I knew what his eyes tried to tell me. His eyes, full of pity and sadness, and then, it struck me. I knew what he was really trying to say. It was hard, now that I understood that he needed to be elsewhere. He needed to be with the one who counted on him more, and apparently, who he counted on more as well. I felt like such a loser and idiot for even thinking that maybe…

Ever since he said "I also…" and left the sentence hanging, I was left pondering. Did he really think that? Did he really feel something for me?

Apparently not.

I was incredibly lost when I saw her in his arms and he was saying that he would not leave her until she said no. The way he said it - I knew he was being sincere and he actually meant what he was saying.

Why was it so hard to believe his words though when I knew that he loved her, and not me? Was it because I did not want to believe it? Was it because I wanted him to say that to me? It is incredibly hard to form a coherent sentence when my heart beats this much when I look at them both.

He turned around and that was when I knew his eyes were trying to say something to me. I knew that he could not have me and I could not have him. So those days where he saved me as Tuxedo Mask was truly over...

I tugged at my heart as I tried to reconcile myself. The pain was unbearable. It was excruciating.

He was going to be with Hina and leave Tokyo for England. And there was absolutely nothing that I could do to stop them.

I wanted to cry so badly - just let out my emotions and just show him that I want him more than she wants him. No doubt that he would never speak to me again, but I needed to let him know how I felt about him doing this. How his actions are hurting me inside - like a dagger piercing through my heart.

Wanting to let my tears show was not an option at a time like this as I knew I had to go and fight the youma causing all the havoc. I smiled, trying to conceal my true feelings, "Hurry and run!"

I saw his face as he looked strained at me and his eyes - oh his eyes - were looking at me with sympathy and sadness. They were not what they were when they looked at Hina. Knowing that I had to hurry, I exclaimed, "Hurry and run!" before running off into the direction where the youma was. I just needed to run away. I didn't know if he was coming after me or if he was still with Hina.

Frankly, I didn't care. All I cared about was trying to forget about him - forget that he even existed.

...That was going to be hard.

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