lowest blow you could have given me Alice. I hope your happy." I whisperd. She neiled beside me. She put a hand on my back. I could hear the warning Jasper was giving me in his head. He didnt need to worry. I wouldnt lay a hand on Alice....tonight.
"I know.....Im sorry Edward. Forgive me." I nodded. I forgave her. I didnt want to waste my time holding a grudge against her when i already had so many grudges held against myself. I heard Jaspers thoughts then. He probably forgot i was listening.
"Poor guy. i can literally feel the hatred seeping from his veins. He absolutley loathes himself. I would give anything to make him happy again." I interupted his thougths then.
"The only way i can be happy is if i could have "wince".....her. Back." I spoke quietly. I knew he was shocked i had spoken again. Alice spoke then.
"Edward...go back to her. Check on her. See if shes okay. Ive done what you said....i havent had one vision of Bella for 3 years. So i cant tell you how she is. Just go back. Check on her. Edward...it wont kill you to just check." She whisperd.
"It will kill me." i stated. "It will kill me if i see her happy." My dead heart dropped into the pit of my stomach at just the thought of it.
"Edward......youll never know how happy she is if you dont atleast attempt to see her. Go to her....."
I thought about that demand. It wouldnt kill me physically,just mentally. I could handle it aslong as Bella was happy. I nodded. I would check on her.
"Okay." I whisperd. Alice beamed. She jumped up.
"Yay. Oh Edward may i please come with you? Please?" She gave me puppy dog eyes. As much as i wanted to say no. I needed Alice, for moral support when i saw that Bella was happy. I stood up then.
"Lets go hunt....we'll leave in the morning." Alice threw her arms around me. I froze for a second before wrapping my arms around her aswell.
"Thank you Alice."
Because of her....i would soon see my Bella......
I lay in my bed. I was awake,but i didnt move. I stared at my ceiling. It had been 3 years. I havent seen "him" in 3 years. I was now 21 years old. I sat there,running through the vague memories i had of him. I didnt dare say his name,but i could think of him. It didnt hurt as much anymore. I jumped when my alarm went off. I had my own place now in Forks. I didnt go to college, i didnt have the money for one. And two....i was a mommy. I had a two year old daughter. I named her Allie. I was only 19. Allie's father was Mike....Newton. I had been so depressed...that i just went along with him...i didnt even like him. Then one night, things had gone a little too far. I had Allie nine months later. Mike had died though. He was a soldier in Iraq.....his squad was bombed. Allie doesnt remeber him that much though...she was only a mere year old when it happend. She was two now.....very smart for her age. She could speak...walk....and read faint sentences.
Speaking of Allie....she came into my room now. I always put on a smile for my Allie-baby. I never showed any signs of loss. I didnt let her see what i was really feeling. But at times i did feel ver blessed. Id be nothing without Allie. She was my whole world, I would die if anything happend to her. She came up unto my bed.
"Momma...." She gave me a hug...she had her hair sticking up in every direction from sleep. She still had her Dora pajamas on. I smiled.
"Morning hun." I kissed her nose. I rolled out of bed then and picked her up. She giggled a loud pitch. I walked out of my room,and walked downstairs.
"Momma....im hungry..." She said. I nodded and walked into the kitchen.
"What would my lovely Allie like?" I asked. She thought for a minute before answering.
"pop tats!" She couldnt prounouce her "R's" yet. She kept trying though. I gave her a pop tart,she ate it. I watched her, she looked so peaceful and calm. I loved her so much. I would give anything for her.
When Allie was done i brought her back upstairs to her room to get dressed. She had day care in about 30 minutes. I had work at noon. But i always took her early so that i could get ready for work. I worked at a clothing store, With Jessica Stanley from high school. She had designed her own clothes and bought her own store. I was a clerk there. I didnt mind. I got paid well. I put Allie down by the door.
"K, get dressed hun." I let her dress herself. I didnt want to make choices for her. She pulled out her purple dress. It was pretty, a dress Jessica had designed and gave to her for her 2nd birthday. It hung to her knees. It had very pretty lace and beautiful designs. Jessica was very talented. I helped her put it on. She put on her small black belle flats. She loved those shoes. I smiled when she came to me with a little purple ribbon.
"momma...puut et en meh hai." once again with those darn "R's" I laughed but put it in. She squeeled with delight when she looked in her mirror. It was a princess theme that when you pushed a button it told her how pretty she looked.
I picked her up and went downstairs. I was still in my pajamas. But that was okay. I grabbed my keys and went out to my old beat up Chevy truck. Yes....i STILL have it.
I drove her down to her day care. I got out and went to her side and unbuckled her from her car seat. I put her down on the concrete..it was drizziling slightly. I grabbed her hand and we walked up the steps to the front doors.
"Morning Bells?" Called Brittany. She worked here at the front office.
"Morning..." I sighned in.
"Morning beautiful?" She said to Allie. She blushed a bit. She got it from me. And her sense of balance. She was unfortunatley clumsy.
I put the pen down and neiled to Allies level.
"Okay Allie-baby...momma's gotta go." She pouted a bit. She hated it when i had to leave.
"Give momma a kiss." She leaned her head in to kiss me. I hugged her tight. "I love you hun. Behave."
"Wuv yew momma." Brittany came then and grabbed her hand. She waved at me before she went into the hallway. I smiled.
I walked out into the rain again. I could go home and get ready for work now. I walked in through the front door. I first went upstairs, i sat on my bed. I didnt have to be at work till 11. I had 2 more hours. I sighed.....then my eyes noticed something. I stood up and went over to it. It was Forks High yearbook. I hadnt even looked at this since "he" left. I flipped it open to Junior year. I pasted the "S's" Not wanting to see my picture. I went to the "C" section without even thinking. I couldnt make myself stop looking for his last name. My eyes welled up then when i found it. In bold print it said.
It surprised me to see his picture there. He looked even more beautiful than i had remeberd. My mind had not done him justice. He looked so beautiful....like...a angel. I cried harder. I didnt care now. I spoke his name. I brought my knees to my chest and cried even more.
"Edward! Oh Edward i miss you. I love you. I love you! Why did you leave me? Please come back." I thought to myself.
I cried harder.
"Edward....." I whisperd......
We had just hit the Forks town limits. I knew i was close....I could feel it.
"Edward calm down.....jesus. You'll see her soon enough." She said. Soon enough wasnt good enough. I wanted to see her now. I parked in a parking lot. I didnt want to go to Bella's house in my car. She'd see me. I decided id go on foot. Maybe climb her tree or something along those lines.
"Ill go on foot from here. Go do something...meet me back here in a hour." She nodded and i raced off towards the direction of Bellas house.
I was excited as i ran. I got butterlfy's in my stomach as i bounded out of the last clearing that would bring me to Charlies lawn. I stopped then,in the woods. Bella's scent wasnt here. It smelt like it hadnt been here for years. My eyebrows furrowed. Her truck wasnt even here. Where was she? I stood there forever it seemed like before i caught the mind of none other then Jessica Stanley. She was about 3 miles away. In a clothing store. Hmmm she seemed worried i listened in.
"Where the hell is Bella? Shes late. Shes never late! I hope shes okay. I dont know.....should i call. I could maybe drive to her house? Ill wait 5 more miniutes...."
I dashed off. I saw what her house looked like in Jessica's mind. I ran for about 2 miles before i stopped dead in my tracks again. I could smell Bella's scent. Her sweet delicious scent. I gulped. It smelt so appelieing. But the longing to hold her was overpowerd by the longing to eat her. I ran again,in that direction. It had been 3 long excruciating years since ive smelt this delectible smell. I bounded through the forest. I could see the neighborhood she lived in. I ran faster. Her smell got stronger.
I spotted the house then. Her hideous truck sat out front. I smiled, she still had the old monster. I could smell her scent strongest coming from the window,wich i assumed was her room. I bounded the tree and was mere feet from the window. My eyes were fixed on a small figure on the bed.
I was watching her. i couldnt beleive it was really her. She still looked the same. I looked at her closley,the only real difference was that she had lost alot of weight. Too much. She looked so thin and fragile. I listend in then...she was.......crying? My heart burst into a ball of pain. She was crying. Why was she crying? Oh how i longed to go comfort her. She didnt look happy at all.
I looked down....poor Bella. She looked so miserable. I heard it then...... My eyes flew up....
"Edward....." She whisperd. I thought she had spotted me for a sec. But she kept on crying. And in that second i knew i couldnt ignore her anymore.....
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