|Rise Above This
Author: FullMetalButterfly PM
Ichigo and Renji have an extremely romantic relationship, until Renji dies from a hollow attack on Karakura Town. How is Ichigo to cope with the loss of his lover? Just when he thought there was nothing left to live for, Grimmjow Jeagerjaques appears.Rated: Fiction M - English - Angst/Romance - Grimmjow J. & Ichigo K. - Chapters: 3 - Words: 6,305 - Reviews: 14 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 12 - Updated: 06-13-09 - Published: 06-03-09 - Status: Complete - id: 5109678
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Disclaimer: I sadly own nothing. All credit for the characters and series goes to Tite Kubo. I'm just the weird fangirl who came up with this story
It's been 3 days since I met Grimmjow. My mind has been a battlefield since then. He truly messed me up. I don't like admitting that he's been clouding my thinking. That would be like Ikkaku admitting that he's actually bald. It just won't happen. Ever.
I haven't been back to Kisuke's yet. I don't know why, but I haven't really felt like it. I'm still mad at myself for losing the stuffed baboon. Or maybe I'm mad at dad. After all, it was because of him kicking me that I lost it in the first place. Annoying goat-face..! Just thinking about it frustrates me.
I went back to school today. Now it's been two weeks since Grimmjow. I'm starting to become irritated at myself. Why haven't I gone back to Urahara Shoten? Sure, I still haven't gotten my replacement memento, but I'm starting to think of that less and less. When would I see Grimmjow again? That teal hair was starting to burn a hole in my memory. I keep thinking about it, and it's driving me crazy.
One month. It's been one month since I've seen him. I'm starting to become a little desperate. I've been edgy the past couple of days, and even Orihime has started avoiding me. It seems like I'll explode on anyone if they do even one little thing wrong. I never used to do that. What did that man do to me? I wish I knew.
Two. Freakin'. Months. That bastard hasn't shown his face around here since then! I'm so pissed off I can't even take it. I want to rip his smug little head off. Maybe that'll teach him something. I think I'll head over to Kisuke's. He might know what Grimmjow wanted with him in the first place. Or maybe he can tell me where to find that son of a bitch. Either way, it's going to turn out for that bastard.
"Kisuke!" I called out as I entered Urahara Shoten. There was no answer, so I shouted again a couple of times. That finally got the shop keeper's attention, as he quickly came out of the back room with his finger over his mouth in a 'shh' fashion. Glad that he had finally shown himself, I quieted down.
"Jeez, Ichigo, could you be any louder? Yoruichi's sleeping back there. She was in a pretty bad scuffle, and Tessai just finished bandaging her," Kisuke stated as he scratched his head underneath his hat, which was placed slightly to the side.
"Sorry," I replied as I shifted my weight onto my left leg. "Hey, I was wondering if you knew someone by the name Grimmjow?" Kisuke suddenly stood very still.
"Grimmjow?" he asked.
"Yeah, he's got spiky teal hair, blue eyes, and a jaw bone over his right cheek. I think he also has a hole in his abdomen."
Kisuke started to look uneasy. That was all the information I needed to know that he did indeed know who he was. I looked him straight in the eyes, and he started to crack. "Grimmjow Jeagerjaques is…an Espada in Sousuke Aizen's army. He was the enemy of Soul Society and Soul Reapers. He's also my ex."
"What!" I gasped, not believing what I had just heard. I was screwed by Kisuke's ex boyfriend? I have one question for that: who was tops? Awkward question, never mind…
"I broke up with him the day before you came over last, actually. He was quite possessive; he came over to the shop occasionally. Is that how you met him?"
"You know we met?" How'd he know? I never told him that.
"I know that's not all you did," he said as he looked me straight in the eyes. What?! I started to gape. How did he know all of this!
Kisuke took one look at me and started to laugh. Oh now what! "I'm sorry Ichigo, I just couldn't help myself," he said after his laughing fit. Bastard. "The truth is, Grimmjow and I talked after your guys' little run-in. He was trying to gloat to me at first, but once he told me it had been you, I completely went off on him. He didn't know how important of an asset you are to Soul Society."
"And if he had known the truth he wouldn't have done that to me? Yeah right," I sighed. Sometimes this loony shop keeper didn't make any sense whatsoever.
"No, he probably wouldn't have. You see, Grimmjow is on our side against Sousuke. Even though he was angry from our break-up, he does have some self-control. Possibly injuring our ace isn't something he would do knowingly."
Huh. No way. So he's basically saying I haven't seen Grimmjow because he feels guilty for what he did to me? He doesn't seem the type to even possess that emotion, let alone act on it. "Where is he?" I asked.
"In Hueco Mundo, of course. Why, do you want to talk to him?"
I looked up at Kisuke and replied, "Yeah. I'd like to beat some sense into him." Kisuke gave a small smirk before pointing toward the front door. I turned around, and there standing in the doorway was my teal-haired obsession.
"Man, I feel sorry for whoever pissed you off," Grimmjow said as he sauntered into the shop. "Yo, Capt., Strawberry."
"Grimmjow," Kisuke acknowledged the Espada. I didn't say anything. I couldn't. Not at the moment. I just stood staring at the man I hadn't seen for two months. Even though I said I was going to beat him, now that he was in front of me I couldn't seem to make myself do it.
"Grimmjow…" I whispered as I clutched the sides of my jeans. I was overwhelmed. Tears started to form in my eyes. I felt like I couldn't control anything anymore. I broke down crying in front of everyone. It felt good to cry, so I let myself do it.
Grimmjow stood before the ledge, startled. I don't think he ever expected to see me do something so incredibly girly. I hadn't expected on showing him something like this either. I surprised the both of us.
The Espada turned to Kisuke, looking for some advice, but the shop keeper had slipped out of the room. I was thankful that he understood how much I wanted to be alone with Grimmjow. I guess he can take hints.
I stood in front of the door to the adjacent room, grasping my jeans and crying towards my feet. Grimmjow stood in his place for a moment before sighing, and walked closer to me. "Ichigo," he said as he tried to comfort me. "I'm sorry about before. If I had known who you were I wouldn't have done that, even if I was twice as mad as I had been that day."
"W…what?" I asked between sobs, the backs of my hands acting like tissues.
"That's what you're crying about, right? Sorry for coming here and reminding you about it, but there was something I had to talk to Kisuke about," he said as he stepped on the ledge and started walking past me.
"Grimmjow you idiot!" I yelled as he brushed my shoulder. The Espada stopped, turning to face me. My eyes were red and there were tear marks running down my face, but I didn't care. I was bound and determined to tell this dumbass the truth. "I'm not crying because of what you did to me! I'm crying because it took two months and my initiative to finally see you again!"
I was mad now. I shouldn't have had to say those words. He should be able to understand the hidden message. It's not too hard to do! Why is it that when it's the most important, they never get it?
"What?" he asked, his eyes widening. "What are you talking about? Are you stupid?! I fucking raped you! And here you are crying because I didn't come by to see you?" Now it was Grimmjow's turn to be mad. He grabbed my shoulders, his nails digging into my skin. I winced slightly at the sensation. "You know, because of you I've had to face a lot of hell!"
"It wasn't my fault you did what you did!" I snapped back. Why was he turning into such an ass again?
"If you hadn't been there, I wouldn't have done it! And your attitude! It's as twisted as ever, I see. It's a wonder no one did something like that before," he said with a know-it-all smirk. I started to tremble; my anger was reaching new heights. The man who had been on my mind non-stop was finally in front of me. Why was I always thinking about him? Was it because he annoyed the living crap out of me? Or was it something else? Either way, at the moment I just wanted to punch his lights out.
"Aw, look, you're shaking. Maybe you should learn how to control your emotions before you try to face something that you're not ready for. Just admit it, it'll make it easier on the both of us," he let go of my shoulders and turned, starting to walk away.
"Grimmjow!" I yelled at his back. He stopped and turned slightly. Before he could react, I punched him in the jaw. On the right side. That was stupid. His head moved back slightly from the impact, but there was no damage on his face to show for my act. All that resulted was my red, swollen hand. "Ever since that day when I first met you, you've been on my mind constantly! I have no idea why though, because you're a total dick. At home, at school, it doesn't matter where I am. I'm annoyed at every little thing. I kept thinking on how much of a coward you were, not showing your face around me since then. But now that I know it's because you felt guilty, well, that's no better! What the hell did you do to me?"
Grimmjow scowled, his mouth opening on the right side into a frown. He didn't look happy at all. "What the hell would you know," he said lightly. He started to turn again before I called his name. That made him snap. He turned, lunging at me before grabbing my head and pressing our lips together. I stood there shocked for a moment. What just happened?
When he was done, Grimmjow pulled my head away, sighed, and said, "You dumbass. You think you're the only one who's been plagued with thoughts of someone else? Ever since I learned about you, I've been worried that you'd hate me, that I wouldn't be able to work with you against Sousuke. I worried about that day in and out. There was never another thought in my mind. I started thinking about how much of a pansy I was being, so I gave up on ever hoping to meet you again."
"Grimmjow…" I whispered, shocked at what I had just heard. Now he really didn't seem the type to think like that! So why was he doing it? Was he actually a much kinder person than I had originally made him out to be? But…how could that be? Wait…what? I'm starting to confuse myself.
"Look, it's alright if you don't want to see me anymore, ok? But…if you do, then don't go," he said as he looked at me through sad eyes. How could I resist him? I didn't know he could be this cute.
"I'm not going anywhere," I replied as I hung my hands around his waist. He put his arms around my back in an embrace. I don't think I've ever felt something so warm and comforting.
Well, this is the end! I hope you enjoyed it!
I was originally planning to add a ch. 4 full of fluff, but after thinking about it and taking 2 months to think of something...nothing came to mind. I hope you're not disappointed with me! D:
But, all of my lazyness aside...yes, I know my writing did change. I don't know how. I'm just weird like that lol
Until my next story then!