It hurts, so much does it hurt.

The loneliness inside my soul,

The unhappiness,

Is taking it’s tole.

I don’t know when it first started,

Maybe when I was seven or sooner than that

No friends, no true happiness, my heart started to harden,

To hide these feelings of pain, of loneliness; closing up into a cocoon of another person.

It was in my soul where the true me sat.

Waiting and waiting to be free!

There was a time when it showed.

I was six, still innocent it my mind, still parts of my soul still showing.

It was near the end of the year!

My older brother said he would help train me.

It’s been so long since I felt that happiness, since I had my Brother.

When I got to the training ground, he only stayed for a short time, and left early.

We didn’t talk much after that!

A week later he killed my Clan, my family.

I still think of him, and sometimes there are dreams of the past.

Dreams of when Itachi was still my brother, when he would flick my forhead and show affection.

There was once a time I can’t remember when!

I had a friend, but because of my feelings, confused feelings,

I lost my friend.

Because I thought I didn’t need anybody and I couldn’t accept her as she was.

Because kids can be so cruel,

Because I was so cruel!

I lost my best and only true friend.

I still think of him and all the things I wish I could say sorry about.

There are so many things I wish I could change but can’t.

I believe I have lost something important.

I know how to smile, but it never shows!

I know how to join in a conversation, but I know my opinion is not always wanted, even when it is wanted.

What I don’t know is how to make friends; ones that want to be my friends not the Uchiha’s Friend but mine.

To come and hang out with me when ever they feel like it.

Maybe invite me places and be the first to suggest hanging out…

But to the friend I had hurt, I hope that one day I can say sorry.

What I did had been wrong and I know I must have hurt him terribly.

Sorry Naruto, I’m so sorry I broke my friendship with you because I was stupid!

But even though I apologize now, I don’t know if it matters.

I might never meet you again.

Sometimes I think I deserve this as a punishment for not understanding.

There are SO many mistakes I have made that I regret, and I know I may never atone for them.

But I ask for forgiveness for past wrongs and ones I know will be made in the future.

It is said a picture is worth a thousand words,

And I believe that is true.

I have looked at pictures of my past,

From when I was a baby to now,

I was much happier when I was still young and didn’t know of the horrors of life.

The horrors in my life.

A life I have placed upon myself.

In pictures of when I was young I always saw a beautiful smile.

In pictures of now I barely ever see a small glimpse of my true smile.

My beautiful smile that was locked away.

I hope that one day it will return.

And I know it is a lot to ask for,

But I wish that the smile would be given to someone special who deserves it.

That person or friend who can bring out and except the true me.

The me locked up inside a mirror,

A mirror that holds my true self prisoner.

Because at the moment all I am is a blurred image of my true self.

Like a dragons egg waiting to be hatched.

To breathe a fire of life

To one day Bring life.

Dreams, ambitions, wishes… Hope!!!

To be born anew, in this life as Me and not the mirrored image.

The Image my brother helped Create,

The image that’s shattered into a million pieces waiting to be placed back together like a puzzle.

A Puzzle no one but one has ever put together even a piece, only one has put some of my pieces together, and I may never meet that person ever again.

A/N

Don't ask, Cause really I don't know myself. Anyways the next chapter is done but I wont post it till I'm ready too.

Dreams really can come true - will be updated within the next week.

A little bit of magic - will be updated the week after Dreams

One hell of a surprise / Power of the Elements - Will be update after a little bit of magic maybe

That's all please review, and thank you for reading.

Loves,

MuppyPuppy