Author: iluvthevamps PM
Carlisle, please. Save her. I love her. I can't- You can't just let her die! She's everything to me!" I sobbed, begging him to save her.I would even make her undergo three days of torture. For my own selfishness.ALTERNATIVE TWILIGHT!Rated: Fiction T - English - Drama/Romance - Bella & Edward - Chapters: 4 - Words: 10,085 - Reviews: 86 - Favs: 51 - Follows: 50 - Updated: 07-16-09 - Published: 05-17-09 - id: 5069111
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While I held him, I started to think. 'Could I do this? Could I one day go for being completely oblivious to…knowing more?' Possibly more than I ever wanted to know.
I thought back to what Edward had told me, and the sincerity in his face when he had said it. He had looked so lost, like a young boy begging to be reassured, to be taken care of.
I thought back to all Carlisle had done for me. He had kept me living, kept me okay, kept me out of the depression that I desperately wanted to spiral into.
He had been my second father.
Could I just tell him that after all Carlisle had done for me I couldn't give him a chance?
No. I couldn't.
It couldn't hurt to give Edward a chance, could it?
But he had to know, that that meant that we couldn't be together for long.
I would die soon. I knew that. It was only a matter of time. Eventually, I would be gone. I wouldn't be here. He had to know that.
I wasn't expecting to fall in love with Edward. After all, I barely knew him. I didn't know anything about him, other than he loved me, and that he was a vampire.
"Do you burn in the sun?"
I felt him smile against my shoulder.
"No. I sparkle." He whispered.
I pulled back from him slightly.
"Really?" I asked him, raising my eyebrows.
"Really." He confirmed.
He laid his head back against my shoulder, and I rocked us lightly, but stopped when I started to get dizzy.
"Bella?" he asked me, timidly.
"Will you be my mate?" His voice was vulnerable. He was worried. Though I didn't see a reason why he should be.
That was one week ago.
Edward would kneel beside me at night, humming to me, and rubbing my back with his cool fingers.
I had warned him what was wrong with falling in love with me. I had told him that I would die and he would be alone, but he always said that we would never be separated for long.
I didn't understand that.
He took care of me on my bad days, feeding me breakfast in bed and giving me my medicine, taking me to my treatments, and distracting me, often helping me with schoolwork.
He would read to me, or hum to me, and I slowly found myself beginning to fall in love with him.
It was like bliss. I loved when he hugged me, when he touched me, when his lips would somehow find my forehead. He told me he loved me, and he would say it with such sincerity that it broke my heart to know that I would sometime leave him.
When he would look at me, it was like I was the most beautiful thing to him. He told me I was his life, even though I was no life at all. I still felt bad about all that I was taking from him.
He stayed with me. Always.
He answered all my questions. I asked him how he became a vampire and he told me, he told me how much it hurt and that he had wanted to cry. But he had tried his hardest not to, considering that he was changed in 1918 and that he was supposed to be a man that showed no man.
He told me he failed that miserably and screamed.
It hurt me to hear that he was in pain.
I was okay about him being a vampire, and that his family was vampires, after all, they did feed off of animals, and I could never just reject them after everything Carlisle had done for me, so I gave them a chance, and I'm very glad that I did.
Charlie knew that Edward and I were good friends, after all, he stayed with me from the time school was over until nine o' clock, and then he took his car home and came back to my house to sing me to sleep.
Edward hadn't kissed me on the lips yet, but he kissed me everywhere else. He kissed me on my forehead, on my hands, on my neck, on my jaw. Just about everywhere but my lips.
He held me often, wrapping us in an electric blanket to keep me warm.
Edward told me he loved me often, everyday, multiple times a day. It seemed as though he couldn't stop saying it.
I didn't tell him back though, not yet, because I was afraid. I had a feeling he knew that I loved him; he just didn't pressure me into telling him.
Carlisle loved seeing us together, he would smile, and wink at us, and once he even told us how happy he was.
Tonight was the night of mine and Edwards' first date, and I was getting ready in my room, with Edwards' sister, Alice-who had driven the car, that first night-is helping me get ready, doing my hair, and choosing my outfit.
She dressed me in a dark blue dress that went to the middle of my thighs, which made me uncomfortable because of how short it was, and a black sweater that was tight around my torso.
She did my hair very lightly, and I was glad that for once some one else was doing my hair and getting me ready, because I couldn't do it, today was a very weak day for me and I just wanted to throw my hair in a pony tail and go to sleep.
But, I couldn't do that to Edward, so I fought the exhaustion back and helped Alice get me dressed.
She did my make-up so that my eyes were Smokey and put some blush on me so that I wasn't so pale, considering the fact that I was unnaturally pale because of the sickness.
She didn't speak the entire time.
"Forgive me if I'm prying, but is there something wrong?" I asked her, once we were done and she was putting the shoes on my feet.
"Oh. I'm so sorry, Bella. I had no idea that my maniac driving would do that to you. I'll drive slowly whenever you're in the car with me from now on, I promise." She blurted out, wrapping her little arms around my calves and resting her head on my thighs.
"It's all right, Alice. I get sick easily anyway." I patted her head and played with her cute spiky hair.
Suddenly, she shot out of my grasp.
"Oh, thank you, Bella. Thank you, thank you!" She gasped, wrapping her arms around my shoulders in a bone-crushing hug.
I hugged her back and patted her back and sighed, closing my eyes.
"I need a human moment." I murmured, and stood up to stumble to the bathroom.
I put the toilet seat down then sat on it, resting my head in my hands and letting the exhaustion take over.
A few minutes later I heard his soft velvet voice through the door.
"Bella, love? Are you all right?" He sounded concerned.
I smiled softly and decided to lie.
"Yes, Edward. I'm all right. I'll be out in a minute." I murmured quietly, I knew he could hear me.
I washed my hands in the sink-although there was no need for it-and opened the bathroom door to see Alice with her hands on her hips.
"Come on! It's time for you two to go! Edwards' waiting downstairs for you!" She bounced up and down, grabbing my hand.
She pulled me down the stairs softly, making sure that she wasn't moving me too much.
And there he was.
He was dressed in a black button up with slacks. He had unbuttoned the first two three buttons and I could see a white t-shirt peaking out under his shirt.
He had a bouquet of roses in his hand, and I smiled, sighing. He was so beautiful.
Over the past week he had dazzled me often, not meaning to sometimes, and making me hyperventilate and my heart beat fast.
He had no idea what he did to me.
He opened his arms for me and I ran-as fast as I could- into them, burying my face into his chest and embracing the feel of the electric shock that ran through me at his soft touch.
"I missed you," He whispered in my ear, and I smiled.
"I was only gone for a few hours."
"Mm, and?" He asked me, pressing a kiss to the top of my head before burying his face in my hair.
"And I missed you, too." I smiled.
Suddenly I heard a click and felt a flash on Edward and me.
I opened my eyes, trying to locate where it came from when I saw Alice with a camera in her hand, the old kind, where the pictures came out. Polaroid's.
She handed it to him, and he handed the flowers to her, while he adjusted me to I was leaning on his hip with his arm around me, my head on his shoulder, while he held the picture in front of us.
It took a minute for the blackness to fade away, but when it did I smiled.
There we were, his arms wrapped around me and mine around him, my face in his chest, eyes closed, a soft smile on my lips, while he had his head resting on mine, his lips slightly puckered and kissing, while his eyes were closed.
We looked like we belonged together.
(A/n: Okay, guys, the dates in the next chapter. Sorry it took me so long, but from now on, I'm updating EVERY MONDAY!!
I WON'T UPDATE UNTIL I GET 15 REVIEWS!!!!!!!!)