Author: Midnight Angel Sakura PM
So I am annoying and you want me to leave you the hell alone? Fine, I guess. Couples:SasuSaku.Rated: Fiction K+ - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Sakura H. & Sasuke U. - Words: 2,702 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 23 - Follows: 2 - Published: 05-21-09 - Status: Complete - id: 5077657
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Me: Okay, this idea just came into my head when I read a fanfic and because of other things from my imagination. Hope you enjoy. Oh yeah, most of it is in Sakura's POV.
Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN NARUTO
I was in the kitchen when I heard the front door of my boyfriend's house slam. I saw him storm into the kitchen and took a glass before he filled it with water.
"Sasuke, what's wrong?" I asked as I touched his arm.
"Leave me the hell alone," he said as he shrugged away from me.
What's up with him? I approached him again. "Sasuke, please tell me what's wrong," I tried again.
"Why do you have to be so frigging annoying all the time," he said to me.
'So frigging annoying.' Those words played over and over in my head. It brought back memories from my past. I remembered standing that night on the path that led out of the village. I remembered how the cold air swept past us and how I was trying to get him to stay, but he ended up saying that I was still annoying.
This was the first time from that night that I heard him say that. I gave up trying to figure out what was wrong, and I watched as he stormed out of the kitchen.
So I am frigging annoying and you want me to leave you the hell alone? Fine, I guess. I heard the door to his room shut and I finished up in the kitchen before going upstairs into the room where my stuff was. I picked up my bag and gathered up my stuff. I went downstairs grabbed a piece of paper and a pen. I don't even know why I am writing a note, but I just have this strong feeling to.
I will be at Ino's.
I still love him, I really do, know matter how much it hurts me. I walked into the kitchen and placed the note next to his empty glass. I quietly made my way out the front door and I started walking down the street. In ten minutes I reached Ino's house and I knocked on the door.
"Who would knock on my door this late at night?!" Ino said her voice getting louder as she reached the door.
"Whoever you are go away," she said as she opened the door.
When she fully opened the door and saw me, a questioning look came on her face. She then looked at my bag and she stepped aside for me to come in.
"What's up," she said concerned.
"Not right now," I said as I placed my bag down.
"We need a girl's night right now," she said as she walked into the living room.
"Hello? Tenten come over to my house ASAP. Girl's night now," Ino said before she hanged up the phone and dialed another number.
"Hello? Neji, can I please speak to Hinata?" I heard her ask. "Hello? Hinata, come over here ASAP, girl's night. I know this is sudden but something came up and it's really important." I heard her put the phone back on the receiver before she came back by me.
"C'mon," she said as she took my bag and pulled me along. When we arrived in her room I took a seat on the bed.
"The others would be here soon; make yourself comfortable," she said before she set my bag next to the bed.
"Coming," Ino yelled before running downstairs. I listening as Tenten asked what the problem was. Soon footsteps could be heard coming up the stairs, and the door to Ino's room opened.
After they fixed their things they took a seat next to me on the bed. "Now would you care to explain what happened?" Ino asked.
I sucked in a deep breath of air before I told them what happened to me a while ago. I watched as their faces turned concerned. Hinata, which was the closest to me, gave me a hug before the others joined in.
"Don't worry honey, something must have happened to make him this mad," Tenten said to me.
So much for having a relaxing night out with the guys. Sai just had to ruin everything by bringing up unwanted things from my past. I can't believe I yelled at Sakura, she was just concerned and I just exploded and yelled at her. I didn't mean to say all those things to her. Sure she is annoying but it's a cute annoying. She cares and even if she's annoying that's something I love about her. I should go apologize.
I got up and opened my room door. I checked the room down the hallway but she wasn't in there and I check other places that I thought she would be, but I didn't find her. I went into the kitchen and noticed a piece of paper next to my glass and I picked it up.
I will be at Ino's.
I put the paper back on the counter before going out of the house. I walked down the street to Ino's house. Instead of knocking, I sneaked into the house and hid in the shadows.
I left my bedroom to get some snacks. I grabbed a few cups and filled them with juice and I grabbed a few fruits. I could see the look of pain in Sakura's eyes and it reminded me of that time. I shivered just thinking about it. I placed the fruits in a bowl and placed it on a tray. I also set the cups on the tray before I came out of the kitchen.
When I left the kitchen, I found Hinata and Tenten in the living room. Then I remembered that we should not leave Sakura alone right now. I shivered and goose bumps covered my skin.
"Why are you guys in the living room?" Ino asked panicked.
"We thought that Sakura needed some time alone," Tenten said.
"That's a bad idea," Ino said.
"What do you mean?" Hinata asked.
I listened to the girls' conversation and I really wanted to know what Ino meant when she said that leaving Sakura alone was a bad idea.
I let out a sigh and placed the tray on the little coffee table.
"Okay, here's what I mean," I said before I began explaining.
"You know how I few years ago Sasuke left the village?" They nodded, so I continued. "Well, when he left Sakura was really depressed, but she was already feeling bad from before because of her own home life. Not many people know that much about her and they think that she's just some smart kid that most likely has no problems, but they are wrong. She has been through so much in her life and when Sasuke left that just pushed her over the edge.
"Truth is she was already off the cliff only surviving by a thin thread and when Sasuke walked away that thread broke and she started spiraling down. No one probably noticed this as much as I had. She lost a lot, she didn't care anymore. I found a book of hers and it was full of what look like poems. These poems had all her feelings put into it, and I looked through a few.
"I brought me to tears. Once I even caught her trying to slit her wrists. I stopped her and I told Naruto. Both of us were there for her and we didn't let her out of our sight. She soon got over that. Also at the end of her poems, there was always one petal from a cherry blossom and it was splattered with blood. I know creepy, but she was seriously in pain.
"She told me she never slit her wrists and that the blood came from when she pressed a kunai to her fingers. She would just let one drop fall on each petal. And now I am afraid that she would go back to that. C'mon let's go before she actually get to cutting her wrists."
I listen to Ino's story and I couldn't believe it. Sakura was in so much pain yet she hid that and always wore a smile on her face. She always was cheerful and no matter what condition she was in, she would put others first. I felt like just running to her and telling her to stop and don't that ever again.
I noticed when the girls got up and I followed them from the shadows.
Am I really that annoying? Am I useless just like before? Those words were still in my head. After all this time, I am still annoying.
I felt alone again. I felt unwanted and useless, like how I use to feel when I was younger. I felt tears building up in my eyes, but I didn't want to cry. I felt one tear slide down my cheek and I wiped it away.
I took my kunai pouch and emptied it out on the floor looking for one specific kunai, and then I found it lying there with some blood on the tip of it. I picked it up and went into the bathroom connected to Ino's room. I washed of the tip of my kunai and dried it before I went back into Ino's room. I walked over to the window and looked up at the moon in the sky. I gripped the kunai and brought it up to my left hand. No one is around now to stop me like last time.
Ino and the girls hurried up the stairs and Sasuke followed them in the shadows. As soon as Ino opened the door, she saw Sakura at her window with her backs facing them.
Sasuke sneaked into the room and hid in the open closet watching what went on. Ino looked at Sakura's right hand and noticed it was raised in the direction of her left hand. Tenten and Hinata also looked at Sakura's back.
No, not again. I saw the shiny metal kunai in her hand. "Sakura, stop it," I said as I walked towards her. She paid no attention to my words just like before. The image of a younger Sakura standing at my window with a kunai in her hand popped into my head.
"Sakura, you have to stop it. I know that we don't know how you feel, but please stop," I said using almost the same exact words a used a few years ago.
"Sakura, you are not alone, don't you ever think that. You have friends; you have people who love you. Stop it, Sakura," I said as I took a step forward.
She didn't move an inch, but I could see the tears that came down her face. It's just like before. She's crying, but this time it's a little different. I don't think anyone of us could stop her this time.
I listen to the words Ino spoke to me and it reminded me of a few years ago when she managed to stop me. I looked down at the kunai in my hand and I saw my reflection. I saw the pain, the hurt, I saw it all and I felt a pain throbbing inside of me. My tears dropped on the kunai one by one and fell to the floor.
This pain is too much and it feels like it has increased since the last time. When Sasuke came back, he was my sun, my light. He took away the pain, the hurt. All the darkness seemed to disappear, but what happened a few hours ago sent me spiraling back into the darkness. I am slowly being engulfed in it and I don't think I could stop myself this time.
I watched the scene in front of me, Sakura standing at the window with a kunai in her hand and tears streaming down her face, Hinata and Tenten frozen in place at the bedroom door, and Ino trying to get Sakura to stop.
I watched as Sakura's head looked down at her hands and I saw her grip the kunai tighter. Is this how she was when I left? I couldn't believe it. From the way it looked, it looked like no one would be able to stop her. I suddenly felt myself moving and I don't know how I suddenly ended up behind her, but I did hear the surprised gasps of her friends.
I felt someone behind me, but I didn't care. My grip on the kunai was so tight that my knuckles were white. I watched as my hands started shaking and I brought it closer to my left hand. The kunai was just a few inches away from my wrist and I watched the moonlight shine of it.
I couldn't stand to see her like this and knowing that it's my fault that she was in this situation made me feel completely horrible. I saw when she moved the kunai closer to her left wrist and my hand suddenly shot forward and held hers back.
I saw and felt someone's hand around my right wrist holding me back from cutting myself. "Please stop Sakura," I heard and I sucked in a sharp breath. What was he doing here? Am I not annoying? I felt him pulling the kunai out of my hand and I heard when it fell to the ground. "I'm sorry," I heard him say as he pulled me in for a hug.
"I didn't mean to yell at you; I was already mad and then I took my anger out on you. I'm so sorry," he said holding me tightly against him.
I broke down crying, clutching the front of his shirt. He slowly led me over to the bed and I heard the others leave the room. I just couldn't hold everything in anymore and now I am letting it all out.
I watched as she let everything out and after a good while she started to calm down. Her tight grip on my shirt loosened a bit and her crying started to stop. "It's okay," I said. "I'm sorry," I said again.
We sat there for a while before I heard her even breaths. I looked down and saw that she was asleep and I gently picked her up. I walked out of Ino's room with Sakura in my arms and her bag slung over my shoulder. When I entered the living room I saw the girls look up in concern.
"She's alright, just a little tired," I told them. They nodded and Ino opened the front door for me. I said a small thank you before starting home with Sakura.
I woke up and found myself in Sasuke's arms and we were on his bed. "Hey, he said. "Hi," I mumbled.
"I'm so sorry," I heard him say again.
"I know," I said, "I forgive you."
"I was mad before because of Sai because he said some unnecessary things about my past and that's why I got mad. I'm sorry and now you have nothing to worry about anymore, I'm here," I heard him whisper as he ran his fingers through my hair. I nodded. Now I have my light back and this time he is not going anywhere.
Me: Well this is it. Please leave a review telling me what you thought about it.