Jasper POV

"Renesmee look at me- You can't be serious, you want to kill the Volturi"

"I'm more serious now than I've ever been Jasper. Look at what they have done to our family, my family. It's time this ended"

I sat up, my whole body felt intensely uncomfortable. "This is not like when you were younger Renesmee, we can't rally up family and friends- If we were to fight. It would be the few of us against dozens, if not more of them. They have an army-we have family"

Her face was as cold as I had ever seen Renesmee look. My heart sunk seeing her dark side. "I didn't come asking for your permission. I'm telling you, I'm killing them, Whether your with me or not"

"Nessie?"

"Jasper. I love you, and I do appreciate your opinions- but they have to die. I don't want to be looking over my shoulder, wondering what they're going to do next. I have a child to think of. I've grown up in a world like this, I can't expect her to" her eyes saddened "Her lovely face. She's family. She's my baby. She's a combination of my love for everyone- in this single bundle of joy" she paused, gazing into the oblivion "When I look at her, I see Jake's sunshine glow. Alice's wired personality and Billy's awkward kindness" she softly giggled to herself "She has a part of everyone in her, and it hurts me to think that I nearly lost that"

I placed my calming hand on her hand drawing her eyes back to my face. "You've just explained the one think most important to you in this world. Start a war and you could lose her"

"I have to do something" she painfully bit her lip, closing her beautiful eyes "They've taken something away from me...inside. I feel wrong. I don't feel like me...I don't feel like me" she repeated.

"Your adjusting. Its too soon to be making big decisions like this. Nessie I beg you- we only just got you back. Let us just be a whole family for once, peaceful, being together"

...she took her time to reply. I could see the clogs in her mind churning and processing our conversation. After a few painfully quiet minutes she stood, nodded her head and kissed my cheek. "Do you want Jacob?"

"No. This stays between the two of us. Its on hold for the moment Uncle Jasper, but its inevitable, the Volturi will die by my hand- one way or another"

Renesmee POV

I slipped back into Jacob's arms. He tiredly gave me a squeeze. "I thought I said you weren't to leave my side" he grumbled, rubbing sleep from his eyes.

"I didn't go far- Just needed some air"

"Renesmee" he asked, with questionable eyes.

"Hmm"

"What was it like?...When you died?"

"...Um...It was dark. Uh I don't remember much. The pain, I remember, before I died. It felt like I was being pulled away, and no matter how hard I willed myself awake- it was a losing battle"

"Did you see heaven? Or Vampire heaven?"

"I didn't die properly...I'm still here"

"You were gone, if not for a while, did you see anything"

I didn't want to answer his question. "I'm glad to be back to see our child"

"Nessie? I can tell when your keeping something from me"

"Um..." I sighed, "My heaven is here with you...but I was somewhere, for a while" before I was torn out, by this vampire curse "It was warm, and bright, and made me feel whole and made me feel like everything was going to be okay. That my family were sad-yes- but that they would slowly move on..."

-"Never" he whispered.

"...There is a place for us, when we die"

"So there is an after life for vampires?"

"...You see, that's what I don't know. I think I was in human heaven...because my human side died" lowering my voice I added, "Why would heaven let in creatures that feed on blood?"

"Nessie, your not a creature. Your the most lovable, kindhearted woman. Heaven would be lucky to have you- though they'd had a hard fight if they were to take you away from me again" his hand stroked my cheek. Hmmm, he was so warm, more so now I was dead. "What's the matter? I can tell that something is bugging you"

"I ...I just. I'm finding losing my human self difficult. I feel different. Feel the hunger- worse than before. I'm scared that I've lost my humanity"

"You haven't. I can honestly look into your eyes and see my Nessie. My unchanged, original Nessie"

"I'm not unchanged" I gave him a slight smile, "I'm a mother, and your a father"

"I know" He whispered, "Looking at her, doesn't your heart just burst. To have this miracle- a gift from the woman I love"

"You played some part in making her too" I added.

"True" he grinned, "Something I wouldn't mind repeating..." he chuckled, and it was hard to resist kissing him. My lips parted and the heat flared as our lips touched. "Our angel with out a name. Blank Sarah Black"

"Actually" I interrupted, "I was thinking of a name...It was something so obvious I don't know why I never thought of it before"

"What is it?"

"Elly"

"Elly" he repeated.

"Meaningful, like my name. A part of my father, and a part of Billy. Two, of many, important people in our lives. If you don't like it we..."

"Elly. I love it. Elly. Elly. My Elly. Our miracle...just like you were my miracle"

Hey! Just wrote this real quick. Was going to wait a few more days till I began it but had a nagging feeling and well...I wrote it, and yes it is 01:01 am. Humph. :) Hope you like the name! Again a big thanks to mellie newbold for coming up with the name Elly.

If you don't like it lol, guess its too late. Written it into the story now. Ah well, 'My bed is calling. Night all!"

Misslittlepinkbag xxx